The Path that led me to Allaah. - A Prequel to the heart-break series -

U heard Sean Paul's new track?


No, what 1?


Here, i'll send it ya.


thanks, that's top!



yeh.. i got more of that if u want sum.


I'll ask for more later, thanx.

This was that person i told you about before, the one who added me earlier who was from my class. We'll call her C for now, just so we don't get confused with phase no.1 girl.


C was busy in her own world, didn't really bother chatting to me too much. So i tried to chat, but never really got anywhere in the conversations. At school it would be different, sometimes talk and sometimes not. Maybe because everyones just confused, trying to find out who they are, who they wna be? Sometimes your best mates, and sometimes you pretend you don't even know each other.. confusing huh?



Anyway when you want someone to like you, you want them to get your attention. I think that's common sense.

There's some people who claim to love God for example, yet they don't love what He loves. If you don't love what the other party loves, then you don't really love them. If not that, atleast take into consideration of what they say.



So i was chatting to her, maybe for a few days.. i was abit more confident with myself now, and abit more open. Since i had alot of friends, i knew how to talk, and got influenced by them alot.

Allaah's Messenger spoke the truth when he said:

"A person is likely to follow the faith of his friend, so look whom you befriend."

[Recorded in Abu Dawud & Tirmidhi]



I started getting influenced by my friends in so many ways, in the way they spoke, the taste of music, their interests etc.

So i wasn't really myself no more, i was just a copy of someone else. And that copy was of the media, so all i did was follow blindly, why? Because to be popular, you have to follow the 'scene' - And the 'scene' is controlled by the media, we're like sheep, we just follow along.


This had to get worse yet, but i never knew what the future was. Only Allaah does, but i was given the ability to make the decision - the good path, or the wrong path. I think you all know which one i was tempted to follow...

It was a cold night today, even though it was supposed to be Summer. I put the heater on, and i felt all warm inside.

I signed in and saw the msn figure spinning around, it logged in.


No-one had added me for ages, but today a window was flashing. It was a new contact.


It couldn't have been someone from school? I accepted it anyway.

When i clicked [OK] - the person was (Online) .


I saw their screen name, and i realised it couldn't have been anyone from school.


I waited abit to see if they would say anything, no message.


I opened another window with a mate and asked him, did you give my email ad to someone?

He said No. hm... this was weird.


I opened the window with the new ad,

*silence* - i decided to be the first person to start the conversation:

hey, asl?


sup? u 1st.


15/m/uk. u?


yeh same same, buh i'm a gyal lol.


lol

atleast the person was open minded i thought to myself, so we started chatting.


we had alot of similarities, but differences aswell. Sometimes that can be a good thing.


I stopped chatting to C now, this new character was more interesting.

So what u upto?


Nothin much, jus cotchin.


Wots that?


lol u dno? cotchin is flexin init.


oh, safe. soo.. who gave u my ad?


lol


no go on, who gave it?


it was a m8 init, i asked her 4sum adz n she passed em ova. they wer in her block list or sutin.


ohh, ok. what was her ad?


why dyu want to know?


i just want 2 know who it is.


her ad was this:


ohh! i remember, was she the one on chatrooms?


what?


i think i spoke to her a long time ago. but then we deleted each other because we never really spoke after that.


oh, seen.


yeh..

More more more!!!

Are these stories filled with nicotine? Koz they're pretty addictive! More, more, more! :blind:

U eva had a ride in a BMW M3?


no, u?


yeh, ma cuzzie (cousin) came over a few days back, took us fo a cruise init.


thats kool, safe.


Nah, it's seen now.


What is?


Safe.


lol, safe is seen?


yeh, idiot. lolz


lol k, seeeen?


idiot, lolz.

We became friends, and we spoke alot.. she taught me alot, and i think i taught her alot too.

The thing is that i hadn't ever felt like this before, it was a weird feeling inside. It made you laugh all the time, even when the person wasn't there.


None of my school mates knew of this new person who added me, and for some reason i never wanted to share this persons ad with no-one else.



The pressure of exams kind of got relieved now, i stopped focusing on school work and more on talking to this person. Atleast they understood what i was going through, even though they were just a year younger.


We'll name her S, just to cause less confusion.

Back at school it's different now, hardly anyones focused on their exams. It's near the end of school, just 2 more years left. So everyones cotching, flexin, whatever u wna call it.

Back in the days i used to be focused, but now i couldn't be bothered either. The teacher would tell everyone to study, revise, do homework. But no-one did that, we'd just copy off someone at break. It wasn't worth it, thats how everyone felt, except the guy we copied off obviously.


I'd just daydream in class, a dictionary would wizz past my head and i wouldn't know.. lol even pencil throwing fights, one half of the class against the other half. Those were the days...



