I dont know whats been happening to me recently.
in fact the last couple of months
i just feel like no matter how much i try i no longer will be connected to Allah like i was before
Allah just never gives me the good things i want. i feel like no matter how much i pray or fast or abstain from sin, Allah still makes everything hard on me.
im on my early 20s and so far most of my life has been kind of miserable. i will start university in some days but im too late anyway
and i see all the people who sin have all the things that i could use in life.
i am short which makes me very sad. i have some asthetic problems which make me feel sad (a big nose that i broke in an accident
i feel hopeless and i hesitate to even pray. but i do pray but without a feeling.i even fast and try to be a good muslim and practice, but whenever i practice, i dont feel a thing. sometimes even when i read quran i dont feel a thing. even when i listen to the quran i dont feel a thing. i feel dead inside. sometimes i pray that i want to die i feel like i cant love anyone anymore. i just dont feel like an alive person. i feel like i am only physically movin but so do zombies.
im tired of feeling like this. i dont believe in concepts of hope anymore. i was broken long time ago and that trust in Allah, i just cant fix.
i am lol :P...Bro why dont you just propose to someone then man?
thats the problem brother. dont know who. i always either find someone who is good but has been used (has had sex before).someone who is a ---- and knows nothing bout islam.
or someone who is good but doesnt like me back. recently i liekd a 17 year old girl which i thought i could teach a lot about islam since shes more innocent. she was beautiful. dark skined to compliment my light dark skin. i liked her and i thought we could get to know each other. but as always, anything that is good never comes to me. if it does it stays just a little to go soon and leave me broken.
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format_quote Originally Posted by DyingLight
i am lol :P...Bro why dont you just propose to someone then man?
if all these years i waited,why cant i have a beautiful lightly dark skined lady with green eyes?
why should all the good go to the bad?
why should then i be left alone, or with someone who isnt as good?
why am i so alone after all these years?
i dont get it man. these things make me want to stop practicing at all. it feels useless anyway
thats the problem brother. dont know who. i always either find someone who is good but has been used (has had sex before).someone who is a ---- and knows nothing bout islam.
or someone who is good but doesnt like me back. recently i liekd a 17 year old girl which i thought i could teach a lot about islam since shes more innocent. she was beautiful. dark skined to compliment my light dark skin. i liked her and i thought we could get to know each other. but as always, anything that is good never comes to me. if it does it stays just a little to go soon and leave me broken.
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if all these years i waited,why cant i have a beautiful lightly dark skined lady with green eyes?
why should all the good go to the bad?
why should then i be left alone, or with someone who isnt as good?
why am i so alone after all these years?
i dont get it man. these things make me want to stop practicing at all. it feels useless anyway
SubhanAllah dont stop practising because you cant get a lightly skinned girl with blue eyes,its not a smart decision
I would give anything to practise again,and you want to stop ..tsk tsk tsk....
Try to find another girl in a different country then.If you really try and make duaas and dont compain,Allah will help you in shaa Allah
I dont know what to say more than what is already said in this thread.Just realise it is just a small test.Marriage life will bring tests harsher than this one so if you give up now,how can you expect to face those...
SubhanAllah dont stop practising because you cant get a lightly skinned girl with blue eyes,its not a smart decision
I would give anything to practise again,and you want to stop ..tsk tsk tsk....
Try to find another girl in a different country then.If you really try and make duaas and dont compain,Allah will help you in shaa Allah
I dont know what to say more than what is already said in this thread.Just realise it is just a small test.Marriage life will bring tests harsher than this one so if you give up now,how can you expect to face those...
the point is : how many other hearbreaks should i go through?
why do the bad get what i should get?
why do i have to suffer so much just because i am religious?
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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format_quote Originally Posted by DyingLight
SubhanAllah dont stop practising because you cant get a lightly skinned girl with blue eyes,its not a smart decision
I would give anything to practise again,and you want to stop ..tsk tsk tsk....
