I am pretty sure I got rid of my Islam. I was just thinking about my Allah and then I started getting doubts and then purposefully thought kufr and now I want to die!
I don't want to live no more I killed my Islam because of my sins and now the kufr I have had! I don't know what to do I am super depressed and hurting myself because look at me I have had waswas and now I don't know if I made the the thought or not but I'm pretty sure it was me.
I always thought bad things and hypocritical things against my Islam I always said bad things when asking Allah to guide me towards Islam I think of the opposite. I want to be a Muslim I don't want to lose the one thing that made me happy. I just want to kill myself and I think I should cause now when I say good my heart feels empty and my heart is dead so why should I weep when it was all my fault I should just end it. I feel empty and it's all my fault
Last edited by TheLostSoul; 05-23-2016 at 12:27 PM.
Subhanallah what a challenge you are facing my beloved brother in Islam.
May Allah subhano wa Ta'ala grant you ease in your hardship. amin
May He grant you increased transparency to the solution of this challenge. amin
May He grant you increases in patience. amin
May He grant you the ability to differentiate between right and wrong. amin.
May He grant you the ability to acknowledge the opportunities in your life, and to strive only for the Right Path in all of them. Amin.
Ya Rabb - please grant these du'a, not only for this brother, but for all believers - wherever they are around the world - regardless of condition or faith. Amin.
I have a question if someone is cursed will they never be able to come back to Allah even if they want to? Will they just be misguided for the rest of their lives? I just seen some information saying that if one is cursed by Allah he won't be forgiven never and will be led astray..
You need to get some mental help.
“Indeed the patient will be given their reward without account.” :love: { Qur’aan, Chapter 39, Verse 10 }
I would like to thank you guys for stick up for me for this long. This issue I have caused a really bad mental strain on me and caused me to lose sight of myself with all this panic. Though I will make sure just to continue making tawbah whenever such evil thoughts come. Anyways I have been putting things into practise this Ramadan. Not matter my thoughts I'll just continue praying and asking for help anyways with that I'll be coming back at the end of Ramadan with updates I guess. I would like my thread to help out others who come here and ask for help since it isn't easy to get a message across to someone in distress for example me lol. It takes a while for me usually to get the message. Anyways salaam enjoy your Ramadan.
I am sorry this reply is so late. Don't give up. Inshallah things will get better. I know this is very hard to believe, but Allah has infinite Mercy, and He hears us.
I would like to thank you guys for stick up for me for this long. This issue I have caused a really bad mental strain on me and caused me to lose sight of myself with all this panic. Though I will make sure just to continue making tawbah whenever such evil thoughts come. Anyways I have been putting things into practise this Ramadan. Not matter my thoughts I'll just continue praying and asking for help anyways with that I'll be coming back at the end of Ramadan with updates I guess. I would like my thread to help out others who come here and ask for help since it isn't easy to get a message across to someone in distress for example me lol. It takes a while for me usually to get the message. Anyways salaam enjoy your Ramadan.
Salaam, more than 3 years later since your last post............... how have you got on in life......? has it improved? what did you do? what can you share with all the other readers of this forum?
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