For Allah sake any body can help me

[Amat Allah]

Each of us, is our own best source at finding the answers to our problems. Typically we all know the answers to our problems. But we do not like the answer and seek to find other sources to give us more acceptable choices. Your queries give strong evidence that you already know what needs to be done. It is a very difficult thing to do, so you are hoping we can find alternate choices. The only one who knows you better than you know yourself is Allaah(swt). No human outside of you knows the inner pains you feel or the even exactly what you see as being the problem. Look deep into yourself and see exactly what changes you must make to resolve your problem. The answer really is within your own thoughts. Once you understand that only you can resolve your problems pray for Allaah(swt) to give you the strength and sabr to push forward with doing so and never look back.

very true...

 

[Amat Allah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! my dear brother and sister , I would like to give you a great thanks to all of you . After that I am asking apologize from all of you . Because some time I could not control my emotion and I get angry . I may used bad word or arrogant conversation . I need to work on it . Here I would like to tell you that , till now I liked only " Amat Allah's " replies . I don't know why . I don't even know how much expert she is . But her replies are really attract me . I feel inspiration while I red her replies . I have no knowledge about her, but her replies are affecting me . Allah knows batter the reason . I think Allah want it . It does not mean I hate other . I don't hate any body over here but some time I didn't find softness of theirs replies except " Amat Allah " . I cant give any burden to any one . I cant force any one . I don't have any rights for it . I should not . Your help is a charity for me . here you are providing charity and I am taking you charity . So , I always try level my best to maintain my position . However I often misbehave with you . I have many problem to shot it out . But how ? I am not seeing any ways . My head is paining a lot .my head is spinning . Some time suddenly darkness come to my eyes and then not able to see any thing for a while . I am not able to sleep since few days . not even feeling hungry . Two days ago suddenly I felt dizziness and about to fall down on the floor. I don't know what to do .

Jazakum Allahu khayran my respected brother and May Allah make me worthy for your trust and never make me see my self better than anyone in this world Ameeeeeeeeen

but my respected brother ; our noble brother Woodrow`s advice is very true , it is the truth by itself...

we always know the right thing to be done , we always know how to solve our problems and we have all the answers deep within our hearts, minds and souls...but sometimes the best choice and solution to be taken is the hardest one for us...

and I didn`t see and still don`t see any harshness or rudeness in our respected brother Woodrow advice no waAllahi, but I saw respect, care, wiseness, patience and kindness...

we all know that you are suffering now and feeling so bad and so confused and we all know that you are seeking our help after Allah and we are trying to help ya as much as we can but you my respected brother need to work harder and take choices which you think that they are the hardest but right...if you wana save yourself then work hard to get your goal and don`t say I can`t or I don`t know...deep within yourself you know the right thing to be done but everytime you try to find yourself and to be someone better ; satan comes in your way and starts playing with your head and controling you...so, why letting him from the first place? is he worthy to be your guide?

where is Allah and his rememberance? where is your trust in Allah? are you satisfied of the way you are living now? of course you are not but why not working hard on changing yourself? have you taken what we told ya from advices or just reading them and say I can`t....

you are neither helpless, useless nor a loser so, why not showing how good you are ? why not striving for Allah`s sake on and on? why when you start doing fine and walking in the right way suddenly you collapse and be so negative, depressed and shaky?... laa ilaha illa Allah...

where did the meaning of your nickname which you have chosen go? isn`t your name :hopeonallah? then where did this hope go? now get up and leave all this nonsens you are living and try your best to be a good slave to Allah cause when you do; everything in you and around you will change, just take the first step bravely and don`t be shaky...you are a man enough to face all your fears and difficulties for Allah`s sake....

trust Allah more and be patient and whenever satan whispers for you then say: Aothobellah minashaytani irrajeem...seek Allah`s refuge and protection from satan, otherwise you will be his slave but not Allah so, becarefull and try your best to never leave Duaa ever and never leave Qur`aan ever and always when sinning rightaway return to Allah and ask His forgiveness always no matter what you would do or say my respected brother...

May Allah be with you and help you to be a slave of nothing and none but Him Ameeeeeeen

and again, I swear by the One Who Has the souls of all Jinn and Mankind in His Hand; I am not a doctor , I am not a scholar , I am not expert and waAllahi there are many and many people here and out in real world away better than me my respected brother and everyone comes first and I am the last...

May Allah be with you...

Humbly:

Amat Allah (slave of Allah).

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum " Amat Allah "

Thank you very much for your reply .
Why I like your reply ? If you look at your reply then only you get to know . Look at your last reply how inspirational ! Its amazing !
Another thing is : you never blame me for my mistakes or bad deeds . You aware me that Satan is the enemy of mine not I am . Which encourage me a lot to fight with my bad deeds and thoughts . I don't think any body is there who can uplift the enemy . I also don't want to let leave or uplift my real enemy ( Satan ) .

Second thing : You told you are neither a doctor nor scholar not any expert . As per my knowledge Mohammad ( PBUH ) was a illiterate person . Why Allah made him prophet ? Allah could have made prophet a literate person ? But he didn't . Here I found one sign that Allah can does any thing by any one . If Allah wants; he can provide me benefit from an insect . If he don't I can not get benefit from the most heights expert person of this world . My this example does not show any less respect to you same as if some one says Mohammad(PBUH) was a illiterate person But surely you are less then Mohammad(PBUH) . I hope you understand what I mean to say .

Third thing : you have advised me to drink more water . So my question is how much litter I should drink water in a day ( minimum to maximum ) ?

Forth thing : I went to a general physician because of my weakness . the doctor strongly suggested me to visit a psychiatrist if possible today itself before my problem become so severer . He gave me a psychiatrist address . and he suggest me one protein supplement and one pill for five days which can help me to get relax but he told ; I can use that pill until meet the psychiatrist . Now I am thinking what should I do . shell I meet the psychiatrist or not ?

fifth thing :My enter life I have tried a lot to resolve my problems by myself but I could not . So I have decided , I will not use my brain to resolve my problem . Because I have failed for it . That is the reason I need a guidance not only spiritually but also in practically .

Sixth thing : Since a few years My past life was ,
1) Once in a week I went to gay society and expend enter evening over there for general meeting, dinner and find a partner from there and having sex with him at night .
2) week days going gym and hunting guy from there try to convince guy and having sex .
3) going swimming pool and catching guy from there .
4) roaming in the shopping mall and many different places and hunting guys .
5) most of the evening go to gay bar and picked guy form there .( there are no certified gay bar in this city ;all are straight bar only but few bars and pubs are there where people verbally knows as a gay bar but straight guys are also coming there and enjoy homo sex ) .
6)Me and my friends are always busy to make attractive our body and looks going gym doing shopping etc .
7) at least once in a week meeting a psychiatrist for counseling for over come from depression ( not along with other friends here ,I am alone only )
8) Chatting in the gay sites . etc .
9) I was very busy with all those stuff . I didn't have a time to think any thing beyond of this . Most of the Saturday and Sunday I was very busy to having sex with many guys . some time I had sex with three and four different guys in a day . In average 5 different guys in a week since 8 years .