When the bell went, everyone would rush out. I was happy when that would happen. It was quite a few weeks now, maybe even months that we had been chatting.

hey, u gud?


yeh, u?


am kool thanx.



so anywayz, where u from?


promis me u wnt tel no1?


i wont, trust me.


nah promise..


ok, i promise lol.


kk lol, i'm from there.


u serios?!


no, i'm jokin?


kasmay? (u swear?)


yeah, kasmay. (lol)

she was from my town.. lol that was shocking.

..I'm from there too.


u messin?


no, i'm serious.


*shocked emo*


i know.. weird. And it was your mate who gave you my ad right?


yeh.. it was.

Argh! Cliffhanger! What happens next!?

So what end you from?


Near that street..


kool, i'm on the other side of town to you then.


yeh.


it looks like destiny or something init.. the way your mate added me, so long ago and gave u my ad n stuff.


loll.. true.


i heard lord of the rings 3 came out, u watched that?


yeh, downloaded it already.



Remember that golum guy with the bald head? lol


lol yeh.. yo a golum init?


lol joker.


u want the file? i can send it ya?


no, its ok. its too big anyway.



seeen.. so what school u go to?


that one, u know wot 1 i'm on about?


yeh, i get ya. i'm from the other one.


kool. lol


lol

We spoke alot.. for weeks and a few months.

So, would u wna meet up some time?


..Yeah? where at?


wherever init.. town center?

This was a risky mission, everyone knows that the town center is the place where most people 'chill out' on saturdays.. lol was this pushing the limits?

Alright, seeen. when?


Saturday?


ok.

WARNING: This article isn't encouraging anyone to do that, since sharing personal info on the net can be dangerous and anyone can pretend to be someone your age when they're really not.

Kool akhee! Can't wait to read more Inshaa Allaah

The one in blue sat on a near by computer, the other two were standing up behind.


Hey listen, this is my mate.


I looked back, they were looking at me.


Are you, that guy?


Yeah..?


she nodded towards the one in white.

She was abit quiet.


Talk to her then? her mate said.



Hi.. she said.


Hey, u alright?


Yeah, u?


I'm good, i looked down now.. embarrassed.


Your phone was off before?


No, i just changed my sim.


Oh..kay.



*silence*


some kids ran past.


erm.. so, anything else?



It was quite;

the tension was building up abit..i wanted to talk but it wasn't really that comfortable with all of them staring. Plus it was a public place with everyone going past.



Ok anyway, i gota go now. Just wanted to check if everythin was alright..


Ayt, See ya, then.


you too.



I left, and that was it. Strange, but i wondered what was going to come out of it? Was this even a real meeting?

I came home feeling angry at myself. Why didn't i make it more clear? I could have said more.


Anyway it was too late now, i came home and didn't really wna do anything. Just wanted to know what had happened, and how to clear it up. I was sad...



The person i met wasn't just ordinary, there was something different. I'd have to ask my friends if they had heard of her before.


After a while, I went on msn and she wasn't on. My mates weren't on either, so i fell asleep for abit. That was the only way to pass time i felt.



After a while i woke up, i went to my room and switched on msn. My mates were online, so i started asking them if they knew of that person.


I don't know, most of them said.

Do you know of someone called...?

Nope.



You ever heard of this person?

I don't know, sorry.



Do you know who she is, the one from that school?

Nah, sori.

I tried asking more people, when one person gave me the answer.

Do you know this person from that school?

Yeah, she's really popular there. I think everyone knows her.


Seriosly?

Yeah.

I was shocked.. had i been talking to a person like that all this time? They're probably gna think i'm a loser and stop talking to me...

I remembered back abit and sometimes i would have to go off.. she would put a heart at the end of the conversations, i would quickly log out.

I wasn't sure how to respond really, i thought it could have bad consequences. So i would stay quiet, plus i had never felt this before so i never really knew how to react.



I waited for abit, for her to come. And at night time she did. I was really happy now, i didn't know how to explain it.


Helloo..


hey!


How u doin? lol


i'm gud, thx. u?


Am fine!


lol, i saw u.. i neva knew u was so..


so.. what? lol


lol, shurup u know what i'm gna say..


nah i dont.. *embarrassed*


..you're well good lookin.


aw.. thanks.


u were wearing white init?


yh..


that was my fav. color lol.


i like it too..



i thought you wouldn't come today, i was waitin for abit. there were some other girls there too, i thought you were them.


lol nah, i came though init?


yeh.. thanks.


no worries. anythin 4 u init..

thx S.. that means alot.


lol shurup eeeejiot.


so did u think i would look diferent?


i thote u wud be a geek or sutin.. lol.


yeh?


buh u wasn't.. u was kinda..


??


lol.. whites one of my fav colors lol.


me too..

Was a high or what? lol i felt in a daze..

for the next few days i was alot more happy.. everyone would be like, why you smiling for?! lol and i'd just smile back at them again.

I wish i could see her again, proper this time.. she even made an email ad with our names on together lol, so conversations continued for a few more days, maybe upto two weeks or something... then something changed?