A true story:
Last year in Ramadhan, I came down to the kitchen at 1am to make some food (was hungry) and I could hear a squeeky sound that freaked me out. A little while later (as I was putting the pizza in the oven) I noticed a glue trap with a tiny lil mouse stuck on it...
Poor thing was stuck and it was ramadhan. I hate mice. They freak me out. But seeing this lil helpless thing there, its back foot bleeding from trying to escape, and its tiny heart beating at 100mph, I felt really sad.
So, I decided to help it. For the longest time I was trying to figure out what to do... I didn't want to touch it (they're full of disease) so I decided to get some kitchen roll and rap it around its tiny body, then pry it apart....
I was very careful too... Alhamdulillah, I managed to get it off the glue trap, and it was now cradled in my hand, wrapped in kithen roll. I was holding it lightly because I feared that I would hurt it, and at the same time I wondered if it would jump out of my hand (which would freak me out bigtime). But the lil bugger just sat there in my hand, calm...
So I opened the garden door and let him out... and it scuttled off into the garden.
At sehri time, my mother asked me why there were sock bobbles on the glue trap (i had stepped on it too lol, not the mouse, the glue trap) and I told her the story, she laughed and laughed at my explanation.
Anyway, later that evening, my mother informs me that the neighbours cat had killed the mouse in our garden... sad but true. When its time to go, its time to go.
Not sure if this story helps, but... I just wanna say sis, that you tried your best. now it's up to Allah. Be happy that you care for the little things in life, that which humans usually discard as just an annoyance... I got the utmost respect for you in this regard masha-Allah.
May Allah reward you in this world and the hereafter with HIS unending bounties, Ameen.
Scimi