Now I have stopped all those things since few months . I am feeling very bore . I am only doing five times Salah . little bit reading Quran, and browsing www.islamicboard.com only . I need to do something more but what and how ?

I have asked you about my laziness :
A). I don't like to go out of my house I am very lazy .
B). I don't want to cook even if I cook I don't want to eat , eating alone is very painful for me . its remind me Dog . Dogs are like to eat alone only . Not a human . restaurant food are not tasty neither healthy . Even there I have to eat alone only which make me odd .
C). I don't cleaning my accommodation properly felling lazy .
D). Not cleaning my cloths properly .
E). I suppose to do one more exam for my upgrowth . But I am not even felling to open my books . feeling lazy .
I am not doing any thing now a days . It seems to no color in my life . No energy , No interest .
D) Only offering 5 times Salah and reading little bit Quran thats it and smoking 30 to 50 cigarettes in a day .
So , please suggest me how to over come from my laziness and quit smoking .

One more problem : My old friends are keep calling me . some time they come to my house and try to have sex with me . and my old gay friends are discussing about me that, some thing wrong happening with me. And they try to help me . I know their help lead me to hall .

I am seeking your advice . please .....

 

[Amat Allah]

Wa Alikum Assalaam Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakaatuh

Third thing : you have advised me to drink more water . So my question is how much litter I should drink water in a day ( minimum to maximum ) ?

about 13 cups but this changes according to your activity, your weight and the place you are living in and its weather...so, now just try to drink as much as you can; water is great and will make wonders in your body after Allah in shaa Allah...

fifth thing :My enter life I have tried a lot to resolve my problems by myself but I could not . So I have decided , I will not use my brain to resolve my problem . Because I have failed for it . That is the reason I need a guidance not only spiritually but also in practically .

if not using your brain then nothing would benefit you my respected brother...and you need to work on yourself from inside first to see the results in everything , your body, your life and everything around you....Allah says:"Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves. " Surat Arraad so, you really need to work hard on your inner side to fix it and then your ourside will be fixed according to that...in shaa Allah...

and the prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said:"Beware! There is a piece of flesh in the body if it becomes good (reformed) the whole body becomes good but if it gets spoilt the whole body gets spoilt and that is the heart. " Sahih Al Bukhari , the book of faith...so, now you need to change whats inside of you, your heart and yourself...the once your heart changed and that won`t be but by submitting to Allah, trusting Him and be patient and by feeding your heart and soul with the rememeberance of Allah...try to hold the Qur`aan between your hand more; means: try your best to recite it a, understand it and put its commandments into effect and adhere to the teaching of Allah which are in His Book and in the Sunnah of His prophet (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him).

Sixth thing : Since a few years My past life was , 1) Once in a week I went to gay society and expend enter evening over there for general meeting, dinner and find a partner from there and having sex with him at night . 2) week days going gym and hunting guy from there try to convince guy and having sex . 3) going swimming pool and catching guy from there . 4) roaming in the shopping mall and many different places and hunting guys . 5) most of the evening go to gay bar and picked guy form there .( there are no certified gay bar in this city ;all are straight bar only but few bars and pubs are there where people verbally knows as a gay bar but straight guys are also coming there and enjoy homo sex ) . 6)Me and my friends are always busy to make attractive our body and looks going gym doing shopping etc . 7) at least once in a week meeting a psychiatrist for counseling for over come from depression ( not along with other friends here ,I am alone only ) 8) Chatting in the gay sites . etc . 9) I was very busy with all those stuff . I didn't have a time to think any thing beyond of this . Most of the Saturday and Sunday I was very busy to having sex with many guys . some time I had sex with three and four different guys in a day . In average 5 different guys in a week since 8 years .

we don`t need al of these things , they are all from past and past now means nothing and remembering it won`t benefit you but would make you lazy and not able to improve your life and yourself...

Now I have stopped all those things since few months . I am feeling very bore . I am only doing five times Salah . little bit reading Quran, and browsing www.islamicboard.com only . I need to do something more but what and how ?

I know that you are feeling low because your life has changed for losing so much of activities which were keeping you busy but I am sure not happy cause all are Haraam and forbidden things may make you happy in certain time or while you are doing them but later they leave you depressed cause so much of burden(sins) has weighted upon your back...

want to do more things?

try to worship Allah more...how?

read in Sunnah and follow what you like from what you are reading, there are many amazing and beautiful optional acts of worship you can do...and surely, they will fill your heart with joy and light, read here:

http://www.islamicboard.com/general/134302085-beautiful-sunnahs-do-everyday-our-lives.html

I have asked you about my laziness : A). I don't like to go out of my house I am very lazy . B). I don't want to cook even if I cook I don't want to eat , eating alone is very painful for me . its remind me Dog . Dogs are like to eat alone only . Not a human . restaurant food are not tasty neither healthy . Even there I have to eat alone only which make me odd . C). I don't cleaning my accommodation properly felling lazy . D). Not cleaning my cloths properly . E). I suppose to do one more exam for my upgrowth . But I am not even felling to open my books . feeling lazy . I am not doing any thing now a days . It seems to no color in my life . No energy , No interest . D) Only offering 5 times Salah and reading little bit Quran thats it and smoking 30 to 50 cigarettes in a day . So , please suggest me how to over come from my laziness and quit smoking .

I told ya above how to get over laziness here you are:

Originally Posted by hopeonallah I am waiting for your reply that, how do I overcome from laziness ?

First of all : Make sincere Duaa to Allah for patience and guidance and trust Allah %100 and be patient in shaa Allah...

Second: try to follow these tips:

1- you have to find the reasons behind this laziness? what makes you refrain from doing a specefic thing and what is preventing you from going on and reach your goal? and I think your past is playing a role here once you forget about it then many of your troubles will be solved in shaa Allah...

2-think about how important to you is that thing you wana do or goal you wana reach; and see if it really deserves to be ignored and also seek others help if you need it to reach your goal to be able to do what you wana do, and if the way you are taking to make you reach that goal is hard then try to use another one and never try to make all things perfect from the first time, be patient always...

3-try to encourage yourself to do what you wana do and try to convince yourself that you can really do it and never let past ruin everything for you cause there is no need to dig old things out; there is no benefit of that, be creative and trust yourself after Allah and Say it loudly: I can do it , I can be productive, I can be a good slave of Allah by His Willing and Mercy...

4-don`t let anything disappoint you and try to do what you are able to do; not burdening yourself or affording yourself overloaded...

5-take all your time to do what you wana do and don`t do it all at once but step by step in a relaxed and controlled way and don`t take the second step till you attain success with the first one and till you are sure that you can take the second one, try always to focus in one thing at atime to neither distract yourself nor confuse it and never stress yourself...

