- Forgive Me -

Bismillahir Rahmaanir Raheem
AsSalamu Alaikum WaRahmatullahi WaBarakatuhu

- Forgive Me -



Forgive me for not doing my duty properly

Forgive me for not teaching others about al-deen

Forgive me for not inviting the Kufaar to al-deen

Forgive me for not spreading Tawheed

Forgive me for keeping the Islamic Ilm within me

Forgive me for failing to share it with others

Forgive me for not teaching others of that which I knew of



Forgive me for Praying Salaah – And not bothering to call others to it aswell

Forgive me for being in Dhikr of you – And failing to remind others to remember you

Forgive me for beginning every Action, ever Speech in Your Name – And not telling others to do the same

Forgive me for Keeping Obligatory and Nafl Fasts – And Failing to not encourage others to keep them aswell

Forgive me for giving Zakat – And not informing others about the importance of it to give aswell

Forgive me for learning so much about Jihad – And failing to teach and share the information I have with the others



I’m down on my hands and knees

I’m begging you ‘O All-Mighty One – Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem'

To forgive me Please



All this hits you hard when a close misguided family or friend dies

And you sit and ponder

Where you – Yourself went wrong



Without a doubt many of us get along with one or two Non-Muslims

We had many opportunities to teach them

To teach them about the One and Only - True Deen

We had many opportunities to teach them

To teach them about the One and Only - Allah (Jallalahu)



We have non-practising Duniya-clinging family members

We should give them Da’wah

-Indeed With a lot of Patience-



When someone close dies

You think:

“I Had So Many Chances

So Many Opportunities

Could They Be in Hell Cos of Me

If Only I Had Only Acted Upon What I Knew Off

If Only I Had Done My Duty Correctly”



Your heart breaks in two

You cry day and night

You sit there tapping your head

-No Peace of Mind-



You see Dear Muslim Brothers and Sisters

Death can come any day, anytime, any second

No matter where you are or what you are doing

And no matter what age you may be



Because death doesn’t ask for one to meet its requirements

It has neither limits nor any conditions

It can get you whenever Allah (AzaWajal) decrees



Now and then many of us say:

“Next Week I’ll Teach so-and-so about Tawheed,

I’ll Try and Invite them to a New Life

To The True Deen

To Islam”



But that –Next Time- Never comes

The intention of doing good is there

But one for some reason fails

Fails to put those words into practise



And when one least expects it

The news about that –Person’s- Death gets to you first

Before you made that move

And taught them

“La Illahaa Illallahu Muhammadur Ra’soolullah’



I had a best friend – She was dying

Knew her for 15years

She was 22 years of age

She was a Sikh

A Sikh who was interested in our Deen

She would ask certain questions

And I would answer them to the best of my ability



Everyday I said the same old thing

“Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow I’ll go teach her man!”



I knew she was very close to death

She was on her final stages of her life



A week ago I had planned to –Literally Go-

I was all prepared and feeling –**** Good-

I was all geared up to tell her about this –Peaceful- Religion of ours



But …



A day before I was going to go

I received the news

The news that she had left this world

That she had died with breathing difficulties



Do you all see the mistake I made?!?!?!?!

Take my advice people:



‘Invite, Invite, Invite

Invite as many of your close friends and family to Islam’



Because trust me

What I’m going through ain’t easy

15 years of friendship –

And 2 years out of the 15years I’ve been a practising Muslimah

And never - Never did I even bother to invite her



2 years ain’t little

When one is interested in Islam then 2 years is more than enough

But I didn’t – I didn’t do what I was meant to do



I always thought of

I always remembered to

But death got to her before I could teach her the Shahadah



And now … I feel

Pathetic and useless

I feel stupid and ridiculous

I feel as though I have let Allah (SWT) down

I have angered and annoyed Him



What has been made obligatory upon Muslims

To spread Tawheed – To invite – To teach

I failed to meet



I Pray Sincerely

That you all attain and reach your goals

Attain and reach you goals in the field of Da’wah

In inviting others to Islam



I Pray Sincerely

That Allah (SWT) guides you and your families

That we all become better Muslims

That we all die as Righteous Muslims



One day or another we’re all going to die

And we will –Have To- face reality someday –



-Ameen ALLAHUMMAH Ameen-



WaSalamu Alaikum WaRahmatullahi WaBarakatuhu


- Umm Musab al-Gharib -