am i on the right path am i doing something wrong?

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So yesterday my friend told me to watch Jurassic Park 3. I told him ok he called me a liar, then I told him it's not my fault, I have adhd so I forget things. He told me I'm insulting Allah, which I don't think is true. Still, then that same night I saw a TikTok about Allah, and I clicked the search in the bottom. I got stuck in a rabbit I won't explain everything that happened because nothing really happened other than watching videos., then I saw some videos saying that I'm not a good Muslim because I don't shed tears during Salah, which is true I don't shed any tears during Salah or Dua. The videos said it's because im doing to meny bad deeds or my hart is hard I kept asking Allah for forgiveness, and I prayed 2 rakats, and I only got 1 tear in each eye during sujud and it was stick in my eye so i had to blick to make it fall out of my eye also when I kept asking Allah for forgiveness in sujud i forgot what the arabic word for forgivness it for.afew seconds and i think he didint want me to repent (or am I wrong on this?) and now I am just scared for my akhira in desperation of trying to fix things. I deleted my music app but personally, I don't think music is Haram. It doesn't distract me from my salah or anything. Sometimes it plays in the back of my head, but I try my best to ignore the music while I'm praying. Should I reinstall my music apps also What should I do because I am scared for my. Akhira also during that night I genuinely thought Allah was angry with me and now it's the next day and I don't feel that same fear of Allah being angry at me is that normal if not what does it mean