Assalamu alaikum,
Am I the only one fearing death and Akhirah in general here?
When I was a little kid and for the first time found out we're going to die, it was so traumatic information to me, I cried a lot and had nightmares. Then, my atheist family and surrounding told me that when we die, it's like falling asleep. As growing Muslimah, once I read that death is the most painful thing ever. Now, just an idea of angel of death approaching me frightens me a lot, I start panicking...
Then, I'm scared of kabur azhab, as I read that even if we did little mistake once in life, we're going to suffer.
As for Judgment Day - terrifying, even if I'd be forgiven and receive Allah's Mercy, just an idea that even the worst disbelievers and sinners will beg for start of the Judgment. And then the length in general. Dunya life lasts for cca 60-100 Dunya years, but Judgment Day for 50.000 Akhirah years, and we all know that 1 Akhirah day is equal to 1000 Dunya years. And then reading my own book, even if I receive it in my right hand... the shame for reading all bad things, although forgiven (this all is the best case scenario for me).
Sometimes I wish I died as a kid...
How are you dealing with all of this? Is anyone frightened except me? Do you think of it at all? Sometimes, when I feel weird I'm scared that maybe I'm dying and angel of death will appear in front of me...
Is it painless for shahids? Is it painless when Allah takes believer's soul without the angels?
Am I the only one fearing death and Akhirah in general here?
When I was a little kid and for the first time found out we're going to die, it was so traumatic information to me, I cried a lot and had nightmares. Then, my atheist family and surrounding told me that when we die, it's like falling asleep. As growing Muslimah, once I read that death is the most painful thing ever. Now, just an idea of angel of death approaching me frightens me a lot, I start panicking...
Then, I'm scared of kabur azhab, as I read that even if we did little mistake once in life, we're going to suffer.
As for Judgment Day - terrifying, even if I'd be forgiven and receive Allah's Mercy, just an idea that even the worst disbelievers and sinners will beg for start of the Judgment. And then the length in general. Dunya life lasts for cca 60-100 Dunya years, but Judgment Day for 50.000 Akhirah years, and we all know that 1 Akhirah day is equal to 1000 Dunya years. And then reading my own book, even if I receive it in my right hand... the shame for reading all bad things, although forgiven (this all is the best case scenario for me).
Sometimes I wish I died as a kid...
How are you dealing with all of this? Is anyone frightened except me? Do you think of it at all? Sometimes, when I feel weird I'm scared that maybe I'm dying and angel of death will appear in front of me...
Is it painless for shahids? Is it painless when Allah takes believer's soul without the angels?