I read something that said we should look at those below us and not those above us so that we know our blessings. That is an Islamic thing. So now I thought I would share my situation. Do you know I am limp as of the moment and I have incontinence? I cannot control my defecating and urinating. I wear pampers. I accidentally made myself limp. It's quite a long story. I also have thoughts if ever I would get a wife and my own family someday. Imagine your life like mine. What would you do? I also have these super-natural beings like ghosts telling what's inside my mind? It's driving me crazy sometimes. You don't really know unless it happens to you. But maybe you would go crazy and kill yourself. It's crazy. You'll feel humiliated because other people hears what you are thinking and it may not be what you really think and sometimes I talk using the supernatural beings to explain things why it was said or something, and it's hard, and sometimes I just don't know anymore. My faith in Allah is keeping me alive. Islam is real my brothers and sisters. It saved me. I know sometimes that if you compare your situation to mine, you would still feel that you might still be having much harder time and it seems like no one understands because nobody is feeling the same feelings you are feeling except you. Just think about what I said above. Know that more people are going through worse, but let me tell you that I understand you. You situation is really hard. I know it. God has blessed me to be blissful with his deen or religion so I can live peacefully even with the supernatural beings, even if when I just thought about it again, it was hard. Still, I've achieved bliss or I've reached a state of perfect happiness, typically so as to be oblivious of everything else. It changes sometimes, but I still feel it somehow even with the pain. I just want to focus more on that and be thankful for it so God would increase it more in my life, for I am thankful for it. I thought about situations of converts. It's really hard. I can pray anytime in my house as a Muslim, because my parents are Muslim. I pray everyday now. Converts may find it hard. They would seclude themselves in their rooms so as to not be seen. They feel family needs to know this, but they are afraid. I understand. It is said that it is the times we ought to give up, that the tide will soon rise back. Something like that. It is in that moment that we should not surrender. We can of course, surrender to God. We can quit from time to time but we should never kill ourselves or destroy ourselves. Killing ourselves has punishment. You wouldn't like it. May Allah, the most merciful, help us all and forgive us and bless us and grant us an easy path to Jannah(Paradise). His mercy embraces all things, so there might be some good you will notice in your situation. As Napoleon Hill said that for every failure, there is a seed of an equivalent advantage or success. Same as the mercy of Allah embracing all things. I am turning 26 my brother and I'm still not married and I am wearing pampers. I know you want to please Allah and this me, saying my situation to you for you to learn may make you think so what. But please, let us learn from those below us. You may just want to please Allah, as being single, besides getting married soon can make us fall into sin. But also, if we are not still financially ready, even emotionally, we should prepare, as far as I know, that is Islamic as well.
