am i on the right path am i doing something wrong?

So yesterday my friend told me to watch Jurassic Park 3. I told him ok he called me a liar, then I told him it's not my fault, I have adhd so I forget things. He told me I'm insulting Allah, which I don't think is true. Still, then that same night I saw a TikTok about Allah, and I clicked the search in the bottom. I got stuck in a rabbit I won't explain everything that happened because nothing really happened other than watching videos., then I saw some videos saying that I'm not a good Muslim because I don't shed tears during Salah, which is true I don't shed any tears during Salah or Dua. The videos said it's because im doing to meny bad deeds or my hart is hard I kept asking Allah for forgiveness, and I prayed 2 rakats, and I only got 1 tear in each eye during sujud and it was stick in my eye so i had to blick to make it fall out of my eye also when I kept asking Allah for forgiveness in sujud i forgot what the arabic word for forgivness it for.afew seconds and i think he didint want me to repent (or am I wrong on this?) and now I am just scared for my akhira in desperation of trying to fix things. I deleted my music app but personally, I don't think music is Haram. It doesn't distract me from my salah or anything. Sometimes it plays in the back of my head, but I try my best to ignore the music while I'm praying. Should I reinstall my music apps also What should I do because I am scared for my. Akhira also during that night I genuinely thought Allah was angry with me and now it's the next day and I don't feel that same fear of Allah being angry at me is that normal if not what does it mean

السلام عليكم ورحمة الله وبركاته

Allah سبحانه وتعالى is the most Merciful and He wants good for you, so you should always try to have good thoughts about Him. It is mentioned in a Hadith that Allah is more pleased with the repentance of His servant than a person who finds his lost camel in a waterless desert. So do your best to obey Allah and keep away from the Haram things and have hope in the Mercy and acceptance of Allah سبحانه وتعالى. Keep working for the Akhirah and ask Allah for His help.

May Allah make things easy for you and guide you, Ameen.

ytv said:

So yesterday my friend told me to watch Jurassic Park 3. I told him ok he called me a liar, then I told him it's not my fault, I have adhd so I forget things. He told me I'm insulting Allah, which I don't think is true.

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Thats not true. You didn't do it on purpose. So, everything is alright.

ytv said:

Still, then that same night I saw a TikTok about Allah, and I clicked the search in the bottom. I got stuck in a rabbit I won't explain everything that happened because nothing really happened other than watching videos., then I saw some videos saying that I'm not a good Muslim because I don't shed tears during Salah, which is true I don't shed any tears during Salah or Dua.

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what a big pile of nonsense. Do you think every other muslim sheds tears when doing Salah? No, they don't. please stop watching nonsense videos on tiktok.

ytv said:

The videos said it's because im doing to meny bad deeds or my hart is hard I kept asking Allah for forgiveness,

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That is exactly why Allah created us for...asking Allah for forgiveness...so you are doing exactly what Allah asks you to do....don't worry about it.

ytv said:

and I prayed 2 rakats, and I only got 1 tear in each eye during sujud and it was stick in my eye so i had to blick to make it fall out of my eye also when I kept asking Allah for forgiveness in sujud i forgot what the arabic word for forgivness it for.

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Exactly...do you see what the shaytaan is doing? Because you saw that stupid video on tiktok and believed in it...shaytaan whispered in your ear that you should shed tears at your next Salah...so during your Salah you are now concentrating on the crying instead of focussing on your Salah.
Forget about shedding tears and focus on your Salah please.

ytv said:

afew seconds and i think he didint want me to repent (or am I wrong on this?) and now I am just scared for my akhira in desperation of trying to fix things.

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Don't worry...you are doing good...just stay on this track and you'll be fine inshaallah.