no its not the song. tho i remember it every time i think of "i feel like dyin"
hm
newayz
its getting lower and lower, im praying isha now, just missing fajr, but doesnt matter coz everything else getting worse. When i pray, i stop in the middle of rukuh or something, anythin, i just stop in the middle of prayer and start cryin...randomly. then i restart, and try to not do it this time, i feel like the shaitan is distracting me, i dont complete prayer the right way till waaay after. everything is going too fast, life, future, travel, marriage, family, school, and...religion...the hardest one, if i could take out all of those things but one i would choose nothing but religion to stay, its hard to bear all this. too hard, and everything is moving too fast. i always feel like the angel of death is following me , becase it knows what i want. i always prepare for it knowing im not prepared. but i kno it'll happen sometime, and i wish i could find out how and when it will happen. i feel like its in the room with me right now, about to happen, and i want it to happen, at the same time dont want it to happen coz im not prepared. i cant really say everything...but, ...
im not crazy, i might be stupid.
so dont fink am on something other than a chair.
Sis, it also depends on how you think as well. If you thnk ur Imaan is getting lower, then it will. But if u think r trying ur best, then ur Imaan will increase. Get me?
So very true, Henry Ford the car manufacturer said the same thing slightly differently.
Whether you believe you can or you believe you can't-- You are right.
In the end you don't have to trust any of us here, you need to place your trust in Allah, and believe and trust in the gifts he has given you.
You must trust that Allah would not place a burden on you that you cannot carry.
The burden you are placing on yourself that you cannot carry is the time spent on the internet
slaam sis not one of us is perfect we all feel weak and have low imaan from time to time the thing is to not give in shatan attacks us when we have good imaan and when we have low imaan this is the point to keep striving. the Quran also helps even if you juts pick a random ayah surah read it after praying or when you have a few minutes before bed. you need to pick 2 targets for this year one should always be your deen and i would say your school work and dont worry about the rest for now try and work on these.
The trouble is when you have so many things in your mind you lose control and cant concentrate so deal with the ones that are priority like your deen and study and ask Allah (swt) to put your affairs streight for you i.e your life .
Surah (29) Al-ANKABOOT {THE SPIDER}
29:2 Do men imagine that they will be left (at ease) because they say, We believe, and will not be tested with affliction ?
Subhaan Allaahi wa bi hamdihi, Subhaan Allaahil-'Aheem
(Glorified is Allah and praised is He, Glorified is Allah the Most Great)
but i got a request, i want you to specifically make dua' for me please!!!!!!!
Ok...i already do
but i doubt allah is listening
even if he does answer my duas i start thinking its a coincidence!!
oh and Eric H i come here during school......if ur my teacher for real pretend i didnt say that...i come here during classes and dont wanna do anything but come chill here coz school is pointless now, im supposed to be catching up wit my 17 overdue assignments....and i wont do them...coz its pointless. i have final math exams next wednesday..which i didnt kno i still had...and i will answer everthing random. like i already did wit the reading, science, and social studies exams.
my teachers are asking me why i suck now.. i just make some excuse
not a saving excuse but an excuse to let me fail it...
i was supposed to be doing this homeschool in yemen...but i told them i will just miss the monthes of school instead.
school is done i guess. im in 8th grade and already wanna drop outta school.
everyone is changing. i cant even talk to anyone in my family
i like sitting alone, coming to LI...something other than sitting with them.
i dont kno why.
i jsut go to a room, leave the light closed so they dont remember, and start writing my feelings in my poetry/freestyle book...(no i havent posted those ones...and i wont)
i turn on the radio, or ipod or something and start listening to stuff....by stuff i mean, quran,dua's, halal anasheed, partly haram music, and completely haram american music.
i dont like staying or talking to anyone but nice people like people here on LI...no im not obsessed but ur actually the only ones i can talk to.
now i gta go so i brb
and juss a sec ago my dad was askin me how school is...............amazing isnt it... thats so rare! i just told him its cool tho. he asked if im cought up and all , and am like yeh sure, of course. (feeling guilt...but i dont care)
and then i realized where this crap is goin...
they started talkin bout my brother, and him getting married, and then about us going to yemen...
and then he starts looking at me...and am like "did i do something"
then he starts sayin "she's gna come back engaged" (back from yemen)
im like "Ohhh yehh" (sarcastic)
and he like "Yeh sure why not? Look at bla bla bla, and bla bla bla...Besides when u get used to soemthing u will die with it"
i didnt evn get what that has to do with anything but yeh wutever
i asked him how old am i
he said it doesnt matter
i told him to tell me
he wont...wutttever
and now am back...coz i just left.
coz im so freakin ticked off right now.
we go eat breakfast the next thing they talkin bout is who is gonna marry me?! they all "nah he isnt good, how dare they ask. " bla bla bla
yes i come to LI whenever im ticked off,or sad...
which is most of the time of my life. sory just had to use that smiley!!!!!
SIS THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU ARE SAYING!! If you carry on like this you could make a statement that will lead to KUFR! Please sis....you need to calm down and think with a clear mind...
Stop being so pessimistic that's what leads to soo much stress..it's only u who can change ur mood ..sis c'mon for everything you find a negative side..don't u see that you have to start seeing good sides i' mean your not even sufferin like the people in Iraq and luk at them there so brave htere ready to fight and jump on ppl ..the palestinians are like dat too den why can't we be strong witout that many calamities ?
“The believers in their mutual kindness, compassion and sympathy are just like one body. When one of the limbs is afflicted, the whole body responds to it with sleeplessness and fever”.
