unable to recite

[livew1re]

AoA everyone I've never looked at a forum like this but this has been bugging me a lot recently and I don't have many people to talk to.
I take Qur'an classes online and have been ever since I was a toddler. It involves me reciting first and having the Qari correct me if I make a mistake. Usually I have no problem doing this - obviously I stutter sometimes as I don't speak Arabic, but other than that it's smooth sailing.
Recently I logged on for a class and began to recite, but this time was different. I tried to read but it felt like my throat was almost closing up and tears kept falling. It took me almost 20 minutes to get through two pages in pain and I kept having to pause because I was inexplicably sobbing. I have no idea why this happened - it was a normal day and I was feeling content, but after that class I felt terrible because I wasn't able to recite. Has something similar happened to any of you? Could there be a reason? I still feel guilty about this

 

[Twilight Mist]

AoA everyone I've never looked at a forum like this but this has been bugging me a lot recently and I don't have many people to talk to.
I take Qur'an classes online and have been ever since I was a toddler. It involves me reciting first and having the Qari correct me if I make a mistake. Usually I have no problem doing this - obviously I stutter sometimes as I don't speak Arabic, but other than that it's smooth sailing.
Recently I logged on for a class and began to recite, but this time was different. I tried to read but it felt like my throat was almost closing up and tears kept falling. It took me almost 20 minutes to get through two pages in pain and I kept having to pause because I was inexplicably sobbing. I have no idea why this happened - it was a normal day and I was feeling content, but after that class I felt terrible because I wasn't able to recite. Has something similar happened to any of you? Could there be a reason? I still feel guilty about this

Salam. What you experienced is more common than you think, and it doesn’t mean something is wrong with you.
When we haven’t been reciting Qur’an for a while — even if we used to be fluent — it can take time to get that flow back. It’s just like riding a bicycle after years; the skill is still there, but we need a few tries to find our balance again. The tongue, the breath, even the emotions — all need time to re-adjust.

And sometimes, the Qur’an touches a part of us that words can’t explain — that might be where the tears came from. It’s not failure. It’s a sign your heart is alive, walhamdulillah. Just be patient with yourself. Keep going gently — it will come back, and perhaps even stronger than before.
May Allah ease it for you and place barakah in your journey.