:bism:
Sorry to hear that, bro. I know it's difficult, and you feel sad. That said, you have to be patient and also find your inner strength.
You said you have step-siblings, and I'm sure if they told you something that you thought would hurt them, you'd want to stop them from hurting themselves. Similarly, your father is only doing what a responsible father would do in his place. He's wrong, of course, but his actions are coming from a place of concern and love.
Our parents always think they're right, and since we're their babies, it doesn't matter how "grown up" we think we are, they react like frightened tigers or bears when they think we're doing something wrong and instead kind of go into "attack" or "growl" mode at us, whether that involves yelling at us or grounding us or something along those lines.
Your heart is in the clear, brother, and you know that. Also, you and I both know you are not joining any kind of terrorist organization and
In-sha-Allah (God-willing) your father understands that fact soon too. That said, he doesn't know that and is therefore fearing for your safety and welfare.
So, please don't be angry with him and give him a hug and tell him that you love him and you understand his concerns. I'm very proud that you didn't lose your cool with him today, as that shows obedience and goodness and as you probably know Islam requires us to treat our parents extremely well with kindness and concern and solicitation. So, show good character and manners to him. And in your
dua (supplication), ask Allah to open and soften your father's heart to both letting you practice Islam freely and also for Allah to open his own heart to Islam.
These things might take time - so, in the meantime, adopt patience and maintain a positive and proactive attitude; I'm glad that you were able to take counsel from your school counselor and share with her at least your concerns; I'm sorry again to hear of your situation.
Some day, things are not going to be so bad, and look to that day. And remember Allah (God) knows your innermost intentions and heart; God knows you're a Muslim, and if your dad is not ready to hear that, it's okay because ultimately your sincerity is to
Allah (God) and people need not be made aware of your heart.
:wa:
No, no way he would. He thinks that all these "websites" I have been visiting are ISIS recruitment websites. He thinks that I am in danger. Also, I talked to my school counselor today about it. She understands and we're keeping it confidential from my dad since its banned.
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