update:
I prayed istikhara after Isha today, and right when I was finishing my phone rang. It was him! He had read my email and was pleased with my responses to the questions.
I told him my concerns in that email and he told me that both of their intentions were pure and that they would never try to take advantage of me.
We talked about studying Arabic and going to hajj and ummrah and living in Jeddah.
I don't know if that is a sign, but it was two coincidences in a row.
1) The second day that I fast for these purposes, a brother I randomly met months ago calls me to tell me he is interested in checking me out for marriage to his niece.
2) As I am finishing istikhara prayers to ask Allah for guidance in this very matter, the guy calls me again and settles my initial worries.
that's
signs to me, I think. maybe I will keep track on here to see if Allah swt leads me all the way to this girl overseas that I know nothing about.
My attitude is this: I am neither hopeful nor pessimistic. InshaAllah, I will pray, continue to fast on the two days, keep studying hard, and keep working on my relationship with my mother.
IA, I will get to know more about this guy and his family. When he and I feel super comfy, and upon his suggestion, then I will talk to the girl on emails that he supervises, IA. Maybe we will just take turns asking and answering questions.
The only thing that I have reservations about is that I get to know people really well, really quick. I've got to be very careful to contemplate each step of the way and pray pray pray that Allah makes everything clear for me. I trust in Allah and I am not worried. We just have to be careful not to let things go so fast that I am not fairly evaluating everything.
I have no idea what she looks like too. What if I get to know this guy and his family really well, and talk to her and get to know her really well, and then she just is absolutely repulsive to me? That would be terrible. hehe I'm not pessimistic though.
Alhamdulillah wa jazakAllah khairun. You people are my brothers and sisters! Thank you for listening and helping me! :thankyou:
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