I want to share the story of someone named Farhan
Why...? Why did it have to be me?
The illuminating sun shimmering into my eyes, light sweeping into my heart like warmness unfolded yet glittering aroma; purity sinking into the depth of my heart deeper and deeper; faster and faster as it blazed around like a dancing fire until not only affecting me to the core of my existence but also the reality I was binded to.
The wind circulating around me, swirling around me, coldly yet softly caressing my cheek.
Breezingly, enchantedly, astoundingly.
The glistening light illuminated everywhere around me; wrapped around me like wings where the feelings would be emanating around me even in the darkest corners because even if the you did not see... It was still there within the softeness of my heart yet those wings unfathomable to the eye...till one day... Those wings had fallen, blooming into blackness, no, no longer touching existence; lost and faded from this world.
Softness uncountable, unfathomable, flourished like soaring rivers seeping yet now vanished.
That once shimmering light I saw, feathers of crows were falling down; darkness reaching upon the Earth. Blocking the sun where my world had ended, suddenly vanished. I... could not have, I felt so empty and so lost. The warmess once flowing through my body now a cold deserted place where isolation had struck me to its core; emptiness. Drowning. Drowning. Sinking, deeper and deeper, no longer on the surface which I cease to see the light; blinded by darkness.
It seemed like those breath-taking wings that would reach to the farthest parts of the world; once helding me so tightly, now abruptly, abandoning me.
The world that I had lost around me. No longer in sight. We did not part on good terms... I could not... would not find the words. I... I... Ha-... had lost my mother.
Why? WHY? Why did you have to leave me? Why did it have to me be!?
Somberness decended upon me, no crackling, no noise did I hear nor a single ember within my reach. Silent whilst empty. Sorrowness endowed upon me, breathing had shuttered me, coiled yet undefined; what is this distorted place that I see before me?
I'm just so damaged, I hold my breath, freeze.
Breakable, unbreakable, shakeable, unshakable
What is this twisted reality around me, somberness unravled around me
I shake, I break, uncontrollable yet unstoppable
Isolation had touched me, there is no light around me, hope please spiral around me
I am just so paralysed; shattered; darkness unraveling, corrupting, embowing, empowering
Where is that glimmering light that was once before me?
I closed my eyes in despair yet there was a light piercing through these shut eyes, sweeping in. Refilled the world with a greater light than imagined, warmness unsounded yet pure.
I roared all my feelings buried deep inside, shivering, raveling tears bursting before me out of sheer desperation to the one that was closer to me than the warmness of my mother provided.
Allah is near.Allah is near.