I hate this world I live in. I have an abusive family (my mom curses me out everyday and my dad yells so much), I live in America the land of haram and superficial things, I am unattractive (rejected by women very harshly) , I have nothing to live for. I am not smart (I used to be but I did drugs for a few months and I think it changed my brain) I am not suicidal (at least I urge myself not to be) However, if Allah asked to take my life right now, I would say YES without a question. I want to move on, I dont like this life that we live in and the world that I am in, I want the next life. I want to die, infact, I have even thought about making duaa of getting hit by a car, or falling off of a cliff, (as this way, I would not be faulted for killing myself, it would be an accident)

I hate life, I want to die and I feel as if this world takes too long to end. The prophet said it would be quick, but it is still lagging on.