6-when you finish one step successfuly, cheer yourself up and tell yourself how good you are for attaining this and say loudly : Al Hamdulillaaaaaaaah I done it by the grace and Mercy of Allah and encourage yourself to start with the new one determining to success and to go on till the end in shaa Allah and always know that big successes are just made up of many little continuous successes...May Allah give you success always and forever Ameeeen

7-never forget the rewards you will gain when you are trying and striving for Allah`s sake and also try to reward yourself for each successfull step with something you love and that would encourage you to go on and walk ahead taking the second step happily ...

8-when you finsih step one ; don`t delay taking the second one cause delaying this would make your energy decreases and fade away. The longer you delay re-starting, the harder it will be to re-start. But the sooner you re-start, the more confident you will feel and that will reinforce the positive behavior that leads to feeling that you can do anything in shaa Allah...

9-Never give up. It's one thing to find your motivation. But, it's another thing to keep it going when the going gets tough; especially when it's an unforeseen problem! The more avoidant you are, the more you will feel like giving up. How to get past the tough point? Tell yourself over and over: "I really want to get past this; I really want to overcome this", until you believe that you actually don't want to give up in shaa Allah...

10- try to take a break and when you do ; try to involve yourself in some activities like, doing some kind of sports, reading books, cooking...etc to avoid being bored...

11-make a board or hang up a small paper to write down your achievements and that will remind you how successful you are strong and can do anything you want in shaa Allah...

for smoking , I think you should decrease the number of cigarettes you are taking in a day gradually to get over this issue you have till you stop, that would be good for ya so you don`t take them again in shaa Allah...like you said:

smoking 30 to 50 cigarettes in a day

so, decrease this number to 15 to 25 then next time from 7 to 12 and so on...till you leave smoking completely in shaa Allah and Allah knows the best...

One more problem : My old friends are keep calling me . some time they come to my house and try to have sex with me . and my old gay friends are discussing about me that, some thing wrong happening with me. And they try to help me . I know their help lead me to hall .

change your number, take the important numbers of your family then change your number...and when they try to drag you to hell again be a man to say NO...and be serious to mean it; tell them the truth: I am not longer like this so leave me alone please...and no matter how they would try to convince ya say loudly: NO, I am now the slave of Allah and won`t yield my soul to you to throw me in Hellfire...go away and try to remind them of Allah no matter how hard it would be and how much you are sure that they won`t listen ...just tell them that the way you used to live before and they are living now is ugly and won`t benefit you ever but you will lose everything and be a game in others hands...

tell them I am higher than this and won`t do it while knowing that Allah Is watching me and hearing me, won`t do it while I know that oneday I will stand before Allah with this ugly deed which is for animals not for us, we are human and Allah honored us and I won`t be like the people of Lot (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) but from those who followed him and all the prophets and Messengers message, which to submit to Allah completely and do my best to please my Lord to meet Him clean and pure, to meet Him while He The Exalted pleased with me, Allah opened my eyes and showed me the way and won`t let anyone ever take this from me...I WANA WIN MY AFTER LIFE AND ALLAH`S SATISFACTION AND LOVE...then make Duaa for their guidance and Make Duaa first for yourself...and May Allah be with you my respected brother...Ameeen

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! sister " Amat Allah "

Thank you for your supports . I am really grateful to you .

As you said , in average I can drink 13 cups of water . I generally drink 3 to 4 liter water in a day which is bigger quantity then your advice even I am sick.

2). I have mentioned that I don't want to use my brain . Actually here I mean to say ; I don't want to use my brain to fix my problems without Islamic methods . Because I already tried a lot to fix my problems by without Islamic methods , so I need Islamic method now which I have no knowledge . And here I would like to mention that getting a proper Islam knowledge is very very very tough , there are no crisis to misguide people by telling Islam . There are vast contradict between different scholars and Islamic knowledgeable people. This is another problem for me . I am confuse ...

3) You suggest me to recite Quran , but unfortunately I cant recite Quran not even I understand a single word of Arabic . I read only translations . Once upon a time I tried to learn Arabic that's why I went to a Muslim school ( Madrasa ) and I saw a pathetic & disgusting scenarios over there . Most of the students are orphans and belong to very poor families . Their parents are not able to feed them that's why they leave their kid in the Muslim school . Those small small kids are not getting three times proper food . They provide them only two times food that also very cheap only boil rice or few vegetable which is boil in the water name sake they put little bit chilly and salt and turmeric powder . They sleep on the floor . they don't have proper cloths. Milk, chocolates, biscuits , fruits all those things they can see in their dreams only . And there teachers are very wild , they don't understand those kids mentality not even bother to understand . Those teachers are always busy to find out the mistakes of those kids . Those teachers are biting them like animal . And evening time they send them to the market for begging . I shocked ! this is Islam ? After that I never tried to learn Arabic . And I don't want to learn Arabic or Quran from those teachers now. Because I know them and their characters too . I may Punch them while I learn Arabic from them because I am healthy enough now . Those nonsense teachers are telling , Gibril(angel ) crashed Mohammad's bones for learning Arabic so without bashing no body can learn Quran . They says what are the body parts get mark by bashing those part of the body will not burn in the hell fire . I really hate them . But its true I want to learn Arabic .

4) . What Quran and Mohammad (PBUH ) and Sahabas providing suggestions , tricks and methods for overcome from laziness ? Please tell me those orders, suggestions , tricks and methods . I think those will help me rather then general techniques . Same thing about over come from smoking too .

5) I cant change my phone no because one of my gay friend knows my brothers phone no . If he will not able to contact me then definitely he will contact with my brother . That gay friend is a medical surgeon . And he is crazy about me . My gay friend will not stop coming my home Even if I change my phone no . I have to change my phone no as well as my accommodation too which is not easy . Its not my anxiety . I already faced so may black mailing .

I am bit wary and confuse , still I am not able to realize whats going on with me . Am I in the right path or not ....
Allah help me ............

 

[Amat Allah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! sister " Amat Allah " Thank you for your supports . I am really grateful to you . As you said , in average I can drink 13 cups of water . I generally drink 3 to 4 liter water in a day which is bigger quantity then your advice even I am sick.

Wa Alikum Assalaam Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakaatuh

then try my respected brother to drink early in the morning ; one cup of warm water after mixing it with one table spoon of honey and one tea spoon of nigella sativa (the black seeds or cumin) and take this for one week then tell me whats new with ya in shaa Allah....

The Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)said:"There is healing in black cumin for all diseases except death." Sahih Bukhari.



The prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him )said:"There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created its treatment.". Sahih Bukhari . So, no matter what you will have then there is a treat of it and this is the saying of the messenger of Allah who neither speaks of (his own) desire nor lie (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)...

2). I have mentioned that I don't want to use my brain . Actually here I mean to say ; I don't want to use my brain to fix my problems without Islamic methods . Because I already tried a lot to fix my problems by without Islamic methods , so I need Islamic method now which I have no knowledge . And here I would like to mention that getting a proper Islam knowledge is very very very tough , there are no crisis to misguide people by telling Islam . There are vast contradict between different scholars and Islamic knowledgeable people. This is another problem for me . I am confuse ...

whenever you are confused about something just ask and we will try to help ya in shaa Allah and give you answers according the Book of Allah and the Sunnah of His messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) which the companions of the prophet (peace and blessings be upon him) put into effect and had agreed upon them , the scholras of Islam and the Muslim Ummah in shaa Allah...

