Listen people, that was my honest feeling for what i said and btw I really wish my parents got rid of me or I wish I was born dead, it would have been better if was born dead so I don't come to these forums and have conversations like these. From the bottom of your hearts, u guys don't care about me and don't have respect for me and u don't care if I were to die right now.
Even Allah knows I'm a pathetic piece of crap, he just wants to see me embarass myself infront of u guys. This life is not a blessing for me, only jannah is the real blessing.
Hey Mr Khan
I would like to answer your questions. And I hope that I would be able to give you a good answer. But first
I would like to address what you have said. After you would tell me that you are satisfied with what I say
I would give you an answer for your first question - about kids. Ok?
So - about what you said about dying and so forth.
We live in a difficult time you know. I will tell you what I see.
I do not feel that you want us to care for you. Is this what you really want? I feel
that you are sad because you feel betrayed by life. And I will explain what I mean.
From what I read in your posts you are a very sensitive person. In fact, I even think
that in the back of your mind you have a certain "memory" of a great abundance -
even if it is not in the "front of your mind". You look around you and you do not
see this abundance around you and it saddens you. In fact, the fact that you do
not see that makes you feel powerless and this leads you to feel the way you do.
I would also not be surprised if you have tried to speak about it a few times with
your family, friends or other people and they saw you maybe as spoiled and did
not understand what you say. This might strengthen your sadness. I feel that this is also why you come to the religious forum
as you feel that religion should have reconnected you to this feeling of "richness"
or "abundance" and instead you do not see the answers here - this maybe even
leads you to think of it as "fake".
Let me tell you what I think for you. You have the potential to be a leader, if you so
wish. This is because you have the capability to ask questions - brave questions and
this is one of Gods greatest gifts, truly. Use this gift wisely and you would also find
answers - and maybe reconnect to this feeling of abundance by "giving" people what
you are looking for. I truly believe so. Do not be taken down by other people - you are
a stronger person than you think - if you do not find answers from the people around
you do not loose hope that there are things out there to learn from. Also, read scriptures
for yourself - and try to find what you are looking for - you are a strong person, you might
be surprised of what you will find.
All the best to you.
G.