queenofsaba
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Selam aleikum brothers and sister in islam
I have been going through a really hard and heart aching situation. It started off with lots of dua to marry a person, and my dua got answered but the hardship we faced towards our parents was very bad. We got engaged that last up to 1 month. Anyway
I wake up in the middle of the night crying my heart out to Allah. I’m getting closer to islam, closer than ever before. This brother was Asian and he did everything to get married, we are 20 years old, and we did not have any money or nothing so we were relying on that the outcome of our parents response would be a positive however it was 3 months with crying and with hell.
And now , after 1 month he has come to the reality that it WIL NEVER BE US, because of he’s parents and this is JUST TOREMNTING ME, they didn’t give me a chance, I cannot do nothing that im not born Asian. I’m a muslim, I wanna be a good muslim. I’m Alahmdulliah born in I muslim family. I don’t understand I feel so sad deep down inside, how can people jugde? How do the mother and father KNOW I’m no Good? I’m praying from the utter deep down in my heart, it’s so painful to be rejected because of the cultur.
He’s mother prays 5 times a day but still he has to marry someone From the same cast? I don’t understand, I pray to Allah to open up their heart. I have LITTERALLY CUT ALL TIES WIT THIS BROTHER, I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. I can’t be with him in hope he will fight again. I must trust in Allah and improve myself, but its hurts very much. The brother last time I spoke to him seems very far away from Islam. he started to say somethings like he’s mother is more bigger than Allah. How can this be true? I know respect the parents, but still Allah is the higher power of everything every soul is going to return to him. When we were going to get married he was going Allah’s way, praying, making dua, etc. but know nothing,
I hope someone could take the time to just answering me, because I feel so injustice treated.
My dad is not in the picture only my mother, she was against it but with the time, she said yes, it was hard for her as well me wanting to marry from another background. But Islam was still the nr 1 criteria. And it is still. I lie awake in the night crying thinking I’m I no good for an Asian family?
I love the culture, food, language, I would have tried my best to please he’s parents and to make them accept me, and I have so much trust in Allah that nothing is impossible. But I never got the chance.
I feel like this is the worst thing that could have happened to me, and I know Allah knows this. Allah knows what’s in my heart what I hold dear to me and not. I don’t know if this is a test or Allah being angry at me, I use my dua as much to ask for forgiveness, I try to do good deeds, but at times my heart is in pain. Very much, only me and Allah knows this.
It’s so sad; please make dua for me, my heart is bleeding and burning inside.
Wsalam
:exhausted
I have been going through a really hard and heart aching situation. It started off with lots of dua to marry a person, and my dua got answered but the hardship we faced towards our parents was very bad. We got engaged that last up to 1 month. Anyway
I wake up in the middle of the night crying my heart out to Allah. I’m getting closer to islam, closer than ever before. This brother was Asian and he did everything to get married, we are 20 years old, and we did not have any money or nothing so we were relying on that the outcome of our parents response would be a positive however it was 3 months with crying and with hell.
And now , after 1 month he has come to the reality that it WIL NEVER BE US, because of he’s parents and this is JUST TOREMNTING ME, they didn’t give me a chance, I cannot do nothing that im not born Asian. I’m a muslim, I wanna be a good muslim. I’m Alahmdulliah born in I muslim family. I don’t understand I feel so sad deep down inside, how can people jugde? How do the mother and father KNOW I’m no Good? I’m praying from the utter deep down in my heart, it’s so painful to be rejected because of the cultur.
He’s mother prays 5 times a day but still he has to marry someone From the same cast? I don’t understand, I pray to Allah to open up their heart. I have LITTERALLY CUT ALL TIES WIT THIS BROTHER, I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. I can’t be with him in hope he will fight again. I must trust in Allah and improve myself, but its hurts very much. The brother last time I spoke to him seems very far away from Islam. he started to say somethings like he’s mother is more bigger than Allah. How can this be true? I know respect the parents, but still Allah is the higher power of everything every soul is going to return to him. When we were going to get married he was going Allah’s way, praying, making dua, etc. but know nothing,
I hope someone could take the time to just answering me, because I feel so injustice treated.
My dad is not in the picture only my mother, she was against it but with the time, she said yes, it was hard for her as well me wanting to marry from another background. But Islam was still the nr 1 criteria. And it is still. I lie awake in the night crying thinking I’m I no good for an Asian family?
I love the culture, food, language, I would have tried my best to please he’s parents and to make them accept me, and I have so much trust in Allah that nothing is impossible. But I never got the chance.
I feel like this is the worst thing that could have happened to me, and I know Allah knows this. Allah knows what’s in my heart what I hold dear to me and not. I don’t know if this is a test or Allah being angry at me, I use my dua as much to ask for forgiveness, I try to do good deeds, but at times my heart is in pain. Very much, only me and Allah knows this.
It’s so sad; please make dua for me, my heart is bleeding and burning inside.
Wsalam
:exhausted
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