3) You suggest me to recite Quran , but unfortunately I cant recite Quran not even I understand a single word of Arabic . I read only translations . Once upon a time I tried to learn Arabic that's why I went to a Muslim school ( Madrasa ) and I saw a pathetic & disgusting scenarios over there . Most of the students are orphans and belong to very poor families . Their parents are not able to feed them that's why they leave their kid in the Muslim school . Those small small kids are not getting three times proper food . They provide them only two times food that also very cheap only boil rice or few vegetable which is boil in the water name sake they put little bit chilly and salt and turmeric powder . They sleep on the floor . they don't have proper cloths. Milk, chocolates, biscuits , fruits all those things they can see in their dreams only . And there teachers are very wild , they don't understand those kids mentality not even bother to understand . Those teachers are always busy to find out the mistakes of those kids . Those teachers are biting them like animal . And evening time they send them to the market for begging . I shocked ! this is Islam ? After that I never tried to learn Arabic . And I don't want to learn Arabic or Quran from those teachers now. Because I know them and their characters too . I may Punch them while I learn Arabic from them because I am healthy enough now . Those nonsense teachers are telling , Gibril(angel ) crashed Mohammad's bones for learning Arabic so without bashing no body can learn Quran . They says what are the body parts get mark by bashing those part of the body will not burn in the hell fire . I really hate them . But its true I want to learn Arabic .

I saw such people with my own eyes my respected brother and somepeople read Qur`aan and recite it without letting it affecting their hearts and never following its commandments...those kind of people fear not Allah and woe to them for treating others like this especially kids ; cause they plant in their hearts the haterd for Qur`aan and its language and alson the Deen of Allah...alas!

the prophet Muhammad said:"There will rise in the final period a people, young of age but poor of intelligence. They willrecite the Qur’an but it will not get past their throats. They will mention from the sayings of the best of creation (the Prophet -peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) but will come out of religion as an arrow comes out of the game.” Jaami Attirmithi and Sunan Ibn Majah.

and its ok if not knowing Arabic now , in shaa Allah you will learn it later with time and I know many non Arab Muslims who are reading the translation of the Qur`aan and at the same time they are away better than milion of Arabs...May Allah guide us all Ameeeen

4) . What Quran and Mohammad (PBUH ) and Sahabas providing suggestions , tricks and methods for overcome from laziness ? Please tell me those orders, suggestions , tricks and methods . I think those will help me rather then general techniques . Same thing about over come from smoking too .

there is this supplication which the prophet Muhammad(peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)used to say; Anas b. Malik reported that Allah's Messenger (peace abd blessings of Allah be upon him) used to say:" O Allah, I seek refuge in Thee from incapacity, from indolence, from cowardice, from senility, from miserliness, and I seek refuge in Thee from the torment of the grave and from trial of the life and death." Sahih Muslim

you always make supplications and always ask Allah`s rfuge from laziness and be sincere and try to remind your self of death and that you done not enough to meet Allah with and try to find yourself a specefic optional act of worship to do it daily to not make your body get used to laziness like saying the morning and evening supplications which you will find here:

http://www.makedua.com/display_dua.php?sectionid=27

and try to pray and fast optional prayers and fasting as much as you can bear and never burden yourself to not give up in shaa Allah...this is the Islamic way I know and Allah knows the best...

and for smoking ..I don`t know if you do know that it is forbidden cause by smoking you are ruining and killing the body which Allah gave to you as a trust and reminding yourself of the punishment of Allah and of the bad things would happen for ya becuase of smooking and is it worthy to make you suffer all that sufferness...think about it ...if you want to go on and walk your way to Allah then try your best to get over small wrong things you do...

and I have never heard of the cigarettes in the time of Allah`s Messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) or his companions May allah be pleased with them but what I know that it is forbidden to do something with your body that would harm it ...and Allah knows the best...

5) I cant change my phone no because one of my gay friend knows my brothers phone no . If he will not able to contact me then definitely he will contact with my brother . That gay friend is a medical surgeon . And he is crazy about me . My gay friend will not stop coming my home Even if I change my phone no . I have to change my phone no as well as my accommodation too which is not easy . Its not my anxiety . I already faced so may black mailing . I am bit wary and confuse , still I am not able to realize whats going on with me . Am I in the right path or not .... Allah help me ............

read again what I have said before...and believe me you are not chicken or coward to not face them...face them and be strong enough to walk in your way to Allah...

and when they try to drag you to hell again be a man to say NO...and be serious to mean it; tell them the truth: I am not longer like this so leave me alone please...and no matter how they would try to convince ya say loudly: NO, I am now the slave of Allah and won`t yield my soul to you to throw me in Hellfire...go away and try to remind them of Allah no matter how hard it would be and how much you are sure that they won`t listen ...just tell them that the way you used to live before and they are living now is ugly and won`t benefit you ever but you will lose everything and be a game in others hands... tell them I am higher than this and won`t do it while knowing that Allah Is watching me and hearing me, won`t do it while I know that oneday I will stand before Allah with this ugly deed which is for animals not for us, we are human and Allah honored us and I won`t be like the people of Lot (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) but from those who followed him and all the prophets and Messengers message, which to submit to Allah completely and do my best to please my Lord to meet Him clean and pure, to meet Him while He The Exalted pleased with me, Allah opened my eyes and showed me the way and won`t let anyone ever take this from me...I WANA WIN MY AFTER LIFE AND ALLAH`S SATISFACTION AND LOVE...then make Duaa for their guidance and Make Duaa first for yourself...and May Allah be with you my respected brother...Ameeen

in shaa Allah you will understand what I have said above...

I am bit wary and confuse , still I am not able to realize whats going on with me . Am I in the right path or not .... Allah help me ............

don`t be my respected and noble brother , you are in your way in shaa Allah to happiness and Allah`s satisfaction just be patient, make alot of Duaa and get up show the world the real you in shaa Allah and prove for Allah that you desire Him and His satisfaction.....

and humbly, this is a small simple gift from me to you, I drew this strange drawing for ya my respected brother...

the verses are from Surat Azzumar:" Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful." (53) And return [in repentance] to your Lord and submit to Him before the punishment comes upon you; then you will not be helped. (54)"

this is a rock which the remembarnce of Allah and His love made it change from inside ...giving it the reasons of life so the heart of the rock became soft and full of life that a rose grew up inside and the remeberance of Allah started affect the out side too so the rock start transforming to a blossoing life and fresh flower and this is you from inside and when you my respected brother will let the rememberance of Allah affect your heart your inside and stay firm on this only for Allah`s sake patiently then your outside which is your deeds and life will be affcted too just like this hard rock... may allah guide you always and forever and all of us Ameeeeeeen

 

[Ramadhan]

Brother hopeonAllah,

I am not sure if someone has given you this advice before. I know it sounds cliche, but It will require a lot of patience, and A LOT of time to "reverse" your condition and make it right in the straight path that Allah has provided for us.
From your story that you told us, you have been living homosexual lifestyle for many years, since you were very young. Hence, in order to diminish and rid of your homosexual tendency, it will require more than few months, you may even need a lifetime to do it. There's no quickfixes, there is no pill or potion that instantaneously rid you off from your homosexual desires.
HOWEVER, if you you implement the wealth of advice that many brothers and sisters have given you in this thread, be discipline about them, and constantly ask Allah for help, I am sure that you will be able to at least manage your life so that it does not deviate from the straight path.

