HELP

[Bobbyflay23]

After going through a hardship allah has directed me back to Islam but I have a problem I'm currently trying my hardest to be a the best Muslim I can be but I struggle so many problems 1. When I pray even if I ask for refuge in allah from the devil I'll get disgusting thoughts like god isn't real and such and such and I'm starting to think it's not sheytan it's my brain telling me these things 2. I do as much dhikr as I can but I feel as if it's not sincere I'll say alhumdilla and I'll think about what I'm great full for but there's not a bit of real gratitude inside of me this applies for astagiflla too I try to repent for the horrible sins I've committed but there's no real remorse 3. I've repented I've changed my entire life I've removed any forms of sins I do on the daily basis theres still a few that I'm working on because I do it out of reflex like lying and cursing but that's not the problem the problem is that I changed everything and do good deeds but my repentance wasn't sincerlily remorseful 4. I need a way to increase my iman the Quran works but not as efficiently as I want it too so to conclude I'm trying my best to be a good Muslim I even keepnmy gaze low and I do naffil fast almost every day etc but I'm not very sincere and somtimes I worry that my good deeds won't do me any good or help me to jannah because I am not sincere with anything I've tried my hardest to be sincere

 

[Serinity]

Don't worry, Shaytaan wants you to go away from Islam by doing everything in his power. Just keep doing what you are doing ( praying, reading Qur'aan, and doing dhikr)

I am going through something similar, but it has to do with Aqeedah, more than prayer. Specifically Tawheed - I know it all. but I fear maybe my heart is locked or something.

Just keep doing what you are doing. As for me, I should start pondering over the Qur'aan more. That will, In shaa' Allah open my heart more.

After I started praying, shaytaan came to me with bad dreams, etc. I started doubting my wudhu. I tried to be a sincere as I could, but still didn't feel like that.

Note: Ignore the whispers of shaytaan, and keep striving to be sincere - but do not become extreme in that - because Shaytaan may stress you a LOT in doing good deeds. And may even encourage you to pray, etc. But instead of trying to have you walk towards haram (since he despaired of that) he is trying to make you go to extremes in praying, etc. Do not think too much / overthink.

Allahu alam.

 

[Indefinable]

After going through a hardship allah has directed me back to Islam but I have a problem I'm currently trying my hardest to be a the best Muslim I can be but I struggle so many problems

1. When I pray even if I ask for refuge in allah from the devil I'll get disgusting thoughts like god isn't real and such and such and I'm starting to think it's not sheytan it's my brain telling me these things

Continue your Salaah, and do not stop, Shaytaan is the biggest enemy of every Muslim, so ignore these whisperings, and don't let them get to you.

2. I do as much dhikr as I can but I feel as if it's not sincere I'll say alhumdilla and I'll think about what I'm great full for but there's not a bit of real gratitude inside of me this applies for astagiflla too I try to repent for the horrible sins I've committed but there's no real remorse

You need to reflect, and work on your spirituality. Soften your heart Insha'Allaah. Continuous dhikr is a good start, but ponder upon the words you are uttering and their significance.

3. I've repented I've changed my entire life I've removed any forms of sins I do on the daily basis theres still a few that I'm working on because I do it out of reflex like lying and cursing but that's not the problem the problem is that I changed everything and do good deeds but my repentance wasn't sincerlily remorseful

It's brilliant that you are taking practical steps to remove yourself from sins. Sometimes it takes time to make something a habit. So with foul language and lying, you have your acknowledged that they are wrong, and you are wary that they are negative traits, so Insha'Allaah this change in your personality will come after a time. It doesn't happen straight away. Also - don't think that you aren't remorseful. I would say that you are, especially since you posted here.

4. I need a way to increase my iman the Quran works but not as efficiently as I want it too so to conclude I'm trying my best to be a good Muslim I even keepnmy gaze low and I do naffil fast almost every day etc but I'm not very sincere and somtimes I worry that my good deeds won't do me any good or help me to jannah because I am not sincere with anything I've tried my hardest to be sincere

One thing about Emaan, that you have to understand, is that it fluctuates. Sometimes a person is 'high' and sometimes on a 'low', now it's at the 'low' when Shaytaan will strike. You're doing well by praying and reciting Qu'raan. Just continue what you are doing, have the intention of pleasing your Creator, and the rest, Insha'Allaah will fall in place.

 

[Indefinable]

Don't worry, Shaytaan wants you to go away from Islam by doing everything in his power. Just keep doing what you are doing ( praying, reading Qur'aan, and doing dhikr)

I am going through something similar, but it has to do with Aqeedah, more than prayer. Specifically Tawheed - I know it all. but I fear maybe my heart is locked or something.

