does Allah love me?

I don't know what to say but please don't commit suicide.It will only be he'll fire.

And my life's a mess& I look like wow momin ah but I'm broken trials of whose mention can scare you of both the worlds.

Relax. You should take it all easy.I try to keep deen & do bit of things that I shouldn't be doing.Anyways ALLAH SWT shouldn't be bad thought about.

Leaving islam means he'll forever & keeping to islam will have you saved from every azaab in both the lives,InshaAllah

Keep moderation we sin we all sin & we repent to ALLAH SWT as He is Kindest to us.

Trust me I have loads of experience of 18 years.Currently I'm drowning but I'm hoping for relief in future bcz Allah SWT just doesn't trap us for years with good deeds to be sent to he'll esp if you are really good & tested.These two things bring rewards.
You are are just 25, boy it's a young age & this are hard times for us all but if you read about the virtues of our Ummah in end times you will like to be as "Proud to be a Muslim " like non practicing also says.

This is safety bro.Don't just sin without tabs. Tell Allah it's human weaknesses & you love ALLAH SWT & His beautiful Deen.


Miracles happens but with alot of trials.

We will all try to keep you in duas!

Stay Momin=)
 
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Bro: Please don't leave Islam, and please stay on this Forum: we're all here to try to help you and to be here for you, as much as we can; you're in my Du'aa, my dear brother.
 
Thanks everyone for the kind words. I am reading them with great attention.
The thing is this.. severe .. dissapoingment
 
The deep desire to be with someone
If you only felt what I felt.
Its clearly the end of the world.
 
I will stay its just that i feel so.. empty. But i also love you all for reachin out like this
 
I have..a feeling like..every time i see something beautiful and isnt destinied for me,i feel deprived by Allah. Im almost 26 and i dont even know how to kiss.. let alone have done other things. And i see people who are careless and they get everything beautiful.

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Its kind of a bit too much with everything. U know when you are so tired of it all. And even if u know next week its gonna get good,which is a maybe,youd rather just go..

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I spentall my youth alone.. wheres the point in having a dsme in life at..30s... :/ or not owning a car yet or no matter how hard i work my results arent all that. Its very hard for me to achieve things
 
All i want is a beautiful chaste woman, i cant tske loniliness. Having a dame might even make me more focused on religion as it is half the deen. But since this failure i havent even been able to feel anyhing for anyone. Not to mention after sll thse rejections my confidence has been crippled. It just shows that something is very wrong with me

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I dont think ill ever be all right
 
And im not getting any divine answers or help.. a miracle what i call
 
Would Allah understand me if i just ended my life? Im exhausted to go on

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Nothing ever worked my way
I cant go on
Goodbye
 
This profound disappointment and grief, this sublime misery, is a necessary trial of life

Your problem is like my problem: arrogance

you think that only you suffer this way, and that your object of affection is unlike anything other men have seen. That your pain is somehow greater than everyone else's

You need to take a step back and write down on paper what you think it means to be a Muslim. It is not some country club of easy living and exotic vacations --it is hard, rigorous, but ultimately rewarding

How many men here, including myself, love and lost? How many have been the victim of a woman's capricious passions and ephemeral attentions? It is all the nonsense of this world brother. That is not why you are here.

Your pain makes you human, and Allah always loves you. Write some poetry about it, pray, take long walks in the wilderness, and come back to reality.
 
Hello!

I'm not a Muslim (sorry about that) but I'll try my best to answer you.

I'm afraid you have a depression. Depression is a very hard and deceiving psychical illness. Depressed person becomes extremely jealous of other people with successful life and feels that everything around him happens against himself, no matter what he'll do. He also experiences painful moments of his live and is neutral to even small good things, making depression even worse - focusing on only bad things and refusing any good moments.

Some people are commiting suicide because they are thinking that taking his own life will solve the problem. No, it will not. Potential self-killers does not know that taking off his life will hurt not only himself, but his family and friends.

But don't worry, you can free yourself from depression. First of all, stop focusing at others. Stop being jealous. Stop trying to do something impossible. Focus on yourself and embrace every, even tiny good moments of your life. Is food tasty? Enjoy it! Someone smile to you - enjoy it. By small step by small step you will be able to witness happiness again. It is a very small, but worthy process to start fighting against depression. At least it is a start.

Are you jealous at well-prosperate different people who does not follow God's commands? The God will check their achievements and sins. It is only the Creator's task to judge every single soul from our planet (or planets if a human race will become multiplanetary :D). Try to focus on your own status - what you've achieved so far and what you can do more. Start building your own career.