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum " naidamar "

My dear friend thank you very mush for your response . I am really thankful to you .

I partially agree with your this statement : " it will require more than few months, you may even need a lifetime to do it. There's no quickfixes, " .

Here I agree that there are no quick fixes But I don't think it will take lifetime to fix it for me Insha Allah . But the thing is; first I need to convince my self completely that homosexuality is a wrong . For that I need to remove all misunderstanding from my mind, so that some time I am repeating same questions . And I have less believe in Islam means my Emaan is very weak . Still I have few doubts about Islam . I will give my complete efforts Once I get rid from my doubts . I have confident that once I give my all efforts I can achieve my goal like a magic Insha Allah !

2) I have very strong EGO . I don't follow or do any thing If some one force me or some one order me rather then inspiration , No mater I am wrong or right . I need to rid my EGO too .

3) I have a very bad habit that whatever I do in my life I do perfectly or I try to do perfectly, No mater its right or wrong . And I wont get relax if I could not do that perfectly . Even My queries too . I start getting angry If I don't get perfect answer of regarding my queries . In fact I start doing opposite or wrong activity while I get angry . This was the reason some time my school principal bounded to provide me different teacher for my lessons in extra classes for me only (for one student) if I could not understand the lessons . I have changed four schools because of this reasons only . In the college I often argue with my principal and other professors in their common or office rooms . I threaten them to launch case in the court if they don't make me understand the topics .
I have to work on it to rid my angry .

If you know any technicians to rid my all those problems please awarded me by informing those technicians ( I hope that will be from Quran and Sahih hadith ) .

Pray for me please ...

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! " Amat Allah "

I hope Allah keeping you happy and Allah providing you rewards against of your helps which you are giving me INsha Allah !

1). Few days ago you have told me that : " you are higher than what you are thinking and your life and soul are so precious to be wasted just like that.... " .
I didn't understand where is my position ? How come my life and soul are so precious ? I am not able to see any value of mine , seriously ! here I am not praising my self . I don't do any thing which can make benefit for this world or for others . I don't even go out from my home . I don't do any thing in my life . How come I am precious ?

2) You said : " then try my respected brother to drink early in the morning ; one cup of warm water after mixing it with one table spoon of honey and one tea spoon of nigella sativa (the black seeds or cumin) " .
Here, should I make powder of black cumin seeds and mix with water or shall I use it in a solid form ?

3). you mentioned : " The Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)said:"There is healing in black cumin for all diseases except death." Sahih Bukhari. ;
The prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him )said:"There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created its treatment.". Sahih Bukhari . So, no matter what you will have then there is a treat of it and this is the saying of the messenger of Allah who neither speaks of (his own) desire nor lie (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)... " .

I really didn't understand this . There are many diseases does not have cure example : Cancer , AIDS etc ... How come black cumin is the cure for all diseases ? Can you make me understand it ?
Can you mention the Hadith Numbers as you have mentioned only the Hadith name " Sahi Bukhari " ? Because its difficult to find out the Hadith without the Hadith Numbers if possible then mention the page numbers too . .

4). I would like to ask you one question I hope you will not mind it . The question is : We often watch many Islamic scholars In the TV and internet , Which are the scholar you like most ?

5). I request you, as well as all the members that , It would be more comfortable for me if you mention references and quotations as much as possible , so that I can find out that particular statement very easily example : Book name + page number + chapter number + verse number etc . Its my request only . I hope you understand what I mean to say .

Please pry for me ....

 

[Amat Allah]

1). Few days ago you have told me that : " you are higher than what you are thinking and your life and soul are so precious to be wasted just like that.... " . I didn't understand where is my position ? How come my life and soul are so precious ? I am not able to see any value of mine , seriously ! here I am not praising my self . I don't do any thing which can make benefit for this world or for others . I don't even go out from my home . I don't do any thing in my life . How come I am precious ?

Wa Alikum Assalaam Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakaatuh

Wa Iyakum and all the Ummah Ameeeeen

you are higher than what you are thinking cause Allah says:"And We have certainly honored the children of Adam and carried them on the land and sea and provided for them of the good things and preferred them over much of what We have created, with [definite] preference. (70)" Surat Al Is`raa.

and says:" We have certainly created man in the best of stature; (4)" Surat Atteen

so, you are higher than what you are thinking cause Allah created you that way and then because you have the love of Allah in your heart and you are treating your self so low; destroying the higher meaning of you and what you are ; you are a slave of Allah but not others and destroying yourself from inside and ignoring the ability that Allah blessed ya with; the ability of changing yourself the ability of proving for others that you have your independent personality so none can control ya but Allah...got me now?

and of course your soul and life are so precious to be wasted cause both of them belonging to their creator and you are not free to waste them just like that, you don`t have the right to do that with something you are trusted to;this is from one way and the other way is: have you ever seen a mother love her lil baby for a benefit it may give to her or to the world? the love of the mother is unconditional and like that Allah taught us to love each other ; brothers and sisters in Islam; unconditionaly and only for His sake so, surely your life and soul are precious to us no matter what you are...got this too?

2) You said : " then try my respected brother to drink early in the morning ; one cup of warm water after mixing it with one table spoon of honey and one tea spoon of nigella sativa (the black seeds or cumin) " . Here, should I make powder of black cumin seeds and mix with water or shall I use it in a solid form ?

No, don`t make it as a powder cause that may make it lose the useful volatile oils it has just take them solid and try to crush them by your teeth...in shaa Allah...

I really didn't understand this . There are many diseases does not have cure example : Cancer , AIDS etc ... How come black cumin is the cure for all diseases ? Can you make me understand it ?

it does my respected brother when used in some specefic ways and added to another substances , I only know what the science descovered about the black seeds till this moment and we don`t know what wil happen later and Allah`s Messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) took His knowledge from His Lord so, if he said that black seed or cumin is the cure for all illnesses except death then surely it is and till this moment there are many things are not descovered yet...

check this out: http://www.kitchendoctor.com/herbs/black_cumin.php

Can you mention the Hadith Numbers as you have mentioned only the Hadith name " Sahi Bukhari " ? Because its difficult to find out the Hadith without the Hadith Numbers if possible then mention the page numbers too . .

of course and I am really so sorry for being so neglegted, here you are:

both of two hadeeths are in Medicine book of Al Bukhari:

Volume 7, Book 71, Number 582:

Narrated Abu Huraira:
The Prophet said, "There is no disease that Allah has created, except that He also has created its treatment."

