LostKinTomaso
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To cut right to the chase I am a really bad person. I sin a lot and don't feel an ounce of regret I had bad thoughts about islam and Allah and now my thoughts have become worse I get kufr thoughts everytime like its second nature and I know it became my thoughts cause my heart feels nothing and now my mind is thinking about atheism and I know atheism is wrong and Islam is right but why do I feel like my heart is dark and I get these thoughts everytime I seriously think it is my own even when I seek refuge I get them so it surely is my own.
Doubting Islam and having bad thoughts calling it stupid things like words I don't want to write or say by mouth cause it is evil. Also Allah created Islam I know that but I have a weak iman and I killed it even more cause of my overthinking. I know Islam is the truth but my heart has a disease and I caused it like when will I ever learn Allah saved me twice and I always go back doing the same things everytime I am a huge failure even when typing this I feel emotionless. So my worry is have I fallen into kufr cause of these thoughts even though my mouth says the opposite or have I become a munafiq cause of my empty heart or am I still a believer but just overthinking too much. I need serious advice also cause I want to change but I feel like I am a liar who has fallen into the major sin and will be in hell forever because of hypocrisy cause I still pray my 5 prayers and make dua don't get my wrong but sometimes When I improve my ways I start missing my salah again and start sinning and I don't want to have this cycle anymore I need to change but I feel like I already lost cause of these kufr thoughts cause I don't know how much I have left and These thoughts might be from me but only Allah knows.
Doubting Islam and having bad thoughts calling it stupid things like words I don't want to write or say by mouth cause it is evil. Also Allah created Islam I know that but I have a weak iman and I killed it even more cause of my overthinking. I know Islam is the truth but my heart has a disease and I caused it like when will I ever learn Allah saved me twice and I always go back doing the same things everytime I am a huge failure even when typing this I feel emotionless. So my worry is have I fallen into kufr cause of these thoughts even though my mouth says the opposite or have I become a munafiq cause of my empty heart or am I still a believer but just overthinking too much. I need serious advice also cause I want to change but I feel like I am a liar who has fallen into the major sin and will be in hell forever because of hypocrisy cause I still pray my 5 prayers and make dua don't get my wrong but sometimes When I improve my ways I start missing my salah again and start sinning and I don't want to have this cycle anymore I need to change but I feel like I already lost cause of these kufr thoughts cause I don't know how much I have left and These thoughts might be from me but only Allah knows.