Just keep doing what you are doing. As for me, I should start pondering over the Qur'aan more. That will, In shaa' Allah open my heart more.

After I started praying, shaytaan came to me with bad dreams, etc. I started doubting my wudhu. I tried to be a sincere as I could, but still didn't feel like that.

Note: Ignore the whispers of shaytaan, and keep striving to be sincere - but do not become extreme in that - because Shaytaan may stress you a LOT in doing good deeds. And may even encourage you to pray, etc. But instead of trying to have you walk towards haram (since he despaired of that) he is trying to make you go to extremes in praying, etc. Do not think too much / overthink.

Allahu alam.

Also OP and brother Serinity - ensure that you are protecting yourselves by reciting the morning/evening adhkaar Insha'Allaah.

Self-ruqyah is very beneficial too, especially when you feel 'weak' in emaan, remember the Qur'aan is a Healing. Alhamdulillaah.

 

[Eric H]

Greetings and peace be with you Bobbyflay23; and welcome to the forum,

I'm currently trying my hardest to be a the best Muslim I can be but I struggle so many problems

Life is a journey always one day at a time, Lord grant me the wisdom, peace and serenity to do your will, this day and every day, knowing that you hold me in the palm of your hand. I am only 67, and still struggling.

I like these......

“Anything that annoys you is for teaching you patience.
Anyone who abandons you is for
teaching you how to stand up
on your own two feet.
Anything that angers you is for teaching you forgiveness and compassion.
Anything that has power over you is for teaching you how to take your power back.
Anything you hate is for
teaching you unconditional love.
Anything you fear is for
teaching you courage to
overcome your fear.
Anything you can’t control is for teaching you how to let go and trust in Allah”

― Jackson Kiddard​

I think God answers prayers in a way that help us towards eternal salvation, rather than solve problems in this life. I asked for Strength.........

And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.
I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.
I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.
I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.
I asked for Favours.........
And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted
I received everything I needed
My Prayer has been answered

In the spirit of praying to a just and merciful God,

Eric

 

[M.I.A.]

After going through a hardship allah has directed me back to Islam but I have a problem I'm currently trying my hardest to be a the best Muslim I can be but I struggle so many problems 1. When I pray even if I ask for refuge in allah from the devil I'll get disgusting thoughts like god isn't real and such and such and I'm starting to think it's not sheytan it's my brain telling me these things 2. I do as much dhikr as I can but I feel as if it's not sincere I'll say alhumdilla and I'll think about what I'm great full for but there's not a bit of real gratitude inside of me this applies for astagiflla too I try to repent for the horrible sins I've committed but there's no real remorse 3. I've repented I've changed my entire life I've removed any forms of sins I do on the daily basis theres still a few that I'm working on because I do it out of reflex like lying and cursing but that's not the problem the problem is that I changed everything and do good deeds but my repentance wasn't sincerlily remorseful 4. I need a way to increase my iman the Quran works but not as efficiently as I want it too so to conclude I'm trying my best to be a good Muslim I even keepnmy gaze low and I do naffil fast almost every day etc but I'm not very sincere and somtimes I worry that my good deeds won't do me any good or help me to jannah because I am not sincere with anything I've tried my hardest to be sincere

lol.

thats the problem with people.

they are so heedless of what they are a part of.

in convincing you of the sins you have not left behind..

what would they say?

i gaurantee you i would never take any of them as guidance.

they are the truly insincere.

i have seen some of the best people say some of the worst things to me.

...im not successful because i wouldnt eat them.


even the hadayat they offer.. is for there own benefit..

or there own detrement.

..
dirty buggers learn to look down.. and i did.

in the end you would be afraid to show your religion.. as i am.

because its just for show.. for most of them.

so blissfully unaware and content in the fair seeming actions they are part of.

..if i knew it was eat or be eaten.. maybe i wouldnt have changed.

but they exist..

so god most definitely has too.


..it apparently is not what you do that counts.

but rather who you do it for.
..
...
..maybe they did not speak of there own accord?

hell... i been trippin on the same line for years.

but in the end.. we all have to turn up for ourselves.. as ourselves.


welcome to the circus..

where they dont pay for a hard days work.

pay the wise guy and made men at the door.
..
...

i never did fight it in the end... wait.. i never did hit it back in the end.

honestly why give it anything clean.. when all it does is put dirt on it?

and its crooked ways make good things look bad.

the world.

..who runs it?

if i could fly i would leave you all behind make no mistake..

whats your heaven like?

id settle for a fast car...

...

...whats the retail on one of those?

it would be severely patronising if they put wings on the bloody thing!

with hardship comes ease... id just as easily hit myself in the face..

may allah swt grant you patience.

and a clear path.

 

[Bobbyflay23]

Thanks you guys for some of your answers I'll keep trying selam alaykum