Volume 7, Book 71, Number 592:

Narrated Abu Huraira:
I heard Allah's Apostle saying, "There is healing in black cumin for all diseases except death."

4). I would like to ask you one question I hope you will not mind it . The question is : We often watch many Islamic scholars In the TV and internet , Which are the scholar you like most ?

No, I don`t mind at all , its ok...

I like many and from them Abdurraheem Green, Khaalid Yasin, Bilal Philips...etc (those whom you can understand their language) and there are many from Arabs like Ibn Baz, Ibn Uthaymeen, Muhammad Al Areefi, Abdulazeez Al Fuzaan...etc

5). I request you, as well as all the members that , It would be more comfortable for me if you mention references and quotations as much as possible , so that I can find out that particular statement very easily example : Book name + page number + chapter number + verse number etc . Its my request only . I hope you understand what I mean to say . Please pry for me ....

in shaa Allah from now on I will remember, again forgive me for being so neglected my noble brother, May Allah show ya the way and guide you to Him always and forever and cure you from all illnesses Ameeeeeeeeen

Humbly, your sister:

Amat Allah.

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! "Amat Allah "

You must have many works even you are making time for supporting me to resolve my problems , Subhan Allah !

1). You have suggested me : " you always make supplications and always ask Allah`s rfuge from laziness and be sincere and try to remind your self of death and that you done not enough to meet Allah with and try to find yourself a specefic optional act of worship to do it daily to not make your body get used to laziness like saying the morning and evening supplications which you will find here:

http://www.makedua.com/display_dua.php?sectionid=27

and try to pray and fast optional prayers and fasting as much as you can bear and never burden yourself to not give up in shaa Allah...this is the Islamic way I know and Allah knows the best... " .

Here I would like to tell you that , I don't feel any laziness for offering Salah in fact I always waiting for call ( Azaan ) since few times . I do Obligation Salah ( Nafil ) . In Fazar 2 + 2 raqat , Zahar 4+ 4+ 2+2 raqat , Asar 4+4 raqat , Magrib 3+2+2 raqat , Ishah 4+4+2+2+3 raqat . I pray to Allah for my laziness too .
Actually I need some thing activity or tricks which can prevent me from laziness and make me smart and active . example : for controlling my same sex attraction one of the best tricks is lower the gaze which Allah tell in the Quran . You believe me or not its works like a magic for me . I am sure some thing should be in Quran and sahih hadith for laziness . Please awarded me by that knowledge .

2) . you told me : " and I have never heard of the cigarettes in the time of Allah`s Messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) or his companions May allah be pleased with them but what I know that it is forbidden to do something with your body that would harm it ...and Allah knows the best... " .

According to my knowledge Islam for all time . Islam has all solutions for all problems . Islam not only do and don't religion its do and don't and how to achieve that do and don't . In Islam all things mentioned , some things may mentioned directly some thing mentioned indirectly , some thing has signs some things straight forwardly . So I believe, in Islam might be not mentioned straight forwardly or directly about smoking ; But may be mentioned about tobacco .
As you said that , those things are forbidden which are harms our body . Here one question arise ; Why Allah forbidden it ? Definitely some one there who was harming their body or Allah knew that people will harm their body , So Allah forbidden it . Allah not only forbidden it but also should shown the way how to stop harming our body . Because Islam is not only Do and Don't . Islam is Do and Don't and how to achieve that Do and Don't .
So I need that tricks or method or way or techniques which Allah provided us through his book and messenger ( Prophet ) .

Please enlightening me by those knowledge .

I will discuss later about changing my phone no etc ...
I need strength and help and more and more knowledge . please help me and pry for me .....

 

[hopeonallah]

ssala mu alaiqum , brother and sister !

I would like to share one more feeling of mine : As I told that, I have inferiority complex . It is there and its hurt me a lot . When I was child ; my elders and my mother and father are always reminding me that I am a looser , so and so guys are getting 90% marks , why you cant get ; because of me my mother feeling shamed in front of others . Now also same thing going on with me . My mother is not there but my elder sister , brother , father and other relatives are still there and they will be there . They always remind me that I am a looser . So and so guy are getting new car , new house etc . they use to indicate some guy who are my ages or below my ages that, look at him; he is younger then you and he bought a new luxurious car , new House etc . They always insulting me , they always shows me how poor I am ! Its still hurting me a lot .Whenever my sister and father call me I feel very pain and scare and sham etc .
They never try to know neither they are interested to know that whats going on with me, What I am struggling. I cant explain my pain by writing , I don't even explain by any ways . I am always avoiding my family members . In fact I don't want to make them feel sham because of me in front of other .
Some time I am thinking , what is the value of material things for that person who is suffering from cancer ? They don't know what I am struggling since child hood . They cant understand that this world cant carry any value for me . Some time I hate earning money . In fact I scare money . may be its my excuse because I coward . I am useless . So whenever I saw any better guy I started hating him and I want to show him My power, that is the one more reason's I do sex with male and take off their manliness .
Yesterday MY elder sister called me but I didn't pick her call because I don't have energy to face her greedy and proudly , arrogant , comparative , harsh , insulting etc voices . I always running from my family . BUT...........

My revenge feeling is hurting me a lot . I am feeling looser because I am not talking any revenge from any male by having sex with them since few months .Consciously I am loosing opportunities.

I cant even explain ; who much I am struggling ! I can say that , I would be happy if some one provide me death penalty besides my struggling .

 

[Muhaba]

this sort of thinkng is really sick. you need to stop it. why take revenge on other males who didn't do anything to you? you should have the courage to straighten your family instead of wanting to take it out on other males and then wrongly feeling good about yourself, when actually the only one you destroy is your own self. if your family is making you feel low, get the strength to tell them to stop pickin on you.

as long as you don't feel that homosexuality is wrong, you won't be able to stop it. i think all these are your excuses to continue with what you want to do deep down. it is really terrible of you. In the Quran it is written that homosexuality is wrong (in the story of the nation of Prophet Lut AS). If youbelieve that the Quran is God's Book and is correct, then you will believe that what it says about homosexuality is right. if you don't then you aren't a true muslim.

you should get away from your homo friends, whether it is by moving or by telling them to stop contacting you. you will have to do whatever is in your power to stop anything that gives you homo tendencies if you want Allah to help you overcome this.

 

[Amat Allah]

Wa Alikum Assalaam Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakaatuh

Here I would like to tell you that , I don't feel any laziness for offering Salah in fact I always waiting for call ( Azaan ) since few times . I do Obligation Salah ( Nafil ) . In Fazar 2 + 2 raqat , Zahar 4+ 4+ 2+2 raqat , Asar 4+4 raqat , Magrib 3+2+2 raqat , Ishah 4+4+2+2+3 raqat . I pray to Allah for my laziness too . Actually I need some thing activity or tricks which can prevent me from laziness and make me smart and active . example : for controlling my same sex attraction one of the best tricks is lower the gaze which Allah tell in the Quran . You believe me or not its works like a magic for me . I am sure some thing should be in Quran and sahih hadith for laziness . Please awarded me by that knowledge .

