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This is the last one. Is there a strong Du’a that I can use so that God will guide my family to Islam and to have better understandings? Because, today my crazy Christian grandmother asked me where do you put the icon of Jesus Christ? And as a lie I told I don’t know. And she tried to convince me to tell the truth and I did told, and then she asked me in front of my Christian sister, and I told her in Romanian “îngerii(angels) nu vor intra intr-un loc unde sunt imagini cu ființe” and she asked me who told you this? And I replayed: Muhammad told thousands of years ago that angels of mercy do not enter a house with images, and my crazy troublemaker Christian grandmother and my Christian sister considered me as a stupid, that I’m not correct in my head. Oh, and is there a Du’a to get rid of this strange, weird feeling that I have? Because, when I’m trying to speed about what I believe, I start to shake as if I’m shame and I try to keep saying to myself: “goddamn it! I’m sick of being shame of being Muslim, I am not ashamed, I have no reason to be shame of being Muslim. I wish I don’t want any longer this kind of weird feeling” and I start to beat up myself because of this feeling because it is not right. Is there any strong Du’a also for this? Because, I want to get rid of this strange feeling once and for all. Have I committed a sin? Because, it is not my fault that I have this weird feeling, it is devil’s fault. And plus, I’m trying to practice Islam as other Muslims do. And my Christian grandmother told me after I told her that Jesus is not god, I don’t believe that Jesus is god. And she told me that if you have mind of pagan.... and she also told that my Muslim father prays to I don’t know what gods. And my sister said to her: “please, also Muslims do pray to the same God as Christians do”And that disturbed me a lot because it is not true, because my father would never pray to another god but to Allah, and I also pray to only one true God, The Creator. It seems like I have to keep the picture that I have with me as a memory of when I was baby with force so that they would not consider me as someone who don’t think well. I don’t know if the angels of mercy would enter in my room in my situation. And Maghreb came, and my Christian mother came home and the Math Christian teacher came to teach me math, and she came to my sister first. And my mother asked me to do the homie work because there’s no time, and ai shared with her a true story that you shared with me, and that is, thousands of years ago, Muhammad and others during their battles have found time to pray and that encouraged me to pray in aIl the time and I said to her that prayers are the most important and nothing is important like prayers, and she told me: “Yes, but that time was different situation but now the teacher is here and you must be prepared because you don’t know when she’ll come to you and you can recover it when she finished teaching you math” then I felt like she is right and when I went in my room, I said to myself: “no, why should I listen to someone who wants me not to pray? I won’t listen to her, I wanna make God be happy at me” and then I ask God To grant me some time to finish my prayer fast and it happened. And my Christian mother sat beside me helping me to solve my math homework, and I said: “Mom, I did not make up rules, this was told by angel Gabriel that angels don’t enter a house where there’s pictures” because she was angry with me and I know the reason. And she told me: “Stupid kid(out of anger), that is because you don’t understand what others try to tell you and that is because you stay a lot on telephone than reading, and what he(angel Gabriel) meant is they don’t enter a holy place where there are pictures and they are worshiped, do you think long time ago they had pictures as today?” And I said: “well, uhh, no they had portraits and statues that time” and she said: “exactly: he meant that it is haram only to take an image as something for worship but if you do not worship that image, then it is ok to have it, parents do love their children and that’s why they keep photos with they children as memory, tomorrow I’m gonna take the telephone from you, because you are not correct in head” it seems that I’m forced to keep it.
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