You should stop thinking about the girl who shuts down any contact forms and disappeares. Believe or not, you can find better one who will stay with you and share exactly same feelings as you if you would fall in love. Maybe God have other plans for you? Please, trust Him and never lose faith in Him. Never. At the end, you will be rewarded for your good doing.

Please consider making a return to your religion, to Islam. Remember that in any time, we can be tested by the Great One. Our Creator will test our believes - will we still believe and pray Him despite experiencing bad moments? Will we be thankful for every good signs which happens around us?

As a Christian, I'm not allowed to force you into different religion. Only what I can do for you is to make prays for your soul to be calmed down from bad feelings and to enable to revert into good ones. I'll also pray for you yo return to the straight way as God says in Qur'an (Koran). Everyone here wants to help you, no matter which religion. You are not alone and never you have been. Even here. Don't even doubt that!

I've shared my thoughts because I know what does fighting against depression and other bad feelings mean. Me (twice) and my brother (once) have had a depression. I have won two very long battles, but my brother unfortunately lost his battle by commiting a suicide. I just can't allow to another soul being lost. You are not first one, whom I try to convince.

Okay, time for a pray and sleeping. May the Lord be with you. Wish you all the best.
 
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Hello!

I'm not a Muslim (sorry about that) but I'll try my best to answer you.

I'm afraid you have a depression. Depression is a very hard and deceiving psychical illness. Depressed person becomes extremely jealous of other people with successful life and feels that everything around him happens against himself, no matter what he'll do. He also experiences painful moments of his live and is neutral to even small good things, making depression even worse - focusing on only bad things and refusing any good moments.

Some people are commiting suicide because they are thinking that taking his own life will solve the problem. No, it will not. Potential self-killers does not know that taking off his life will hurt not only himself, but his family and friends.

But don't worry, you can free yourself from depression. First of all, stop focusing at others. Stop being jealous. Stop trying to do something impossible. Focus on yourself and embrace every, even tiny good moments of your life. Is food tasty? Enjoy it! Someone smile to you - enjoy it. By small step by small step you will be able to witness happiness again. It is a very small, but worthy process to start fighting against depression. At least it is a start.

Are you jealous at well-prosperate different people who does not follow God's commands? The God will check their achievements and sins. It is only the Creator's task to judge every single soul from our planet (or planets if a human race will become multiplanetary :D). Try to focus on your own status - what you've achieved so far and what you can do more. Start building your own career.

You should stop thinking about the girl who shuts down any contact forms and disappeares. Believe or not, you can find better one who will stay with you and share exactly same feelings as you if you would fall in love. Maybe God have other plans for you? Please, trust Him and never lose faith in Him. Never. At the end, you will be rewarded for your good doing.

Please consider making a return to your religion, to Islam. Remember that in any time, we can be tested by the Great One. Our Creator will test our believes - will we still believe and pray Him despite experiencing bad moments? Will we be thankful for every good signs which happens around us?

As a Christian, I'm not allowed to force you into different religion. Only what I can do for you is to make prays for your soul to be calmed down from bad feelings and to enable to revert into good ones. I'll also pray for you yo return to the straight way as God says in Qur'an (Koran). Everyone here wants to help you, no matter which religion. You are not alone and never you have been. Even here. Don't even doubt that!

I've shared my thoughts because I know what does fighting against depression and other bad feelings mean. Me (twice) and my brother (once) have had a depression. I have won two very long battles, but my brother unfortunately lost his battle by commiting a suicide. I just can't allow to another soul being lost. You are not first one, whom I try to convince.

Okay, time for a pray and sleeping. May the Lord be with you. Wish you all the best.
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I dont know what it is, but it has exhausted me way too much.cant fix this, i tried
U speak of being able to find someone but i never been loved , i dont know
How it is to have a women love me, i see how a lot of women
Act when they love a man.

All the rejections have killed my confidenxe now.

I always hated the fact that i was shorter than normal
Ithay my nose was big
Thag i had to wear glasses cause i cant see well

That i always have to try too hard to achieve or fail at things others
Make effortlessly. Seemed like God was always makin
It easier for them,blessint them ,favoring them.

And how can I go on with all this?

It has becoem too much. With age things got harder.
I cant take it anymore. I dont want to feel anythibt anymore. Good
Or bad.

I dont know what it is and its already too late
Sleeping is exactly what I am going to do. Goodbye

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I have heard your dont go's but I have already make up my mind. Goodnight and forever goodbye
 
We don't have to say goodbye. Please, stay with us :) I will be here, don't worry. Not always, but I'll do my best to help you.

