I like what you said. Yes, I am hoping we will be completely different than what we are now. But don't be sad about it be happy for me that I will get what I desire and want. I want to be white for a good reason. I don't want to be stuck this way forever or for eternity. I am just hoping that I will be who I want to be in spirit. I am African and that depresses me. I don't want to be that. I've always desired to be in a different nationality and in a different country preferably American. I hate everything about my culture.
I just wish in Jannah, I can be recreated all over again but with different ethnicity and culture. Allah shall surely grant me what I want. MashaAllah.
Seems to me that you don't hate being black but hate the environment you are in.
All communities have this to some degree and maintaining a sense of strength and trust is difficult even amongst people we love.. Sometimes.
Most of my posts usually devolve into some blog rant so here goes..
I'm Asian and I lived in an mostly Asian community most of my life. For a long time what others did had no bearing on what I felt or thought I could do, but as we grow older and want to persue our own paths, things do start to take on a different appearance and for some the world changes for the better and others worse, but most of the time we just go on being as we are and putting forward by our character into the world.
So I left my Asian community which had little to nothing on offer as a way forward and went to work in a mostly white male industry.
They are mostly the same as the Asians from the time I have spent there, but they were not the same when I started working there.
...so maybe if I could, I would have to say that rectifying ones self is more important than anything on the outside.
Being white is no indication of anything other than a different set of preconceptions to impose on the world, if you so would.
But I left my community in loss, I lost money and people I cared about.. Although I had nothing when I started and they gave me something.
I would have still wanted to start with good things happening. This is my first world problem at the moment and something I think about often.
...let's hope heaven has places for all colours. Alhamdulillah.
It's never really been a thing for me and I turn that thought away often.