considering leaving

[chud]

assalamu alaikum brothers and or sisters
im here to ask a question, if you saw the title im already planning to talk to a sheikh but with how stubborn i know i am idk if it will work
im having doubts and my faith has gotten to an all time low and im considering leaving however in the off chance that i come back will i be forgiven for that?
not planning to join a different religion so far most likely is still islam just doubtful now is all

 

[Wood Pigeon]

Wa alaikum assalam.

I’m sorry you’re going through this. Thank you for being honest about something so personal. Having doubts and questions doesn’t make you a bad person, and you don’t have to solve everything today.

I’m glad you’re planning to speak with a sheikh—please try to find someone patient and understanding, who will listen rather than judge or pressure you. If you’re comfortable, you can also tell us what questions or experiences have led you to feel this way.

As for whether you could be forgiven if you left and later returned: Allah’s mercy is greater than our mistakes, and returning sincerely is always something to hope for.

None of us should claim to know the final judgment of a particular person, but you should not assume that your door to Allah is closed.

Take things one step at a time, and don’t make a permanent decision while you’re distressed.

As-Salaamu Alaykum!
Wood Pigeon