Yeah. I think I noticed this too in our society. It's truly the era of technology. Maybe long ago love was still there like with Romeo and Juliet, Adam and Eve, and many others. Back then, there was this girl named Ginger Abad Santos from University of Santo Tomas(UST) when I was 1st year college that broke my heart. He had a crush on me 1st, but I wasn't still ready because I was experiencing Panic Attacks while studying and then bam, I dropped out. I had a crush on her too, but I couldn't express it in any way. Anyways, I then, after my 2nd panic attack episode, was paralyzed in bed for 1 year and 3 months, and when I recovered, I saw her at outside UST at some corner about to go to school and we saw each other and said hi. I then I told her all the truth about my feelings for her that I truly love her and posted wierd things on her timeline and then she deleted me as a friend. There was a malicious post I posted too, astagfirullah. My heart was broken. I tried to love other girls but eventually my heart got broken again. Right now, there is this girl on our condo working on a store called Kambal Pandesal at the ground floor that has a crush on me my sister said. She asked my sister for my number but I still don't have a cellphone until now. But soon enough when I already have one, I will try to ask her if that is true.
Love is mysterious. I will tell you why they dumped me all. It's because I was too good. That is not good. To be too good. Ha ha. Get it? Too much is not good, it is bad. So now I balance it. I'm not a people pleaser anymore just like back then when I had panic attack because I became a lie or a person which I am not because I had to be fake for I had been dropped out on 4th year college for having low grades and always cutting classes(astagfirullah), and I showed them a person that is not me, and I lost my identity.
Anyways, I am single. I just had 1 girlfriend which is Katrina Villarosa, and that just lasted for 1 day. We became bf and gf 2 times already but yeah, just for only 1 day. And ofcourse, I was also dumped immediately after I was too desperate but she was the one who wanted because I was kinda funny and I came with huge charisma on the park. I kissed her and hold her boobies. Astagfirullah. And was too much of a nice guy when I was sending her home I was like I want to carry her cellphone and was treating her like a princess which she didn't like. But we kissed before she went up the condo and tomorrow we're done. He was talking to someone on the phone and she is snobbing me. I went to the back of the chapel and shouted and cried.
I promised myself from now on I will not cry for a woman. I will follow my parents about what they say that I should not approach women, and instead let them approach me, and don't marry too early. I must 1st finish studies, get a job, become rich, and have a house of my own and even a car.
Alhamdullilah.
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