Obligation means Farz (the prayers which you are obliged to perform) and Nafil is the optional ones and I am so sorry cause I couldn`t understand the numbers you wrote above totaly:

Al Fajir prayer: two Sunnah + two Farz and after ending your prayer; you may stay where you are making Athiker till the sun rises and perform two optional Rak`aat...and before Zuhur paryer with an hour and a half is the best time to pray Salatu Aduhaa and it starts from 2 Rak`ah to as much as you want...

Zuhur: 4 sunnah+ 4Farz+ 2 Sunnah.

Asir: between the Azaan and Iqaamah of Al asir prayer you may perform 4 optional Rak`aat then after The Iqaamah the Farz which 4 Rak`aat .

Al Maghrib: between the Azaan and Iqaamah of Al Maghrib prayer you may perform 2 optional Rak`aat and after the Iqaamah comes the Farz which is 3 Rak`aat then 2 Sunnah.

Al I`shaa:between the Azaan and Iqaamah of Al I`shaa prayer you may perform 2 optional Rak`aat and after the Iqaamah comes the Farz which is 4 Rak`aat then 2 Sunnah.

after Al I`shaa you may pray the night prayer or Tahajud but the best time for it after the middle of the night in the last third of the night, and Tahajud is divided to two parts : Ash`shaff`e and Al Watr and it is 11 or 13 Rak`aat as narrated about the prophet Muhammad peace and blessings of Allah be upon him, Ash`shaff`e is to pray 2 Rak`at then end it with the Tas`leem then pray two Ra`kat and so on ; the number you wants then praying the Watr which is one Rak`ah to seal your night prayer and that must be before Al Fajir Azaan...

and there is 2 Rak`aat you may pray after each wudu you do which call Sunnat Al Wudu...

Allah knows if you will understand what I wrote ...

According to my knowledge Islam for all time . Islam has all solutions for all problems . Islam not only do and don't religion its do and don't and how to achieve that do and don't . In Islam all things mentioned , some things may mentioned directly some thing mentioned indirectly , some thing has signs some things straight forwardly . So I believe, in Islam might be not mentioned straight forwardly or directly about smoking ; But may be mentioned about tobacco . As you said that , those things are forbidden which are harms our body . Here one question arise ; Why Allah forbidden it ? Definitely some one there who was harming their body or Allah knew that people will harm their body , So Allah forbidden it . Allah not only forbidden it but also should shown the way how to stop harming our body . Because Islam is not only Do and Don't . Islam is Do and Don't and how to achieve that Do and Don't . So I need that tricks or method or way or techniques which Allah provided us through his book and messenger ( Prophet ) . Please enlightening me by those knowledge . I will discuss later about changing my phone no etc ... I need strength and help and more and more knowledge . please help me and pry for me .....

if Allah made some things forbidden then they are for testing His slaves and whom avoids them will be suerly a winner as Allah promised us...and if falling in them then Allah The Most Merciful opened for us the door of repentance till the day of the hour...Alhamdulilah...

and the deen have mentioned for us many things in general then the Shar`eeah which Allah gave to us has came to explain everything for us depending on the proofs from Qur`aan and Sunnah and surely Islam is for all times and there is no need for the religion to name for ya every lil thing to prove for ya its prohibition but one general proof is enough to include many things under one specefic category...

like drugs there is no specefic Ayah or hadeeth talking about drugs but there are many proofs in them telling us not to eat Intoxicants and things which make you lose your reason...

and the general hadeeth The Shai`aa used to tell us that smooking is prohibited is the saying of the prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him:"there is no injury nor return of injury" hadeeth number 31 found in the book of 'Judgements' of Malik's Muwatta.

and no another proofs from Qur`aan and Sunah which ordering us not to waste our money on useless things: Allah says:"Indeed, the wasteful are brothers of the devils, and ever has Satan been to his Lord ungrateful. (27) " Surat Al Is`raa and says:"and do not spend wastefully. (26) " Surat Al Is`raa and spending money to buy cigerates is a waste for the money and not only a waste but buying something harmful for the body which is you ar etrusted on it....

and Allah says in Surat Al Baqarah, verse 195:"and do not throw [yourselves] with your [own] hands into destruction " and by smooking you do...

 

[Amat Allah]

ssala mu alaiqum , brother and sister ! I would like to share one more feeling of mine : As I told that, I have inferiority complex . It is there and its hurt me a lot . When I was child ; my elders and my mother and father are always reminding me that I am a looser , so and so guys are getting 90% marks , why you cant get ; because of me my mother feeling shamed in front of others . Now also same thing going on with me . My mother is not there but my elder sister , brother , father and other relatives are still there and they will be there . They always remind me that I am a looser . So and so guy are getting new car , new house etc . they use to indicate some guy who are my ages or below my ages that, look at him; he is younger then you and he bought a new luxurious car , new House etc . They always insulting me , they always shows me how poor I am ! Its still hurting me a lot .Whenever my sister and father call me I feel very pain and scare and sham etc . They never try to know neither they are interested to know that whats going on with me, What I am struggling. I cant explain my pain by writing , I don't even explain by any ways . I am always avoiding my family members . In fact I don't want to make them feel sham because of me in front of other . Some time I am thinking , what is the value of material things for that person who is suffering from cancer ? They don't know what I am struggling since child hood . They cant understand that this world cant carry any value for me . Some time I hate earning money . In fact I scare money . may be its my excuse because I coward . I am useless . So whenever I saw any better guy I started hating him and I want to show him My power, that is the one more reason's I do sex with male and take off their manliness . Yesterday MY elder sister called me but I didn't pick her call because I don't have energy to face her greedy and proudly , arrogant , comparative , harsh , insulting etc voices . I always running from my family . BUT........... My revenge feeling is hurting me a lot . I am feeling looser because I am not talking any revenge from any male by having sex with them since few months .Consciously I am loosing opportunities. I cant even explain ; who much I am struggling ! I can say that , I would be happy if some one provide me death penalty besides my struggling .

in shaa Allah will come back for this later...

and btw, I used to be called loser and worse huh like I care about others, someone would say I am bad then I will believe that I am bad stupidly I am not the shoe for others they wear me whenever they want and thraw me whenever they want...and they tell me something low then I out of smartness rightaway prove for them that they are %100 right...what kind of nonsens is this ? WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP...

you are letting others control ya and taking you identity form ya being their slave and Robot...what kind of life is this? stop it for Allah`s sake....

sorry for being so harsh but you are making thing bad for yourself by yourself...chosing to be so negative and lazy cause this is the simple way you can take ...go a head be like this till meet your Lord and see...what excuses will save ya then....

