brothers and sisters.
jazakallhu khair for your advice.
what can i say!!?? im... i dont know, happpy, i guess. how can i describe my feelings and lastest questions.
i understand about the taubah etc. im trying to do righteous deeds, and continuing with the deeds i was doing before (as far as i rememebr). my question is, and this is what keeps on bugging me: 1. im not sure if i have done anything to take me out of the fold of islam. i.e if it was in my head, or in my heart that i felt that way. If i have done anything to take me out of the fold of islam, and im not realising it (am i responsoble for something i dont realise, even if it is something that bad), which if i have done something to take me out of its fold, dosn't that then make my deeds vain. get my drift??
*arghh!! so many questions to ask, brain is having a mental block*
2. what if i have done something bad, and it haunts me a death. u know, theres no help there, if your a kaafir.
and one last thing, inshallah, when i ask people about such questions, and the answer has a postitive effect on me. im okay for a while, then i think of my past sins (the ones and i think i may have crossed the boundry), then i freak out. how do i avoid this?? what if it turns out to be genuine and it i dont pick up on it (this also scares me).
one last thing inshallah, how does one know that what one feels/thinks about is from shaytaan and not reality. for example somehting really bad may cross ones mind and feelings about kufr etc. yet, with a kaafir , it dosn't bother them that they a kuffaar(i dont think that they even realise), i.e the kufr is there in their hearts. So how does one distinguish between whispers of satan and the real thing. get my drift?? sorry if that aniat clear, let me know.
when one repents, and still worries about past sins, etc, does this mean they should have more Trust in allah. i feel that when i repent, theres this 'oh theres something missing.' in my heart. it crosses my mind that it is from the shaytaan, as in the ayat (The same) who whispers into the
hearts of Mankind,- (114.005), and I also think, you've just repented, is there anything more/better than this?? am i right in thinking this??
anyways, jazakallahu khair everyone.
one last thing, inshallah, how does one be thankful to allah, after favours are bestowed. how does one avoid, or at least decrease laziness.
p.s check this out:
Many years ago (15 years) I read that apostatizing from Islam is one of the things that invalidate wudoo’ and that stuck in my mind. Every time I want to do wudoo’ I feel that I am a kaafir, and I repeat wudoo’ more than once. It may be a kind of waswaas (whispering from the shaytaan) but I really felt as if I was a kaafir. I would repeat the Shahaadatayn but there was a feeling inside that I didn’t believe it. But I would think about the meaning and I found that I believed in it, but the feeling that I am a kaafir will not go away. I weep and I pray to Allaah to heal me from what has befallen me.
I used to refuse to get married for fear of kufr, lest it invalidate the marriage.
Despite all that, I still pray regularly, read Qur’aan and listen to lectures. I know that the way to treat this waswaas is not to pay any attention to it, but I was weak and I paid attention to it. I know that I am wrong. What should I do?.
Answer :
Praise be to Allaah.
We ask Allaah to heal you and make you well, and to replace your waswaas with peace of mind and certain faith.
You should realize that what has befallen you is a great test, and if you bear it with patience and seek reward with Allaah for it, you will attain a great deal of good, by Allaah’s leave. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “Calamity will continue to befall the believing man and the believing woman with regard to themselves, their children and their wealth, until they meet Allaah with no sins on them.” Narrated by al-Tirmidhi (2399) and classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi.
Al-Tirmidhi (2396) and Ibn Maajah (4031) narrated from Anas (may Allaah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “The greatest reward comes with the greatest trial. When Allaah loves a people He tests them. Whoever accepts that wins His pleasure but whoever is discontent with that earns His wrath.” It was classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi.
So receive the glad tidings of a great reward, in sha Allah, and remember that what you feel in yourself will not harm you, so long as you love Allaah and His Messenger (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) and His religion, and you hate kufr and its people.
There follows some advice with which we ask Allaah to benefit you:
1 – You should be certain that this waswaas comes from the shaytaan and is not real. How can you be a kaafir when you pray regularly, read Qur’aan and listen to useful lectures?
2 – You should remember Allaah a great deal (dhikr), so that the shaytaan, who is the source of this waswaas, will go away from you. The Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “… and He (Allaah) has commanded you to remember Allaah, and the likeness of that is a man who was being pursued swiftly by the enemy, until he reached a strong fortress in which he found protection; similarly a man cannot find protection from the Shaytaan except by remembering Allaah.”
Classed as saheeh by al-Albaani in Saheeh al-Tirmidhi (2298).
3 – You know that the way to treat this waswaas is to ignore it, so continue to do that.
4 – You should fill your spare time with things that will benefit you, so that you will not have time to think about this waswaas.
5 – You should pray to Allaah a great deal and turn to Him, and seek refuge with Him. Look for the times when du’aa’s are answered, such as the last third of the night and when prostrating.
We ask Allaah to heal you and take away this evil from you.
And Allaah knows best.
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