... Then he turns on his gospel music to sooth him and last night I thought about our conversations about music and suddenly saw how the music played on our emotions and swayed us in one direction...
Hmmm...
One thing that I remember about my becoming a Christian and then my experiences as such, that it was all very emotional. I grew up as a Baptist and I remember the fire-and-brimstone sermons and being reminded of my sins and imperfection as a human. When I realized (as a teenager) that my sins distanced me from the Glory of God and that there was no other way for forgiveness of those sins but to believe that Jesus (as) was the Son of God, that he lived a blemish-free life and that he died a horrible death on the cross, then for my redemption I accepted Jesus (as) as my personal Lord and Savior.
... and, yes, I remember the deeply moving Gospel songs such as "Amazing Grace", "Mansion on a Hilltop", "When the Roll is Called Up Yonder", "Have Thine Own Way", "How Great Thou Art", "I'll Fly Away", "Washed in the Blood" and "The Old Rugged Cross". Singing each of these songs was such a powerful emotional experience for me.
I also remeber partaking of communion and the grief that I felt that Jesus (as) had to die such a demeaning death for lowly me. When I ate the unleavened bread, I rememberd the beatings, the crown of thorns and the nails being driven through his hands and feet. When I drank the grape juice, I rememberd the blood and water that flowed when the soldier pierced his side. The object of my worship as a Christian was clearly on Jesus.
Then 26 years ago as a senior in college (had a Muslim dorm mate) I read the protions of the Qur'an that related to Jesus (as), Mary, and other people from the Bible such as Adam, Noah, Abraham, Joseph, Moses, and Zachariah (peace be upon them all). At first I strongly objected to what I was reading as being different from my existing beliefs, but as I read more I gradually gained the sense that what the Qur'an was saying made more sense than my previous Christian beliefs. The simplicity of the concept of Allah (swt) being One with no sons, daughters, father or mother appealed to me in contrast with the Trinity doctrine of Christianity and with Hebrews 7:1-3. Upon returning to college from Christmas break, I said my shahada.
My experiences as a Muslim have not been easy. Over the next several years I received a lot of flak from family and co-workers about Islam. They always associated Islam with the terrorism and suicide bombings that was in the media. I had trouble identifying with other Muslims because of the racial and cultural differences and I was also unable to find a Muslim wife. After only five years, I stopped practicing Islam and married a Christian. Then in June 2001, I decided to practice my innermost faith, Islam, regardless of what people thought and the consequences of doing so. I remember thinking that one day I will have to stand before Allah and give an account for my life. I knew that I could not use the excuse that I did not offer salah and fast because some Muslims in Palestine were blowing themselves up along with innocent women and children. It was a concious decision on my part as a result of Allah's (swt) guidance back to the Truth. What have I ever done to deserve such mercy of guidance - twice in one lifetime?
My experience as a Muslim is clearly less emotional. Our congregational worship on Fiday is quite "dry". We go to the masjid, offer Sunnah salah individually, sit on the floor, listen to a sermon by the imam, offer 2 rakat (units) of congregational salah, and then offer another individual Sunnah salah before leaving. We have no songs or music. Rather than relying upon the blood of the Lamb to cleanse me of me sins, I go directly to Allah (swt) and ask for His forgiveness.
We Muslims have no mental image of Allah, the One we worship, other than Qur'an 24:35
Allah is the light of the heavens and the earth. The likeness of this light is a niche in which there is a lamp, the lamp in a glass, the glass like a glittering star, kindled from a blessed olive tree, an olive that is neither of the east nor the west, the oil of which could shine without being touched by fire. Light upon light; Allah guides whom He please. The focus of my worship is on Allah, the unseen and incomprehensible. For me, it is difficult to stay focused during salah when I have no clear mental image of who it is I am worshipping, yet I try to focus on the Arabic words and their meaning in English. I try to remember that Allah (swt) sees me, even though I don't see Him.
One of the beauties of Islam, is that I believe that I offer salah and fast exactly in the manner that is acceptable to Allah (swt) as indicated by being revealed through His Messenger, Prophet Muhammad (saaws). I have no reason not to believe that Muhammad (saaws) would recognize my salah as being consistent with how he prayed. I believe that he would also understand my recitation of al-Fatiha, even with my Southern USA drawl. We Muslims strive to worship none other than Allah (swt) exactly as Muhammad (saaws) demonstrated and taught. Furthermore, we strive to pattern our entire lives after his Sunnah, for example I eat and drink with my right hand, I refuse to shake hands with women, I cleanse myself after using the restroom, I have a full beard, I color the gray in my beard, I greet Muslims with "Assalamu alaikum," etc.
Although we pattern our lives after him, we do not in any way, shape, or form worship Muhammad (saaws). In contrast, the focus in Christianity is clearly on Jesus as demonstrated by the afore mentioned songs and communion. Just this weekend, my father-in-law blessed the food by praying to Jesus (not the Father) and in his name (not in the name of "your Son"). Christians equate Jesus with God. Although I personally equate the "Father" with Allah (swt) because that is Who Jesus (as) prayed to (as demonstrated by the Lord's Prayer and by his prayer in the Garden of Gethsemane), I have major diffulties with the term "Father" because it directly implies having offspring which I staunchly deny of Allah (swt).
It doesn't behove the Majesty of Allah (swt) that He should have a son or that He has a need to become Man and to die on a cross for the forgiveness of the sins of His creation. There is nothing that I can do that will in any way harm Allah (swt) such that he cannot forgive it. Likewise, there is nothing that I can do that will benefit Him (swt) such that He (swt) is obligated to reward me. I rely upon the Grace of Allah (swt) to forgive me and to grant me Paradise by His Mercy. I bring nothing other than my testimony that, "There is no god worthy of worship but Allah and that Muhammad was His Messenger and Servant" and my efforts to worship Him (swt) according to the Sunnah of Muhammad (saaws).