Dear sister or brother,
I pray that Insha'Allah Allah swt gets you out of te state that you in.
I would first like to tell you one thing, you are not alone, every single soul on the face of this planet have issues and problems in life and go through depression more than they should do in their lifet time itis sad that this is what the world has come to in this day ad age but unfortunately we cannot change that, the only thing we can d is change ourselves and our own perspective of ourselves and how we see ourselves and how to perfect onselve within and strive to become a better person.
For starters the way we are physically is something way beyond our power or will it is what Allah swt with His mercy has bestowed upon us every slave of Allah swt is beautiful and unique! and true beauty shines from within i know as cliched as that may sound but that is the absolute truth.
In my short life i have seen and experienced way too many things, it saddens me that nowadays people forget that in order for soeone to be truely beautiful you need to see beyond what they look like and have a look inside.
there are people out there in this world that are so beautiful to the eye physically that sometimes you look at them ad get mesmerised by what your eyes are seeing, but the saddest part is that these people inside can be the most ugliest people walking on the face of this planet. i do not know where to begin in making you understand how ugly these people really are.
it is easy to fall into despair but remember that despair and depression are things that you seek refuge in Allah swt from, being depressed or letting the way you look externally take you to the brink of thinkig about committing suicide is the most ungratful thing i have ever heard and it is ok, cos us humans are ungratful, if you were to sit there and count the blessings and favours of Allah swt upon you, you woul never succeed cos they are endless.
but for us humans it is easy to dothat, whenever i go through the low points in life and out of pity for myself sit there and sulk about things i always remember one thing my sister once said to me many years when i was going through depression.
She said look at you! Alhumdullilah you have roof over your head, food to eat, your loving family around you, clothes to wear and the luxuries of life, how dare you be so ungrateful!!!!!!
There are innocent young children in countries who dont even have clean water to drink!!! And you sit here telling me that you cannot go on cos your life is over??
she said how dare you throw all His swt's blessings and favours upon you away like that... get up do 2 rakah nafl and thank and glorify Him for His blessings upon you.
and at times when i do feel myself feeling a little down that is exacly what i do, i think about those innocent children, who dont even have the means of having clean drinking water to drink, some who are orphans others who die of hunger and i say Alhumdullilah and seek refuge in Allah swt from ungratefulness.
they way you look is a blessing from the almighty, and never be unappreciative of it, strive for His sake to make yourself beautiful in the inside cos that is where true beauty lies and can capture the hearts of people.
you say you do not deserve to be with anyone....
how can you even say that or feel that way?
when you have perfected yourself internally and follow His path many people would not deserve you!!! You would be a blessing in their life.
So be thankful for the two legs, two arms, health, sight, hearing every sigle thng He has blessed you with, cos believe you me there are people in this world that do not even have that! God forbid if you were one of them what would you have done then?????
Allah swt does not burden a soul with more than it can bare i know sisters out there that are going through sooooooooo much i their lives, soooooooo much you cannot begin to imagine and honestly if they turned around and said to me i'm taking the exit card out i would understand but NO! they are steadfast and thankful, cos they do not look at people above them but people below them and thank Allah swt and whenever i call them to see how they are, they are so hopeful and you know what they say to me, the only thing that keeps them going is the light at the end of the tunnel, cos Allah swt has promised us that after every hardship there is not one but TWO reliefs!!!
Dear sister or brother stop being sucked into the dogma of looks and beauty if you are a sister then quit looking at these magazines or watching programmes on tv about glamorous people and models, let me ask you something, what in this world makes you think that these externally beautiful people that you see are blessed and happy, you think their looks take away their problems and make their lives blissful an happy?
I once used to have a friend who was a model, a beautiful young sister, but the most amazing thing about her was that she was so beautiful and humble in the inside too. Masha'Allah!
and i'm telling you things my own eyes have seen, a true story...
you may think that her looks was the biggest blessing of her life, but no it was her beauty inside, it came to the point in her life where this sister's looks became her biggest curse, people hated her out of envy, she had no true friends, there were people that had a problem knowing that she even existed and was breathing and they went as far as destroying each and everything in her life!!!
and they succeeded, they destroyed her career, they destroyed her home they destroyed everything of hers, and that was when she came to me and asked me for help and advice and fully submitted to Allah swt Masha'Allah.
no one can say cos they have been through depression that they can understand where your coming from, cos out of experience one thing i have learnt is that no other soul can feel the pain that ones heart feels. But you need to constantly remind yourself only He knows what your heart feels and only He puts that feeling in your heart so turn to Him fully and seek refuge in Him and dont deny His blessings and favours on you and thank Him.
The best way of healing the heart for depression is reading the Qur'an and read it out loud (not too loud just enough that you can hear) Allah swt tells us that He has sent the Qur'an as a mercy and healing to mankind so do not neglect it.
Surah Ar Rahman and surah Yasin, ayat al kursi, al falaq, al nas are said to be the best surahs for healing along wth surah Al Fateha.
so be steadfast in your salah and read the Qur'an and Insha'Allah Allah swt will help you.
I know He will but you need to do your part first.
I hope i have not said anything to offend you in any way. If i have i pray that Allah swt and you can forgive me.
Ma salama.
