assalamu alaykum
sister, Allah already is showering His blessings on you. The fact that you are able to share your feelings and arent trapped in some dark world in a coma is a blessing, no? You have, health, food, a roof over your head and much much more. So you already have His blessings. However, if you want to earn His pleasure and increase your blessings in the dunya and akhirah, then you have to make the effort. If you feel unworthy, then strive to make yourself a better person until you feel hope and think to yourself that.. "I'm trying my best, so InshaAllah my Lord will accept my good deeds, forgive my sins and increase His blessings on me." If one, e.g. just makes duaa because they wish to start offering salah but doesn't even get up and make that effort then how will that work? We have to make the effort and pray to Allah to increase us in it.
Ask Allah subana wa ta'ala for His help by invoking Him by His beautiful name below, as it's meaning is 'The Guardian of Faith'.
Al-Mu'min
Guardian of Faith, The One who witnessed for Himself that no one is God but Him. And He witnessed for His believers that they are truthful in their belief that no one is God but Him.
"The most beautiful names belong to God: so call on Him by them;..." (7:180)
assalamu alaykum