anonymous
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As someone with self diagnosed autism it is difficult for me to deal with many things as well as hard to explain them.
Being almost 30, I live with my parents, whom I love. I am happy living at home..just not happy with how my dad treats my mom, and some other things. He is emotionally abusive. She has chronic pain and really bad legs but he does not care. He does not look after her, he does not do anything for her. She cries in pain a lot, he just turns away and ignores it. Whenever I help her he acts like I should be helping him and not her. He acts like I am not supposed to love my mom. He says blood is what matters and that "you are a ....last name here". He treats strangers with much more respect than he does my mom, he even allows them to walk all over him. He does provide for us as a family, he works hard and is always very stressed, depressed, and tired. He stresses himself out more than needed, because he doesn't have the inteligence to run a bussiness without being there all day everyday.
Religiously, he does not pray or read Quran..nothing really. He is only a Muslim by name, nothing else. My mom told him to teach me Arabic from a young age, but he did not and now I cannot speak or read Arabic. He never taught me about prayer. It was "You're Muslim" and that was it. Growing up, subconsciously, religious actions were never important to me since it was not important to my parents. Going to the Mosque when I could, was important to them though. I went to the Mosque sometimes with my uncle whom I would stand beside and imitate his movements.. but he is too self righteous, disrespectful, and arrogant. Part of me felt, if this is how a Muslim treats other people, then why would I want to be one.
My mom is(American born) non-Muslim/Muslim in the sense that she believes Islam is the truth but has severe depression and has lost hope in God. She see's God as "allowing so many bad things to happen" and it makes her be in despair. She honestly knows little about Islam, aside from the five pillars.
Maybe this is stereotyping but after getting to know the Arab/Muslim side of my family growing up and now..., IF everyone else in the middle east is like this...then I understand why the Muslim world is in such a disarray.
I cannot talk to them about religion or how they are living in a stressful way, 1.they both get very angry at me if I do.. and 2. I cannot articulate well in spoken speech.
My own depression is better than it was years ago but these things have me so down and in despair myself.. :/
Being almost 30, I live with my parents, whom I love. I am happy living at home..just not happy with how my dad treats my mom, and some other things. He is emotionally abusive. She has chronic pain and really bad legs but he does not care. He does not look after her, he does not do anything for her. She cries in pain a lot, he just turns away and ignores it. Whenever I help her he acts like I should be helping him and not her. He acts like I am not supposed to love my mom. He says blood is what matters and that "you are a ....last name here". He treats strangers with much more respect than he does my mom, he even allows them to walk all over him. He does provide for us as a family, he works hard and is always very stressed, depressed, and tired. He stresses himself out more than needed, because he doesn't have the inteligence to run a bussiness without being there all day everyday.
Religiously, he does not pray or read Quran..nothing really. He is only a Muslim by name, nothing else. My mom told him to teach me Arabic from a young age, but he did not and now I cannot speak or read Arabic. He never taught me about prayer. It was "You're Muslim" and that was it. Growing up, subconsciously, religious actions were never important to me since it was not important to my parents. Going to the Mosque when I could, was important to them though. I went to the Mosque sometimes with my uncle whom I would stand beside and imitate his movements.. but he is too self righteous, disrespectful, and arrogant. Part of me felt, if this is how a Muslim treats other people, then why would I want to be one.
My mom is(American born) non-Muslim/Muslim in the sense that she believes Islam is the truth but has severe depression and has lost hope in God. She see's God as "allowing so many bad things to happen" and it makes her be in despair. She honestly knows little about Islam, aside from the five pillars.
Maybe this is stereotyping but after getting to know the Arab/Muslim side of my family growing up and now..., IF everyone else in the middle east is like this...then I understand why the Muslim world is in such a disarray.
I cannot talk to them about religion or how they are living in a stressful way, 1.they both get very angry at me if I do.. and 2. I cannot articulate well in spoken speech.
My own depression is better than it was years ago but these things have me so down and in despair myself.. :/