Stop being so pessimistic that's what leads to soo much stress..it's only u who can change ur mood ..sis c'mon for everything you find a negative side..don't u see that you have to start seeing good sides i' mean your not even sufferin like the people in Iraq and luk at them there so brave htere ready to fight and jump on ppl ..the palestinians are like dat too den why can't we be strong witout that many calamities ?
Oh if i could i would soooo go chill wit da palestinians and fite wit em...
seriously
that jihad is so much better than this jihad.
besides there is NOTHING positive about quitting school, my future which i always wished for for like 8 yrs, and wasting my life....whats so positive about that?
if im going to throw my life away in that way i'd rather die. a long painful death too!
k listen to me carefully...U DON"T KNW WHAT"S GNNA HAPPEN IN THE FUTURE...ppl jst talkk..ur still growing up..do your part..your not even studyin..how do u expect to be a doctor..i wanted to drop outta skool too but i went thru high skool nd now alhamdullah i'm doin so good in gr 12 but wit the help of Allah (s.w.t) therez always a positive side only u hv to know hwo to find it..u keep studyin ...ur jst giving those people who want to marry u off more benefit cuz ur not even doing goood..so go on study..what r u waitin for..keep going and inshallah ti will b worth it
“The believers in their mutual kindness, compassion and sympathy are just like one body. When one of the limbs is afflicted, the whole body responds to it with sleeplessness and fever”.
It's normal to feel bored with life, to feel down and depressed at times as well. Every body goes through it at some point or another. Don't let some temporary thing throw you completely off track from your dreams. If you don't do well in school, you can never become a doctor.
As for doubts, we all doubt here and there. I'll admit, I doubted so much for a few years that I became an atheist. Since I've turned back to God in the last 2-3 years, my life has been much better. I still have doubts about this and that here, and we all have questions we can't seem to answer. That's completely normal. Don't get hung up on that. Just keep believing and praying and the cloud will eventually pass.
Do you have a guidance councellor where you are at your school? Perhaps they can offer you some advice, someone to talk to and they might be able to help you with asking for extensions on your overdue homework.
But like I said, don't let this temporary low ruin your future, trust me, chances are you will regret it later (I let depression get the better of me a few years ago and I missed some opportunities because of it - I'm still catching up). Don't waste the great opportunities God gave you!
It's normal to feel bored with life, to feel down and depressed at times as well. Every body goes through it at some point or another. Don't let some temporary thing throw you completely off track from your dreams. If you don't do well in school, you can never become a doctor.
As for doubts, we all doubt here and there. I'll admit, I doubted so much for a few years that I became an atheist. Since I've turned back to God in the last 2-3 years, my life has been much better. I still have doubts about this and that here, and we all have questions we can't seem to answer. That's completely normal. Don't get hung up on that. Just keep believing and praying and the cloud will eventually pass.
Do you have a guidance councellor where you are at your school? Perhaps they can offer you some advice, someone to talk to and they might be able to help you with asking for extensions on your overdue homework.
But like I said, don't let this temporary low ruin your future, trust me, chances are you will regret it later (I let depression get the better of me a few years ago and I missed some opportunities because of it - I'm still catching up). Don't waste the great opportunities God gave you!
Best of luck as this too shall pass.
OMG does that mean im going to be an athiest for a few years?!?!?!?!!!!!! :laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh::laugh:
truemuslim,
no, you are not going to become an atheist - even though you are having doubts about everything right now. i don't see you as anything but a muslim because it your heart, you know you are.
you are an american citizen. you're 15 years old and you're an american citizen. you do not have to allow yourself to be "married off" at 16 against your will.
i don't know if you read my earlier post but i urge you please do not stop doing your school work no matter how hopeless things may look right now. it may not turn out as awful as it looks now, and you may yet be able to continue your schooling so don't screw up your future.
you need to always have the most options possible and you can only do this if you finish school.
i wanna see you become a doctor!!! you know there is always a shortage of doctors for muslim women. like i said before, you're a bright kid - you can get A's without even working hard. if you keep up with your school work, you haven't lost anything. if you fail and drop out of school, you are pretty much guaranteeing that you have no future.
i realize it's hard to feel motivated when everything looks hopeless, but you need to push yourself. life can offer some unexpected surprises (look at woodrow!) and it may well turn out ok, so don't throw in the towel yet!
each man thinks of his own fleas as gazelles
question authority
Oh if i could i would soooo go chill wit da palestinians and fite wit em...
seriously
that jihad is so much better than this jihad.
besides there is NOTHING positive about quitting school, my future which i always wished for for like 8 yrs, and wasting my life....whats so positive about that?
if im going to throw my life away in that way i'd rather die. a long painful death too!
Ever stop and wonder why to fight in battle is called the lesser jihad and to fight our personal jihad, daily in life, is called the greater jihad?
hm..no i havent ever wondered bro abdullah. jazakallah khair
And snakelegs, my dad says...said the same exact things, he always all "I will never let u get married when u dont want to, and its your choice of who u get, we just there to support u and make sure whoever u get is good" and now look... He rejects everyone unless its on HIS side of the family which are clearly all sickk and screwed up people...sorry dad.
and school he always all "I will pay for your college, i will support u, dont make the mistake i made at school, i didnt even get past high school now look at me, i willl do anything to do to help u and ur brohters"
and now... its like "Hey dad im taking college credit next year" him "your getting married"
later... "hey dad i need you to look at these leters from the teachers and also i need you to sign the re enrollment thing and all"
him: "Your old enough, check em yourself."
then i just go throw them away or something coz as u all kno i give up quick. i hate life.
i hate how its haram to say u hate life
i hate everything and NO im not a gothic person or an emo..
the only good thing is islam, and no im not an islamic nun
Islam is good, but its too hard wit all this going on.
and again...my eyes are getting watery
dam i hate this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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