Im Hated By My Lord :(

**anonymous** · 05-06-2009

Assalamu Alaykum wr wb,
As i write this my eyes redden and fill with tears, no matter how much i would like to deny every bit of it is true. earlier on today i went throught the book "the ideal Muslimah" only to find i was hated, hated by my lord hated by our prophet Muhammed (saw).

I have tried to change but it just isnt that easy, things that i wanted to do before i read the book, i can no longer do im thinking twice about it.

In the book it puts low those who are...
1) over weigt -
( . . . Eat and drink: but waste not by excess, for Allah loves not the wasters.) (Qur'an 7:31)
2) ugly
3) Dumb
4) Bad hygiene etc...

This list mostly relates to me and the person whom i am, i question Allah why i am like this only to see that the fault is with me. I am sorry, i didnt mean to be like this and no i dont want to be like this but i cannot help it. I just have no motivation.

I am Over Weight and still a teenager yet wish to get married in the near future, but i know that it is not possible, because i am ugly, dumb, have limited knowledge about islam and have bad personal hygiene.

Each time i try to change and i fail i loose motivation, and stop praying. Just sit their and cry my eyes out.

Sometimes i wish i would just die, but then no, i dont want to die just now, because if i do i know for certain i will not go to Jannah, so i try to be a better muslim pray, but i wont last a week till i go back to my old self again.

I need help I need motivation, i just cant do it, im fed up with everything in this like, and today just pulled the last trigger. not being loved by my mother (dont live with my father) was bad enough, but now living a life knowning that the one whom created you hates you for who you are hurts, it hurts real bad.

**Yanal** · 05-08-2009

This might help take the laziness away sister.

Question:

The Quran is the answer to everything but it can be hard sometimes for non-shuyukh like msyelf to gain from it unless a shaykh opens it for us. I am not looking for ayats or ahadith on this topic, everyone knows so many of those alhamdolillah.

What I was looking for is something more inspirational. For example, reading the Quran inspires hearts by default, reciting with tarteel beings peace to the heart. On the same note, how does the Quran "inspire" the cutting of laziness which in turn drives us to Allah's abudiya?

I may not be explaining it right, cause Im not finding the words. But again, Im not looking for quotes and ahadith on this topic, Im trying to find out what (and how) I should do with the Quran (read it, understand it, hold it etc. etc.) that will bring me to stop laziness.

Hope this elaborates my question. I would really appreciate if you could help me with this because
I have figured out that's my problem; laziness in ibada. And I WANT to stop it, but if you can show me a perspective on the Quran that will just inspire me to drop this laziness, or come out of it, it would really help inshaAllah.

In the Name of Allah, the Merciful, the Compassionate
May His peace and blessings be upon His last messenger Muhammad, who brought the light of the Qur'an to humanity.
Wa alaikum assalam wa rahmatullah,
Thank you for your very important question. All of us can benefit from a reminder about how to have appropriate adab (etiquitte) with Allah's book.
Here are some practical suggestions that will help you, Allah willing, in your relationship with the Qur'an and and your fight against laziness:
The Muslim should never forget that the Qur'an is Allah's speech to humanity. When the muslim sits to recite the Qur'an, he should bring to mind that he is reciting these eternal words of Allah that Angel Jibril brought to the Prophet, and that the Prophet himself (pbuh) recited them with his own blessed voice.
Before opening the Qur'an, make a sincere supplication to Allah that He benefits you by this act of worship.
Make du`a while reciting. When reciting verses of the reward Allah has prepared for believers, make du`a that Allah grants you this and grants you the inspiration and strength to worship Him and please Him. When reciting verses of the punishment that Allah has prepared for the disbelievers, make du`a that Allah does not make you one of them, and that He drives away your laziness. When reading about the stories of the past nations and their destruction after they disbelieved, remember that all people will die and their time is unknown, and the only thing they will send forth for the next life is their actions.
Be regular in your recitation -- have a daily portion that you recite, without excuse. This is essential, because changing the habits of the self does not happen overnight. Rather, the process takes moderate amounts of dedicated and consistent effort.
The Qur'an increases the iman (faith) of the believers, by the testification of Allah Himself. The light of belief and inspiration it brings will necessarily push away laziness. But often this is not without some effort from the believer, because Allah's sunnah (way) is for believers to take the means for their guidance. So be sure to take other means of ensuring your himma (spiritual aspiration, the opposite of laziness). Keep good company, make sure your source of money and food is halal, and shun disobedience, as it sows more disobedience and laziness for worship. Supplicate to Allah for himma before all acts of worship and before reciting the Qur'an. Ask Him sincerely before you open His book to show you the meanings in it and to benefit you from its light.
Related Links:
"Do I Know What I Read Daily?" http://www.**************/Resources/...Q0003R0002.pdf
This article has the meanings of Surahs that we recite often. It is arranged very nicely.
How do I deal with laziness? http://qa.**************/issue_view....0&redirect=yes
Dua for protection against laziness http://qa.**************/issue_view....direct=yesBook Suggestion:
Book Suggestion:
"Ettiquite with the Qur'an" Translation of Imam al-Nawawi's work http://www.astrolabe.com/product/939...the_Quran.html
And Allah knows best and succes is with Him.
Wassalam.