Lately, i am very hurt, upset and confused. I have recently been married and am living with my husbands parents and i do not like the atmosphere that is there in their house as me and my husband are the only two people that pray or practice Islam properly.
It gets awkward because i am 7 months pregnant and we were given the smallest room in the house where i cannot imagine how a cot could possible fit there. My husband has 4 other brothers living there who are fully grown and his mother has problems communicating with me, she never makes conversation but jus wants me to do the housework (which i willingly do to help her) but always wants me to dress up and greet her friends which i do not like to do as i do not like wearing anything i am not comfortable in and also i do not always have the time as i am a full time student too.
She is always asking where i am going and what time i am going to be back. She also suggested that i cut down on my hours in university, which i do not want to do as i am trying to educate myself and bring a better future for myself and my family. When me and my husband go out (once in a blue moon), we get told off for being late (latest = 11pm) but when he goes out with his friends, he doesn't get enquired about.
Lately, i have found out that she speaks behind my back to her friends (one thing i cannot stand is backbiting and gossiping, my Allah SWT forgive those) but i can ignore that. However, she enters my room without me or my husband knowing. I have a locked cabinet where i keep my valuebles which include expensive gold jewellery i had recieved as part of my wedding dowry and gifts from various people, my wedding ring (the only reason i do not wear it is because my husband said he will alter it for me) and some other things. She found my keys in my drawer and managed to take all of that.
Please someone tell me, is that not stealing? Is it permissible to enter someone's room/house without their permission? Also, how can you take a wedding dowry back?
I have spoken to my husband about moving out and he told me to start looking for a place and i found a perfect place but he is hesitating to tell his parents. Also, when he spoke to his parents about moving out before, they were not very happy about it. I was very very hurt and upset upon hearing that his mum had said to him that i will kick him out one day and i am of a bad influence.
I have never had any arguments before with anyone in his household and i am very scared to speak to his mother about why she had stolen my stuff or what i have ever done wrong.
Me and my husband had married young, so i provide for myself most of the time and i have never asked for anything from him other than for him to provide me and our daughter-to-be(inshallah) with love, care and affection. I also have kindly requested that i need to move out before there are further issues in the household between me and his family. He had promised me this earlier but now does not even speak of it and i'm scared to mention this as i dont want to pressurise him.
Recently, he has got a new job, so inshallah he will try harder to provide for us. However, i am also deeply hurt that upon our marriage he had promised me £2,000 as part of the Dowry in agreement with my family and when i asked him "if i asked for it now, how will you give it to me?", he couldn't answer. When i told him after weeks of keeping it inside me that his mother is doing wrong and going through my stuff as well as taking them, he doesn't update me on whether he had spoken to his mother or not. I am currently away at my parents house so i don't know what's going on. I am upset that he doesn't mention anything to me and i am scared of what to do because i find it hard to stand up for myself. I can only count on Allah SWT
Please make dua for me. Sorry for the long post.
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