
cant understand much the above lines bcz of my weak english....but seems u r crossing the turn of life which is not v.pleasing. what i can say is make sabr.........even its vvvv.difficult....but to be happy its enough that these difficulties are in way of ppl whom r blessed...and whom ALLAH SWT want to test....what they do if I put them in this situation ????? will they make shukar or....ALLAH live in broken hearts....so i had see many blessed ppl but there heart were broken by such tests and accidents.
i think about that issue for years: mean some ppl live happy some sad, some wealthy some poor... and blv what result i got after years of thinking, is present in hadith....exactly same thing... its comes in hadith that, there are 4 types of men.
1. those who are living with eeman and aamal and there worldly things are also good........these are ppl which are blessed in duna bcz of their good deeds and in aahra they also got reward for it.
2. those who are living with eeman and aamal and there worldly situatuion is not good.....these are the most blessed ppl and soon after this temperory test/azmaish they will be awarded by highest darjat in jannat....All Ambiya AS and most blessed ppl were in this category.
3. those living without eman and ammal and worldy situation is good...it is said that these ppl are huge loss..there examples is same like that if some1 want to catch a bird...he put some grains on ground to catch them...same ALLAH SWT is giving dunya to them but not as areward but to catch them....
4. those without emman aamal and also without worldly things..these are loser in both the worlds...
so now me also and every1 thinks in which category he/she is......???????? also proved if some1 is living life of eman and aamal, and if he feel some difficluty he should not be get mayoos form rehamt of ALLAH SWT...and do shukar and sabr....
one thing more....some times ALLAH SWT take out the pleasure and lazat of ammal for some1..bcz ALLAH SWT want to see whether he/she is dooing ammal for ME or for that Pleassure...so one who do for ALLAH SWT will never leave....so maybe u r going with this siuation..anyway be thankfull to HIM all the time and make much duas for urself. I will also keep u in my prayer.
May ALLAH SWT make things easy for u.
sorry for my weak english.
JZK
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