RevertTayra
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Read my story carefully for there's good wisdom in it. PLEASE don't respond to this thread with what I should recite - that's not the point of this thread.
Today I let shaytan control my mind. It was a moment of unawareness...
He made me believe that I'm destined for Jahannam and that there was no sense in trying anything anymore. I saw myself as the worst person walking the Earth, worthless, unwanted, and misery to others... So I had 2 options to choose: 1 to kill myself or 2 to live this life as it's the only life I have, but he was more in favor of me committing suicide as soon as possible.
These thoughts lasted for a couple of hours and I was aware of the fact it was shaytan controlling my mind and I agreed with him that I'm lost case.
Then, I decided to read Quran and see what happens to my mind. Of course, these dark thoughts left me and now I see clearly. The wisdom behind this is following:
1. Worshipping Allah is the main activity on a daily basis, and not work/study/earning money - So don't say: when I'm done with my work I'll recite Quran, make dhikr, make salaat... it's the other way around. Ibadah is not for spare time, everything else except ibadah is for spare time, including your work, kids, family, friends...
2. Spending a lot of time with the Quran makes your improvements in much shorter times
3. Doing more salaat instead of doing extra dhikir is way better and more powerful
These 3 things shaytan didn't like me realizing and implementing, so had attacked me with the darkest possible thoughts I've ever had in my life.