rachelabs75
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Im so confused. 1 half years ago I met a Muslim man and he completely changed my life. Im not going to go into detail but my life could not have been much worse. He made me feel worth something he made me feel like a person not just a thing. I started to ask him questions about Islam and because he had gone to university for 6 years to study Islam and was now working in a mosque my questions where answered he knew what he was talking about. He gave me books to read and they all inspired and made sense to me so I reverted. Time went by and he kept on saying he wanted to marry me and wanted children. We both knew that by seeing each other was forbidden. He kept on saying his family would not agree to it and he would probably end up having to leave his Job as his reputation in his community would be ruined. He said he would sort something out as soon as he could.
4 months later I find out am pregnant. I put huge pressure on him to tell his family. One day he came to my house in tears telling me that he had something to tell me. He was already married with 2 children. I was devistated. He told me that he loved me and did not want to leave me. In the same breath he said he did not want to leave his wife and children.
Im now 5 months pregnant and suprisingly I am ok with him having a wife. He splits his time equally between us. The country I live in does not allow you to have 2 wifes.
I cant cope with knowing that me and my child are "wrong" yet im helpless to make it right. I used to love learning about Islam but now everytime I start to read I end up being in tears. How can I ask for forgiveness when I continue to sin? How can I leave him when it was him who stopped me living a life of sin. I know what a good dad he will be. He is an amazing man I know he loves me.
I have made phonecalls to mosques asking for advice they tell me they will get an someone qualifed to call me back yet I never recieve the call. Is there anyone who can offer any advice.
4 months later I find out am pregnant. I put huge pressure on him to tell his family. One day he came to my house in tears telling me that he had something to tell me. He was already married with 2 children. I was devistated. He told me that he loved me and did not want to leave me. In the same breath he said he did not want to leave his wife and children.
Im now 5 months pregnant and suprisingly I am ok with him having a wife. He splits his time equally between us. The country I live in does not allow you to have 2 wifes.
I cant cope with knowing that me and my child are "wrong" yet im helpless to make it right. I used to love learning about Islam but now everytime I start to read I end up being in tears. How can I ask for forgiveness when I continue to sin? How can I leave him when it was him who stopped me living a life of sin. I know what a good dad he will be. He is an amazing man I know he loves me.
I have made phonecalls to mosques asking for advice they tell me they will get an someone qualifed to call me back yet I never recieve the call. Is there anyone who can offer any advice.
