from time to time I keep going through this phase where I start feeling like I'm loosing my faith and keep thinking Islam's fake.
I know it's not... I tell myself all the time that Allah is the truth, Islam is the best way of life and is the religion of god, and this is all a dunya for a test. And I supply myself with reasons.
Then I pray for me to get out of this phase and then I'm good, but then it happens again like two days later.
I feel like I'm a good muslim, I pray, I recite more than usual (and memorize quran), I say duas, I always keep in mind what I'm doing so Allah's not mad at me.
Why the heck am I going through this? Is this a trial or me being a dog to Shaytan? I'm sick of this and I fear the worst could happen years to come.
Why is Allah doing this to me? Letting me be like this (it hurts to type this)...
I want Allah to love me, I can't have fun on this world if I am a bad servant to my lord, please I need answers...
(sorry ik my recent topics are like this, but this is a place to help each other, right?)
He is Allah, other than whom there is no deity, the Sovereign, the Pure, the Perfection, the Bestower of Faith, the Overseer, the Exalted in Might, the Compeller, the Superior. Exalted is Allah above whatever they associate with Him [59:23]
Hang on in there. This is a test for you (stating the obvious - sorry)
Remember it is only Shaytan who wants you to lose the struggle/fight/test.
Have you read the story of Prophet Ayoob (as) - if not, please do. It may help your situation, insha'Allah.
All the best.
I had a hunch it was a test and not myself going nuts, it's fine.
And will sure do
He is Allah, other than whom there is no deity, the Sovereign, the Pure, the Perfection, the Bestower of Faith, the Overseer, the Exalted in Might, the Compeller, the Superior. Exalted is Allah above whatever they associate with Him [59:23]
I'm sorry to know you're going through a turbulent time in your Iman! Why not keep a journal to document your thoughts? What helped me secure my belief in Islam was watching debates on Islam vs other religions and atheism. I watched them all on YouTube. I briefly looked into Christianity and other religions and in the end I came running back to Islam. While I wouldn't want to advise someone weak in their Iman to look into other religions, I would advise you to secure the fundamentals of your faith. You're memorizing the Quran. Use Nouman Ali Khan's lectures in conjunction. He teaches the info to an average American youth...and that's you! I'm sure you will like them.
This is whisperings of the satan the accursed. Tell yourself you dont need any reason to believe in the truth, in that way the waswasa will go away, also try ignoring these troublesome thoughts.
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