First of all I myself is a Muslim by name. I haven practiced Islam at all and I feel ashamed. I started to download the Quran and Hadith of the day on my Ipod. Recently my grandmother passed away (may Allah forgive her sins and have a place for her in Heaven) I couldn't go to her funeral because I live in the US and she lives in Turkey, and also work and financial status didn't allow me to go. I have really for a while know even question of Gods existence and that religion was man made.
However like I said my grandmother passed way 3 days ago, and in those 3 days I have been getting strange Hadith of the Day on my Ipod, like God was trying to send me a message. All of the three Hadiths were about vising the graveyard of a lost one and paying respect to the dead. I was wondering if God is trying to send me a message trying to save me for going way to far into not being a believer.
Please I would appreciate your advice's
However like I said my grandmother passed way 3 days ago, and in those 3 days I have been getting strange Hadith of the Day on my Ipod, like God was trying to send me a message. All of the three Hadiths were about vising the graveyard of a lost one and paying respect to the dead. I was wondering if God is trying to send me a message trying to save me for going way to far into not being a believer.
Please I would appreciate your advice's