Your Emaan and Islamic character, how it would affect? Can you kill, with your own hands, get the blood all over you? Be the reason someone is without parents, or with the ones they love? Is there peace in your heart, when you run and crave for blood to be shed, torture yourself the way they were tortured? Will it make them come back, or just make you feel better? Is it done for you, or them? What I wanna say is, it's all very complicated, when you kill someone, the reasons and the later regrets or not... I personally, would find all this very hard, although at first hand, it would seem easy. I can see where you're comin' from, very very well. But I leaned on that side when I was younger, I believe I have matured more and now that's why I am saying all this, 'cause there's so much more to it.