AnonymousPoster
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Assalmu-Alaikum,
Well, here's the deal. Over the past few months, I've commited and addicted to the particular sin of masturbation, and no matter how hard I had tried, I just could not escape the burning desire to commit it again, or what you could call, "withdrawal "symptoms", and every single time I asked for Allah's forgiveness, and every single time I broke my promisers to him yet again.
But beginning from the new year, I made a resolution not to commit it again, and suprisingly, it made me abstain from this activity for almost four weeks, which was a record achievement that I had never amulated before in my life, and my desire for commiting it again dimished over time, and everytime an urge came up, I duly repressed it with ease.
But that was until today, and it may sound silly, but these were the series of events that led up to my sudden relapse. Today, I had had a fierce argument with my parents (which in restrospect and foresight, I now regret) even deciding to lock myself in my bedroom in rage, as a desperate way of negotiating with them.
However, they ignored me, and I resolved to stay in there until they were forced to talk to me, but this proved easier said than done. As I sat there in my room, I began to cry, lamenting on how it all ended up to this, and during this momoent of extreme emotional vulnerability, the urges that I would have otherwise passed off, suddenly overwhelmed me, and I didn;t have the energy or willpower to ward them off.
Soon, managed to settle things out with my paernts and unlock myself out of the bedroom, but before I could carry on with my routine as normal, ym spectaclesw, which I had thrown away, suddenly went missing, and I couldn't enjoy my weekend as planned, such as gong outside and riding my bicycle, or opening the first poages of a really good book I had borrowed from the library, or even watch my favourite TV program.
All the while, those thoughts and urges, which were so deeply embedded in ym mind as a result of that vulnerable moment, to just shrug off, stayed with me, and it soon grew as my frustration increased, and there was nothing to do. It soon came to a moment, in which it was too compulsive, and I couldn't muster the capability to resist, and I fell back to it.
Now, I don't know with what words I should approach Allah with in my Dua, and whether he wil forgive me for it, and most importantly, whether Allah will inflict a punishment on me, that I'm particularly frightened of. In relation to the question, is there any way I can know of or tell if Allah has forgiven me off a sin?
Well, here's the deal. Over the past few months, I've commited and addicted to the particular sin of masturbation, and no matter how hard I had tried, I just could not escape the burning desire to commit it again, or what you could call, "withdrawal "symptoms", and every single time I asked for Allah's forgiveness, and every single time I broke my promisers to him yet again.
But beginning from the new year, I made a resolution not to commit it again, and suprisingly, it made me abstain from this activity for almost four weeks, which was a record achievement that I had never amulated before in my life, and my desire for commiting it again dimished over time, and everytime an urge came up, I duly repressed it with ease.
But that was until today, and it may sound silly, but these were the series of events that led up to my sudden relapse. Today, I had had a fierce argument with my parents (which in restrospect and foresight, I now regret) even deciding to lock myself in my bedroom in rage, as a desperate way of negotiating with them.
However, they ignored me, and I resolved to stay in there until they were forced to talk to me, but this proved easier said than done. As I sat there in my room, I began to cry, lamenting on how it all ended up to this, and during this momoent of extreme emotional vulnerability, the urges that I would have otherwise passed off, suddenly overwhelmed me, and I didn;t have the energy or willpower to ward them off.
Soon, managed to settle things out with my paernts and unlock myself out of the bedroom, but before I could carry on with my routine as normal, ym spectaclesw, which I had thrown away, suddenly went missing, and I couldn't enjoy my weekend as planned, such as gong outside and riding my bicycle, or opening the first poages of a really good book I had borrowed from the library, or even watch my favourite TV program.
All the while, those thoughts and urges, which were so deeply embedded in ym mind as a result of that vulnerable moment, to just shrug off, stayed with me, and it soon grew as my frustration increased, and there was nothing to do. It soon came to a moment, in which it was too compulsive, and I couldn't muster the capability to resist, and I fell back to it.
Now, I don't know with what words I should approach Allah with in my Dua, and whether he wil forgive me for it, and most importantly, whether Allah will inflict a punishment on me, that I'm particularly frightened of. In relation to the question, is there any way I can know of or tell if Allah has forgiven me off a sin?
