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I wasn't sure if you have already seen this hadith. It directly relates to your situation.

Abu Hurairah (:ra:) said:

His (:saws:) companion came to him and said; "Messenger of Allah! We have thoughts which we cannot dare talk about and we do not like that we have them or talk about them." He (:saws:) said: "Have you experienced that?" They replied: "Yes." He (:saws:) said: "That is clear faith."

Source:
Sunan Abu Dawud
 
I mean i understand the hadith but does it really apply to me? I know my heart has accepted evil and this kufr making me a hypocrite. Who doubt Allah to this extent having my heart waver when I say anything like i don't believe. I understand that I want knowledge but it isn't easy to self teach I just need a teacher. I say thing like Islam is just a religion created by man when it's not. I am literally becoming suicidal. I make constant zikr and dua I just don't want hell but I know if I die I die as a munafiq. I just want faith in my heart
 
I just want faith in my heart

You do have faith in your heart. If you didn't then you wouldn't feel this way. Shaitan would have nothing to work with. Thus, the hadith does apply to you.

Honestly I can even cry no more like I just dont care
.... it hurts

If you didn't care, you wouldn't be here talking about this because it wouldn't hurt. The issue here is the credence you give to these thoughts. In the hadith, those Companions were worried about similar thoughts that they felt were too bad to mention. Rasulullah
:saws: assured them that these thoughts were occurring due to the clear Iman they had.

In light of this, our senior scholars, such as Shaikh Shah Abdul Hamid Ishaaq who is the Prinicpal of Darul Uloom Azaadville in South Africa have stated in regards to this:

Pay no attention to the whispers of Shaytaan.

He who worries about it falls prey to more.
Ignoring it is the way to repel it.

I guarantee that he knows what he's talking about.
 
It's hard to ignore because I feel like I accept it and that is why I try to fight back.

I know Islam is one and only true religion I have seen it with my own eyes the power of allah and how everything goes his way.

No one can replicate the Quran and I'm not just saying that I see all the signs happening indicating the end I have seen how there are scientific facts in it and people are still taking info from the Quran no one could have written that except Allah.

I just hate it when I take these thoughts and accept them I always say I believe because I do. These thoughts are stupid and my lack of knowledge causes more problems and self teaching isn't going to cut it for me i need a proper teacher.

Again everything has to been created by something and we have been created by allah. The world is not random and it follows rules set by Allah.

I understand and accept it as the truth but this waswas is messing me up. I just need to learn Islam properly.
 
I just need to learn Islam properly.

...don't we all...

May Allah subhano wa ta'ala grant us all increases in knowledge and appreciation, amin.

May Allah subhano wa Ta'ala grant Right Guidance to you, me, the Ummah and all believing men, women, children and jinn. Amin ya Rabbil alamin.

The scholars have all shared wonderful pieces of Truth with you that will, invariably, aide and guide you on your path. But what is hard to relate, is actually how to implement it when you are riding the rough patch. As one who is currently negotiating his own oscillating path through life, perhaps the most valuable thing I can share is this - find auto-pilot...

By this I mean a state where, if all else fails, you simply revert to the very basics of what you understand and believe to true and correct - and stick to it. At the very least maintain your 5 daily prayers with the presence of mind that if you keep going, insha'allah, it will get better. Just don't let go of the rope.

Whilst you might be 'clutching at straws' in the depths of whatever challenge is before you, try to remember that there are others who are suffering along with you in their own challenges. Should you have all of your limbs, toes and fingers, and other critical organs in working order, perhaps this a place to start venturing out of the darkness of the challenge you currently face.

May Allah subhano wa Ta'ala grant us all Light in the darkness of our challenges, and the ability to gain and receive reflective insights at all times. Amin Ya Rabbil alamin
 
It's hard to ignore because I feel like I accept it and that is why I try to fight back.

I know Islam is one and only true religion I have seen it with my own eyes the power of allah and how everything goes his way.

No one can replicate the Quran and I'm not just saying that I see all the signs happening indicating the end I have seen how there are scientific facts in it and people are still taking info from the Quran no one could have written that except Allah.

