Walaikumasalaam,
Jazahka Allah for sharing!
Some of the wants are acceptable in Islam, like wanting to speak English, eating a variety of food, and so on but a few, like listening to music (any music), is obviously haraam.
The end result we want must also reflect the life we have lived or are living. In sha Allah.
May Allah swt help us all make positive changes in our life Ameen.