What do you want? Forget about everyone else, forget about what everyone else might want. What do you want? Once you establish that then that's half the battle.
I admire you for giving your marriage a shot, I am not going to say to you to leave him, just give you the options as its down to you to decide what you do.
Either way you need to look at communication, whenyou talk to your husband, talk from the heart. Don't tell him what you think he wants to hear. Have you told him how you feel when he disrespects your family?
Have you told him how you felt? Have you told him you feel isolated? I know its hard in a different country, I have done it many a time. Are there any groups you could get involved in. Is there a British Council near you?
Can you see about doing some courses maybe online?
You sound like a very smart independant woman, sometimes we need men to balance us, but he has to be your equal.
If you decide to leave your husband, do it with your head held high. It has been a learning curve, take the lessons you have learnt.
I am concerned about the self harm. It's easy to resort to I know trust me, but maybe look at chanelling the feelings you get. When you feel like your getting worked up...maybe get a punch bag? I find writing helps. As often when you write you end up answering your own questions, I think you know already what you want to do.
Its down to you what you do next...
But be positive, if you feel like you cant do something then you know what you wont. But if you change your thought then you can acheive anything wherever you are.
Take care and lots of love & light
Originally Posted by AnonymousGender