Where is my barakah?

format_quote Originally Posted by Tawfik1995

Asslamualaikum Dear Brother and Sister,.
I was jobless for a quite long time around 3, years. Recently I have got visa to Canada.
so I married someone who's caste was lower than mine.
I worked so hard to get scholarship. But somehow my university withdraw the offers.
Now I'm married and jobless. In the mean time my family is facing huge financial Crisis
as my uncle wants to sell our share in the business.

I was a very devoted muslim. but somehow after marriage
with all these hardship I don't pray anymore. .
I don't know how to revive my faith.
please can you give me some duas. I prayed tahajuud for 3 years straight.
I'm lost now

Ve Aleykum selam Tawfik.
There are a few things about this post that more or less bother me. Well not really bother, but things you should change to be a better muslim.
First, you should change your vision at the situation:
- Instead of "I've done this, and these...so where is my reward?" to "I've done only this and these, could I do possibly do my to become an even better servant?"
_ Instead of "I was jobless for quite a long time" to "Alhamdulillah, I was jobless for 3 years. Thank Allah it wasn't any longer than that."
- we muslims see every human being as equal. we do not have castes...so your wife may come from a poorer family than you, or less educated, but you are still not allowed to see her any less than you. The only ranking we have in Islam is about how devoted someone to his / her religion is.

Life on Earth is a test my brother. Allah tests you what your reaction will be about these various situation...will you be patient and thank Allah that it could be much much worse, and pray that your situation gets better soon....or....
will you rebel against Allah? try to make Allah responsible for your misery, stop offering prayers because you think it doesn't make any difference?

And what I am reading here, it sure sounds like you are on the destructive path...please turn around while you still can.