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! " WRITER "

Thank you very much for your reply . You are right that I cant overcome from Homosexuality until I don't believe it wrong . That is the reason I am searching counseling that, some one make me understand that Homosexuality is wrong . Still I have many queries about it . I need to clarify it completely then, follow the instruction to overcome from homosexuality . Till that time I can control it . I am controlling it by lower my gaze ! Here I need to mention that, I am just controlling my homosexuality for a curtain time ; I am not give up my homosexuality until clarify my doubt completely .

You may say , I am Hypocrite ( Munafic ) . I think I am . You may say I am not Muslim . My answer will be yes . I have doubt about it ! I may not be a Muslim . You have full rights to call me Qafir . trust me I wont feel bad about it . Because most probably I am a Qafir .

*** " I don't rape any body . please remember it ".

I don't know about you but I am sure that, I am not enough strong as like as you . You come to my position then..........

How Allah help me to overcome from Homosexuality ? By sending Holy sprite ?

Look honorable scholar, I got more then thousands time counseling in favor of homosexuality with medication . I asked many cross question to them . And I have many cross question to non favorable people of homosexuality too.
I defeated favorable people of homosexuality . But I need to defeated my self from non favorable people of homosexuality . I am in the neutral position now . neither is wrong nor its right . That the reason I have been controlling homosexual act since few months . It does not mean I have stopped it for forever . If I don't get proper answer against of homosexuality then, I will choose my further steps . Any how I am a Qafir ! Right ?

 

[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! " Amat Allah "

I want to tell you that : I have stopped working for living ( earning money ) long back ago .
You may ask then, how you are managing your expenses ? Answer is I have money to survive a certain time . But its almost over .

Now you may ask then, how you will be survive ? My answer is I don't need and want to survive . I will live until my money get over .
Because I don't want to work for money . I will not accept any economical help from any body . Because I dont want to live . I want to sleep and sleep and sleep ...........

 

[Amat Allah]

Assala mu alaiqum ! " Amat Allah " I want to tell you that : I have stopped working for living ( earning money ) long back ago . You may ask then, how you are managing your expenses ? Answer is I have money to survive a certain time . But its almost over . Now you may ask then, how you will be survive ? My answer is I don't need and want to survive . I will live until my money get over . Because I don't want to work for money . I will not accept any economical help from any body . Because I dont want to live . I want to sleep and sleep and sleep ...........

Wa Alikum Assalaam Wa Rahmatullahi Wa Barakaatuh

first of all I want ya to know that we are all know that you are suffering and none here know your real pain and how much you been tortured and also you said to sister writer :

You have full rights to call me Qafir

while none in earth have the right to call ya that cause this is forbidden to be said to someone who believe in Allah and His messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)


second: I won`t say how you will be survive ever, cause I already know who is Allah and I trust Him to death...

don`t you know what Allah says in Qur`aan:"And how many a creature carries not its [own] provision. Allah provides for it and for you. And He is the Hearing, the Knowing. (60)" Surat Al An`kaboot

and says:"And there is no creature on earth but that upon Allah is its provision, and He knows its place of dwelling and place of storage. All is in a clear register. (6)" Surat Hood

and says:"And I did not create the jinn and mankind except to worship Me. (56) I do not want from them any provision, nor do I want them to feed Me. (57) Indeed, it is Allah who is the [continual] Provider, the firm possessor of strength. (58) " Surat Athaariyaat

and says:"Say, "Come, I will recite what your Lord has prohibited to you. [He commands] that you not associate anything with Him, and to parents, good treatment, and do not kill your children out of poverty; We will provide for you and them. And do not approach immoralities - what is apparent of them and what is concealed. And do not kill the soul which Allah has forbidden [to be killed] except by [legal] right. This has He instructed you that you may use reason." (151) " Surat Al An`aam... if Allah telling people not to kill their children for a poverty and that He can provide them and their children then is it impossible to Allah to provide you Ya Akhi? (Astaghfero Allah Al Atheem)...

and says:"And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out (2) And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent. (3) " and says:"And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him of his matter ease. (4) That is the command of Allah, which He has sent down to you; and whoever fears Allah - He will remove for him his misdeeds and make great for him his reward. (5)" Surat Attalaaq

and says:"And We have made for you therein means of living and [for] those for whom you are not providers. (20) And there is not a thing but that with Us are its depositories, and We do not send it down except according to a known measure. (21) " Surat Al Hijir....

have you forgot that Allah Is the One Who created everything and that He has the depositories of everything? have you forgot that Allah is The Provider?

and in Jami Attirmithi , the book of Zuhd (piety), in a sahih hadeeth number: 2351

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[/FONT]Allah`s messenger (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him) said:"If you trust in Allah observing a true trust in Him, then, indeed, He will give you provision as - provides the birds who emerge hungry in the morning and return with a full belly in the evening.”

and you want to sleep and sleep and sleep because whenever you are on the right path walking and heading to Allah; you yourself start putting past as a Stumbling block in your way ,why?

how many times we; your brothers and sisters told ya that there is no benefit fom past but pain? but you are not listening to us but to the satan who is whispering in your ears to depresse you and make your life up side down...

if you want to change then don`t look back or to others, just walk a head and never take side paths...

May Allah be with you Ameeeen

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[hopeonallah]

Assala mu alaiqum " Amat Allah "

I think , I should not live in fairytale . We should be in practical . As you said Black cumin has capacity to cure all diseases , Don't you think its the history of wonderland ? Please give me a brake from such fairytale . Thank God ! I don't know Arabic otherwise I could have read those fairytale .

2). woodworm live inside the wood and they eat their food from there only . Birds live in the nest and they fly and search food and they eat . Human being making money by working and they eat . I don't live in middle east where liquid gold ( patrol ) are inside the land , So that people come to us and giving money for the patrol without work . My dear sister I live in India here you cant get a fresh air without money and for money people has to struggle . Every day hundreds of people are dying without food . Be practical please ...
No doubt religion's give us psychological satisfaction . But for food and other necessity we have to work . Please be practical ...

 

[Amat Allah]

Assala mu alaiqum " Amat Allah " I think , I should not live in fairytale . We should be in practical . As you said Black cumin has capacity to cure all diseases , Don't you think its the history of wonderland ? Please give me a brake from such fairytale . Thank God ! I don't know Arabic otherwise I could have read those fairytale . 2). woodworm live inside the wood and they eat their food from there only . Birds live in the nest and they fly and search food and they eat . Human being making money by working and they eat . I don't live in middle east where liquid gold ( patrol ) are inside the land , So that people come to us and giving money for the patrol without work . My dear sister I live in India here you cant get a fresh air without money and for money people has to struggle . Every day hundreds of people are dying without food . Be practical please ... No doubt religion's give us psychological satisfaction . But for food and other necessity we have to work . Please be practical ...

stop right there ya Akhi, till this limit and stop cause I will not allow you to insult Allah The Exalted and the prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings of Allah be upon him)...behave yourself please , if that insult was directed to me then I would never care but at this point your are crossing the lines...so, I with respect recommending you to calm and watch your fingers which are typing, ok?

May Allah guide you before you stand in His court and the whole world Ameeeeeeen