I just hate it when I take these thoughts and accept them I always say I believe because I do. These thoughts are stupid and my lack of knowledge causes more problems and self teaching isn't going to cut it for me i need a proper teacher.

Again everything has to been created by something and we have been created by allah. The world is not random and it follows rules set by Allah.

I understand and accept it as the truth but this waswas is messing me up. I just need to learn Islam properly.

It seems like your slowly giving up on yourself, not islam or Allah

Remember what i was telling you to never loose hope, to have firm conviction Allah will get you out of this, have 0 doubt but because you still have doubt about yourself, you havent been able to move foward.

You honestly need to loose the doubt then you can move foward with this situation, any doubt you have in yourself about islam, shaytan will manifest on a larger scale as your experiencing now.

You have to push yourself to let go of these thoughts, your not a athiest or a kufr.. YOU ARE A MUSLIM WHO BELIEVES IN ALLAH, HIS SIGNS, HIS POWER,
ALLAHU AKBAR, LA ILAHA ILALLAH, ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY CREATED ME, CREATED EVERYTHING, I WORSHIP NONE BUT ALLAH, ONLY ALLAH HAS POWER OVER ME, POWER OVER EVERYTHING IN THIS UNIVERSE, ALLAHU AKBAR LA ILAHA ILALLAH
^ repeat that everytime those thoughts come to you, these words are not words of a athiest or a kuff, you still have emaan in your heart hold onto that with everything that you have, i agree with the post above, even if it gets too much, hold onto your prayer and dua that is your lifeline never ever let that go, no matter how bad it gets, even if you dont want to pray, force yourself to or it will become unbearable for you.

You need to Stop giving effort and time to these waswas, the more you think about them, the more they will manifest and effect you and make you doubt yourself even more than you already do, even if your not good at teaching yourself, go on youtube and let scholars give advice to you.

When i was in your position what i done was, i took one subject i loved wasnt islamic, but i found islamic videos on it such as, debating and history, i started constantly watching debates about anything islamic and you know what, it helped so much because it helped to rekindle my love of islam, when someone is insulting or attacking islam you get defensive and want to protect it, while watching the debates it just sparked something inside to get back up and push myself to be better.
With history i love learning about history, so i would watch documentries about the mongals, the rise and fall of islamic empires, it also helpd to make me see how powerful islam is, how beautiful it is

(Find something you enjoy, and then find it in an islamic sense, go slow but keep doing something to remind you of islam and Allah)

Also as for getting a teacher, if there is a masjid near you, then you could attend classes there, and be around other believers which could seriously help you, if that is not an option for you, there are many online classes now some of which are free, some you have to pay for
 
The thing is you know this. You know you have this tendencies to veer off course so to speak. Like rebelling, like being at the edge of the cliff and hearing a voice telling you to jump! It'll be alright...

The challenge then is to steer your way back. To the reality of things. The mind takes over, and guides the emotions.. hopefully


:peace:

Things got a lot harder for me when trying to improve myself It is really taking me down hill especially with what I think in my mind. Really it always changes first it goes from one hateful thing to another and then round and round again. Like when I tackle 1 problem another one appears.

Well this is what is happening and I am still trying to keep consistent with everything. I guess I am still very far away from passing this issue. I'll try and strengthen my faith and have more hope in Allah SWT I just don't want to be a munafiq

I still sound like a broken record
 
I haven't found a teacher yet. I started doubting Allah even more but I kept fighting these thoughts. then I felt nothing I'm my heart when I said stagfrulah Or any other method or praising Allah, I panicked and thought about it too much

I then realised that these were all tricks once finished praying and it felt like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I felt a lot better but I still need to continue since this isn't the end and I can fall again.
 
Still struggling and losing the fight...

Asalaamu Alaikum akhee,

I have 3 questions for you:

1. Have you read the whole thread (How to Overcome waswas in worship) I posted to you a week ago which includes very beneificial compilation of articles, tips etc to tackle waswas in worship:

How to Overcome waswas in worship

http://www.islamicboard.com/manners...ercome-waswas-shaythans-whispers-worship.html

2. Have you seen a Psychiatrist about your issues? Many cases of extreme waswas have underlying pschological issues which need to be resolved. I would urge you to see one if you havent.