Try to find another girl in a different country then.If you really try and make duaas and dont compain,Allah will help you in shaa Allah
I dont know what to say more than what is already said in this thread.Just realise it is just a small test.Marriage life will bring tests harsher than this one so if you give up now,how can you expect to face those...
you think its easy for me?
its rippingmy heart and soul out. its not easy to want to cease existing. i want to fully be deleted. i freakin hate every second of my life. this isnt living
ill never be all right. ill never get what i want.
the point is : how many other hearbreaks should i go through?
why do the bad get what i should get?
why do i have to suffer so much just because i am religious?
whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
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you think its easy for me?
its rippingmy heart and soul out. its not easy to want to cease existing. i want to fully be deleted. i freakin hate every second of my life. this isnt living
ill never be all right. ill never get what i want.
Its not easy but its not so hard as you make it.There are people out there who dream to have what you have.Who dont even have clean water to drink.And you,what did you eat for dinner today? I bet your writing this from your comfy bed,while many others dont even have a shelter. If yours isnt living then what should they say?
If you want a girl you need to be a Man,and a Man doesnt complain like this.Dude if you really read what we all have actually replied you would have known the answer to those questions.
Dont stop practising,or shaytan will make you feel more miserable.Thats all i had to say am sorry
Its not easy but its not so hard as you make it.There are people out there who dream to have what you have.Who dont even have clean water to drink.And you,what did you eat for dinner today? I bet your writing this from your comfy bed,while many others dont even have a shelter. If yours isnt living then what should they say?
If you want a girl you need to be a Man,and a Man doesnt complain like this.Dude if you really read what we all have actually replied you would have known the answer to those questions.
Dont stop practising,or shaytan will make you feel more miserable.Thats all i had to say am sorry
Peace be with you.I hope its all good soon
i expected more from my Lord. now im here broken. thats all i gotta say. and thanks for your advices. all well be withyou aswell.
Its not easy but its not so hard as you make it.There are people out there who dream to have what you have.Who dont even have clean water to drink.And you,what did you eat for dinner today? I bet your writing this from your comfy bed,while many others dont even have a shelter. If yours isnt living then what should they say?
If you want a girl you need to be a Man,and a Man doesnt complain like this.Dude if you really read what we all have actually replied you would have known the answer to those questions.
Dont stop practising,or shaytan will make you feel more miserable.Thats all i had to say am sorry
Peace be with you.I hope its all good soon
and what do you say that, the girl that i prayed such a long time for, the girl that i prayed every ramadan before breaking the fast, that girl i saw with someone else today?
tell me brother, what do you say?
well let just tell you one thing. In Allah i put my trust. And i believe that i am one of the un usual people. Allah keeps guiding me even when i dont see it. but tonight i saw it. cause when i have a doubtful question, a video or something pops up. a post by someone that opens my eyes. feels like Allah is talking direcltly to me. doesnt this mean that He All mightly loves me, doesnt that make me feel significant on His eyes?
lets leave all the past behind and in sha Allah, the future will be bright by His Name. I am hoping my best, that i will keep being a great believer.
thank you for your advices
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I guess that Allah knows i intend no harm, and maybe this from a creature is what He wants and loves the most
and what do you say that, the girl that i prayed such a long time for, the girl that i prayed every ramadan before breaking the fast, that girl i saw with someone else today?
tell me brother, what do you say?
i'd say "i need to grow bigger balls" then! If you liked her, why didn't you propose to her? she aint telepathic mate
I'd say that if you prayed for something, then you should trust that Allah Will Grant it to you no matter what happens. If not in this life, then you'll get it after death. The most important is that Allah Is Still Permitting you to ask from Him. Anything that you've asked for, you will get, whether now or after death. Allah Is Greater than any thing. If you truly believe that Allah Is Greater than any other thing, then it should suffice that Allah Is yours even if you've lost everything.
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