You are exhausted, because you are torturing yourself with bad emotions. That's how the depression works. What you are actually feeling is a psychological pain which hurts your soul from inside. You are creating that pain. To fight against depression, you need to build up your mental and psychological health with good emotions. Try to resist all negative feelings like doubt, fear, sorrow and anger to change into positives ones.

Your wish ais to find a girlfriend now. You need some time (rather in months or years than days) to find your future love. Please, give yourself more time. Be patient.

I'm 26 and I still don't have any boyfriend, but it is not a reason to worry about :) When the right time comes, maybe we'll find our second halves :D If not, it's okay :) Not everyone have to be married :P But yes, be open to your friends and feel open to new ones. Build relations slowly, with no rush.

Accept yourself as you are. Being short, having big nose and wearing glasses doesn't make yourself worse. More important is who you really are, from inside. Behaviour tell us much more than the look. Someone can have beautiful body and face but be agressive to anothers and there can be someone with less atractive looks but have a pure heart inside. Every being have some complexes. No one is perfect, ideal. I have some cons too, but I'm accepting myself as I am. Life is too short and beautiful to worry about small details.

The God, as Qur'an and Bible says, allowes people to witness both good and bad moments of their temporary life, but when the Last Hour comes, everyone will be judged from their live. Some people with poor behaviour and disbelievers with prosperate life may be sentenced to go to hell for their sins, disobeying our Lord's commands and not being grateful for His creation. Don't be jealous. There is no reason to be jealous at the people who don't follow the straight path which the God once formed.

You are different than them. You followed the straight path until you got a depression. Depression makes you going off the straight path so please, repair your mental health and return to this road to achieve much better afterlife in heaven, as the God said.

Who will walk the straight path and do good things, pray to our Lord and help other people in need, will have a prosperous afterlife as the God sentenced while making an alliance with human race. No matter if someone is Jew, Christian or Muslim - good efforts will be rewarded in afterlife, when we naturally die, as an old and weak being, not while commiting suicide, because in Abraham religion, it is a huge, unforgivable sin.
 
Allah (‘Azza wa Jal) is not your personal butler who waits on you and caters to your every vain desire when and how YOU please. He is our Lord, whom we ask out of humility and great need out of hope from His abundant generosity. It is only because we are in such dire need of Him and because we know how generous He is that any of us even has the nerve to ask of Him anything.

You are speaking as if Allah owes you a favor and He doesn’t owe you anything. It is you who are indebted to Him. The sin of your ingratitude has overshadowed the nobility of your good deeds and has left them not worth a dime so you shouldn’t speak as if this is any great thing that makes you deserving of anything.

I reemphasize: Allah never betrayed you. Allah never wronged you. You wronged him by your ingratitude and, how Silas rightfully pointed out, your arrogance.

Your suffering is internal not external. Many if not most of the people on this forum have gone or are going through much worse than you in terms of hardships, but they are not suffering like you are. You are suffering inside because of the curse that comes with being ungrateful to Allah for His Generous Bounties that He Bestows on all without measure whether Muslim or not.

The rule of ingratitude is: whoever is ungrateful, Allah Will take away His Favors but whoever is grateful, Allah Will give him more:

"And [remember] when your Lord proclaimed, 'If you are grateful, I will surely increase you [in favor]; but if you deny, indeed, My punishment is severe.'"(Ibrahim: 7)

What is Jahanam except the complete deprivation of Allah’s favors? And what is Jannah except the complete fulfillment of all favors. This petty pathetic dunya that you are dishonoring yourself in desiring is neither of those. Everything in this dunya is a mix of both benefit and harm, pleasure and pain. If a person wants to be ungrateful, he can focus on the negative as there is truly a negative aspect in everything here. Why? Because this is not Jannah. This is not the goal and not the objective. It is you that failed to realize this and put your heart where it doesn’t belong and now you want to blame Allah for that when He told you to do otherwise. If one wants to he/she can find much to be grateful for. Every single one of us can do that. Why? Because this place also isn’t Hellfire where there are no favors of Allah at all.

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I always hated the fact that i was shorter than normal
Ithay my nose was big
Thag i had to wear glasses cause i cant see well
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How much more do you think you will have to complain about when you’re burning alive for all of eternity due to your abandonment of God’s religion and your massive ingratitude towards Him. Then you will know what you have now but as the saying goes: You don’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone.

Allah said:

"O you who have believed, whoever of you should revert from his religion - Allah will bring forth [in place of them] a people He will love and who will love Him..." (al-Maidah: 54)

There is no greater favor that Allah has given us than making us Muslims. Allah gave you Islam for free and gave you the ability to do good deeds the likes of which are difficult for even some sincere religious Muslims to adhere to, and now you’re throwing that all away for literally, absolutely nothing.

