Nitro Zeus
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Today, when I was at the dentist. I told her horrible things, that she is a evil female demon shaped into a human female. And that Christianity is full of lies and so on. I told her that I feel extremely jealous that my aunt is a Muslim and my mother is a disbeliever Christian and my aunt's children are very lucky while me, I,am very unlucky because I did not have what they have, and probably I will meet only my Muslim aunt and my Muslim cousins including my father and all who are Muslims in Paradise, and I feel bad without her. I know I have no right to call her disbeliever, but I call her like this because she heard stories of the Prophet and yet, she still reject Islam.
It is possible to make the bad and shocking memory I gave her today, to forget as if it never happened? How can I ask her forgiveness for my bad behaviour? Because, I was also in big shock and anger that I realised that I have to accept and acommodate with this life as it is like everyone else is. I feel like from now the hardship starts to me, is having difficulties of acommodating and accepting with the actual divine laws and legislations as it is withoht wishing a new one, it is a trial test? Or I have made it? When I say "accepting" I dont mean necessarly to even act upon the feeling of not accepting or rejecting the Truth, because it has a spooky consequence if I act upon my feelings. You know what I mean?
It is possible to make the bad and shocking memory I gave her today, to forget as if it never happened? How can I ask her forgiveness for my bad behaviour? Because, I was also in big shock and anger that I realised that I have to accept and acommodate with this life as it is like everyone else is. I feel like from now the hardship starts to me, is having difficulties of acommodating and accepting with the actual divine laws and legislations as it is withoht wishing a new one, it is a trial test? Or I have made it? When I say "accepting" I dont mean necessarly to even act upon the feeling of not accepting or rejecting the Truth, because it has a spooky consequence if I act upon my feelings. You know what I mean?