AllahsWitness
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Assalmulaikum brother and sisters.. I need help.. I am new here and I need guidance.....
I have been very poor and could not feed myself by paying bills constantly. I have seriously been in constant hardship that is it very hard for me to even save $50 a month. I am 23 years old, working full time by minimum wage. I am a refugee and I left everything and paid whatever the cost to escape from a harsh country. Both my parents died from bombing and I had to escape for my life. I am only lucky I made to the U.S because I lied that I am white. (Because of my blue colored eyes, and red hair.)
Recently, I have gone to Vegas with my friend because he did not want to go alone. I was not planning on drinking or playing any gambling games but just to see why America likes Vegas so much. My friend force me to play one game and with $50, I have made $10,000. After that game - I did not get greedy, but was thankful, but at the same time didn't know if I should accept.
I am so confused if Allah has given me as gift or I should not accept. With this money - I have given 2% charity for giving me such wealth, but I feel guilty because this is not my money and especially haram money.
This is the first time I am able to eat better, and I bought a new bed.. I am now in better health and less stress.. But with each purchase... I am feeling guilty... I feel like I should not accept... When I pray, I feel like Allah is angry with me.. or I will burn in the Hellfire because I lied that I am white and accepted gambling money.... Should I have just stayed and died?
What do I do?
I have been very poor and could not feed myself by paying bills constantly. I have seriously been in constant hardship that is it very hard for me to even save $50 a month. I am 23 years old, working full time by minimum wage. I am a refugee and I left everything and paid whatever the cost to escape from a harsh country. Both my parents died from bombing and I had to escape for my life. I am only lucky I made to the U.S because I lied that I am white. (Because of my blue colored eyes, and red hair.)
Recently, I have gone to Vegas with my friend because he did not want to go alone. I was not planning on drinking or playing any gambling games but just to see why America likes Vegas so much. My friend force me to play one game and with $50, I have made $10,000. After that game - I did not get greedy, but was thankful, but at the same time didn't know if I should accept.
I am so confused if Allah has given me as gift or I should not accept. With this money - I have given 2% charity for giving me such wealth, but I feel guilty because this is not my money and especially haram money.
This is the first time I am able to eat better, and I bought a new bed.. I am now in better health and less stress.. But with each purchase... I am feeling guilty... I feel like I should not accept... When I pray, I feel like Allah is angry with me.. or I will burn in the Hellfire because I lied that I am white and accepted gambling money.... Should I have just stayed and died?
What do I do?