Easist way out - probably drinking bleach :/
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It is only shaitan that has told you that suicide will bring you relief. On the contrary! Your pain will only just begin!

“Whoever kills himself with something will be punished with it on the Day of Resurrection.” Narrated by al-Bukhaari (5700) and Muslim (110).

You think drinking bleach for the rest of eternity is easier than what you are going through now?

Nah, you have no choice and no way out except to turn around and repent to Allah before it is too late. You have come to a clear fork in the road. You had better fear Allah and make a full 180 degree turn otherwise it will just become more difficult and more dark than it is now and things will steadily get worse for you until you end up in HellFire and then you will be rightfully blaming yourself instead of Allah but it will be too late then.

Please.. no "it will be all right's " please.
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Don’t worry. You won’t hear that from me. Except unless you turn around and repent to Allah and become grateful to Him for His favors, then you will find Him Merciful, Forgiving, and Generous and if you are patient and grateful will give you a good spouse sooner or later (although this is the least of your worries at the moment). Then, and only then, will everything be all right.

“And whosoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out (from every difficulty). And He will provide for him from sources he never could imagine. And whosoever puts his trust in Allah, then He will suffice him. Verily, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Indeed Allah has set a measure for all things.” (Surah At-Talaq 65:2-3)

It’s not going to be all right at all for the one who abandons his religion.

i cant keep being like this. who knows that miracle might come if God would ever want me under his realm
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Only a miracle can bring me back
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If only a miracle.. could show that Allah loves me.
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Why do you keep asking for a miracle? What do you want a miracle for? Do you want a miracle to show you that Allah Loves you? I already gave you an ayah that told you that Allah does not Love the ungrateful and a Hadith that shows that the one who strives to obey Him and do good deeds will earn His favor. Again, Allah is not your personal performer to show you magic tricks so that you will believe in Him and worship Him. He has already shown you His abundant favors and you rejected them.

feel so broken hearted cause i see god providing for people who dont even care bout religion, they get more wealth and more amazing woman and here i am, a person who was grown a believer- left and forgotten. and that makes me feel betrayed, it kills me, its burning me.
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The Hadith I quoted earlier is sufficient. This Dunyah is the blink of an eye and then it’s over. It’s of no value whatsoever. Therefore, who cares what those whom Allah is angry with get? It’s meaningless. This is a prison for the believer and a paradise for the disbeliever. The opposite is true in the end. So let them have their ease and plenty. Let them have their wealth and fortune. Let them have their women. For us is our Islam, and this is the greatest fortune that Allah Gives anyone in this life and you are trading that for ingratitude and injustice.

"By the racers, panting, And the producers of sparks [when] striking And the chargers at dawn, Stirring up thereby [clouds of] dust, Arriving thereby in the center collectively, Indeed mankind, to his Lord, is ungrateful. And indeed, he is to that a witness. And indeed he is, in love of wealth, intense. But does he not know that when the contents of the graves are scattered. And that within the breasts is obtained, Indeed, their Lord with them, that Day, is [fully] Acquainted." (al-'Adiyat)
 
Ok, i love Allah somehow strangely even after all these trials
Just tell me what to do to become disciplined in prayer again?
Cause i been trying but i keep on leavin it

And dont make this sound like Allah is not a " pleaser
If you dont seek from Allah where do you seek from? People??

I am not disspaointe din people ever cause i have 0 expectations from them lol
 
But let me tell you one thing

I will be married, i will even have children
But i wont be able to go over this "why didnt Allah bless me with this girl.

She is amazing.
I will never be ablw ti wife up someone as good as her let alone when people say "who knows you will find better.

I will never in history be able to forget her. In history.
Since i sont listen to music, but when i was at work there used to be a song played by a collegue that reminds me of this girl, so one dya i re heard it on a coffee shop alone, and i fot teary just thinkin bout memories. I wanted that girl over the girls of the world. I cant forget. Its not possible.
I havent ever been able to like anyone else for the lat 2 yrs.and the issue is im not finding someone nor AM I BEING LIKED by anyone. Thats the harsh reality.

But i ll keep on living then ( this statement brought tears in my eyes again)
Ill tey to keep the prayer altho i want some advices on how to stay disciplined would really respext that.
But im workin on my career, and even if i never get someone to love ,i guess sooner or later ill die naturally. Its ok.
 
This wont stop my worries or my suffering sadly. Not until i get better. I might continue to live physically, but i mean it when i say I have died inside long ago.
 

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