3. Have you seen a Raqi? Many of these issues may have some relation to sihr. I would urge you to see a reputable Raqi if you have not done so already.

I look forward to your answers.

You will found the article below very beneficial:


A man is experiencing waswas (insinuating whispers) from the Shaytan (devil) having to do with Allah, and he is very afraid of that.


Praise be to Allah


The questioner has mentioned this problem and is afraid of its consequences. I say to him, rejoice, for its consequences cannot be anything but good. By means of this waswas, the Shaytan tries to gain control over the believers and shake the sound belief in their hearts, and make them suffer psychological and intellectual anxiety that will affect the purity of their faith and their life, if they are believers.

This is not the first or the last time that the believers have been exposed to this. It will continue so long as there is any believer in this world. The Sahabah/companions of the Prophet (may Allah be pleased with them) also faced this problem. It was narrated that Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him) said: “Some of the companions of the Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) came to the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) and said to him, ‘We find in ourselves thoughts that are too terrible to speak of.’ He said, ‘Are you really suffering from that?’ They said, ‘Yes.’ He said, ‘That is a clear sign of faith.’” (Muslim).

It was narrated in al-Saheehayn, also from Abu Hurayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said, “The Shaytan comes to one of you and says, ‘Who created such and such? Who created such and such?’ Until he says, ‘Who created your Lord?!’ If that happens to any of you, let him seek refuge with Allah and put a stop to these thoughts.”

It was narrated from Ibn ‘Abbas (may Allah be pleased with them both) that a man came to the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) and said, “I think thoughts to myself, which I would rather be burnt to a cinder than speak of them.” The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said, “Praise be to Allah, Who has reduced all his [the Shaytan’s] plots to mere whispers.” (Abu Dawood).

Shaykh al-Islam Ibn Taymiyah (may Allah have mercy on him) said in Kitab al-Eeman:
“The believer may suffer from the whispers of the Shaytan insinuating thoughts of kufr (disbelief), which may make him feel distressed. The Sahabah (may Allah be pleased with them) said, ‘O Messenger of Allah, some of us think thoughts which we would rather fall from heaven to earth than speak of them.’ He said, ‘That is a clear sign of faith.’ According to one report, ‘… thoughts which are too terrible to speak of.’ He said, ‘Praise be to Allah, Who has reduced all his [the Shaytan’s] plots to mere whispers,’ meaning that the fact that these whispers come, but they are so greatly disliked, and they are pushed away from the heart, is a clear sign of faith. This is like the mujahid (warrior) to whom the enemy comes, but he resists him until he overwhelms him, and this is a mighty jihad (battle)… Hence the seekers of knowledge and devoted worshippers experience waswas and doubts which others do not face, because they (the others) are not following the way prescribed by Allah, rather they are following their own whims and desires and neglecting to remember their Lord. This is what the Shaytan wants, in contrast to those who are striving to draw closer to their Lord by seeking knowledge and worshipping Him. He is their enemy and seeks to prevent them from drawing closer to Allah.” (p.147 of the Indian edition)

I say to this questioner, if you are faced with this waswas from the Shaytan, then fight it and resist it. Know that it can never harm you when you fulfill the duty of fighting and resisting it, and you refuse to be controlled by it. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said, “Allah will forgive my ummah (followers) for any insinuating whispers that may cross their minds, so long as they do not act upon it or speak of it.” (Agreed upon).

If it is said to you: Do you believe the insinuating whispers you experience? Do you think that they are true? Do you really think that Allah is like what this waswas says? You would say, “It is not right for us to speak of this. Glory be to You (O Allah)! This is a great lie” [24:16 ]. You would denounce that in your heart and with your tongue, and be the one who objects to it the most, for it is only whispers and thoughts that cross your mind. It is a trap set by the Shaytan, who flows through the son of Adam (peace be upon him) like blood flows, to make you doomed and to confuse you about your religion.

Hence you will find that the Shaytan does not cast doubts or suspicions into your heart about trivial matters. For example, you may hear of the existence of great cities filled with people and buildings in the east and the west, but it would never cross your mind some day to doubt that they exist or to criticize them and say that they are in ruins and unfit for habitation, or that they are uninhabited, and so on. The Shaytan has nothing to gain by making people doubt about these cities. But he does have a lot to gain by corrupting the believer’s faith, so he strives with his cavalry and his infantry to extinguish the light of knowledge and guidance in his heart and to make him fall into the darkness of doubt and confusion. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) has told us of the appropriate remedy for such problems, which is to seek refuge with Allah and put a stop to it. If a person puts a stop to it and continues to worship Allah, seeking and hoping for (the reward) which is with Allah, it will stop by Allah’s leave. So turn away from all the thoughts of this kind that cross your mind. You are worshipping Allah, calling upon Him and glorifying Him, and if you were to hear anyone ascribing to Allah the things that are whispered to you (waswas), you would probably kill him if you could. So the things that are whispered to you are neither real nor true, they are merely imagination and whispers which have no basis.

Our advice may be summed up as follows:

1. Seek refuge with Allah and give up these thoughts completely, as the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) commanded.

2. Remember Allah and control yourself and do not continue to think of these whispers.

3. Occupy yourself with worship and doing good deeds, in obedience to the command of Allah and seeking to please Him. When you devote yourself completely and seriously to worship, you will forget about these whispers, insha Allah.

4. Frequently seek refuge with Allah and make du’a (supplicate) to free you from these whispers.

I ask Allah to keep you safe and sound, and protect you from all evils.

Majmoo’ Fatawa wa Rasail Fadeelat al-Shaykh Muhammad ibn Salih al-‘Uthaymeen, vol. 1, p.57-60

Source:http://www.ruqya-qa.co.uk/whispers/
 
You mods, pundits and scholars also need to learn to read... Instead of berating him for suffering, maybe capitalise on the POSITIVE

I then realised that these were all tricks once finished praying and it felt like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I felt a lot better but I still need to continue since this isn't the end and I can fall again.

Keep at it - don't give in. And don't let go of the rope.

Keep pushing yourself to keep moving forward. As long as you maintain this forward motion and acknowledge the small wins, insha'allah, you'll succeed
 
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Salaam

Throughout ramadan I have had trouble this worried me greatly. I had such thoughts and evil opinions about my religious and doubts.

However I realised that I allowed evil to take control over my mind and soul. Now I know that I am severely damaged but I have told myself not give up and that i will win inshallah. No matter how much I fall all I need to do is do my basics. I have been running in circles all this time but now I got to put a lot of action to strengthen my faith inshallah.
 
Allah will help me but at the same time I need to fix my act up and instead need to assist people and Learn the quran.
 
Everyone will face, have faced, is facing their own set of 'demons'.

A 5kg dumbell may be a real struggle for some compared to a 10kg dumbell for a weightlifter. Likewise individual tests and struggles. The harder the test, I feel, the higher the rewards.. I would say fighting waswas ranks as one of the most troublesome.

It is just the mind going crazy. It can. We just HAVE to learn to reign it in, battle by battle..


:peace:
 
Salaam

Throughout ramadan I have had trouble this worried me greatly. I had such thoughts and evil opinions about my religious and doubts.

However I realised that I allowed evil to take control over my mind and soul. Now I know that I am severely damaged but I have told myself not give up and that i will win inshallah. No matter how much I fall all I need to do is do my basics. I have been running in circles all this time but now I got to put a lot of action to strengthen my faith inshallah.

Wasalam.

Hope you are well.

If you do realize that all the bad thoughts and evil opinions you are having is waswasa then you've won half the battle. The other half to win it is know that Allah knows all your troubles, struggles, difficulties of thoughts and mental capabilities. Therefore you must not pay attention to these thoughts. Allah will not punish you for what you have not brought forth intentionally.

May you be blessed.

Have a happy Eid mubarak.
 
Allah will help me but at the same time I need to fix my act up and instead need to assist people and Learn the quran.

Alhamdulillah.

Try to read last three surahs of Qur'an morning and evening, and blow on you. Other means to include is to recite ayatul kursi after every salah; in fact, we all should do this. And try to stay in wudhu.
 

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