Bism Allah AlRahman AlRaheem,
May Allah Ta’Ala help you and pave you an easy path out.
As for your situation, you’re not alone and you’re not the only one. But, let me tell you something important, change is a normal part in the world that Allah created. You can’t expect to have your spirituality highly uplifted all the time, as well as you cant expect to be healthy all the time and financially wealthy; thus we can conclude that change, is a normal form in our lives. There was a blessed companion who asked the prophet Muhammad about an issue regarding the similar situation of Imaan that you bought up into discussion; the Prophet Muhammad peace and blessings be upon him replied that if we were to be high in Imaan the whole time, Angels would have saluted us in the pathways and that it’s a normal part of a believer to have ups and downs in Imaan.
The second point I want to make very clear is that Allah Subhana’h wa Ta’ala’ had said in His Noble Book:
In the name of Allah the Beneficent the Merciful,
‘Alif Lam Meem.
. Do people think that they will be left alone on saying, we believe, and they will not be tried?
. Certainly We have tried those before them, and surely Allah knows those who are true, and He knows the liars.’’
Verses1 to 3 from
Surat al'Ankabut , The Spider
From this you can anaylise that trials are decreed upon every soul, weather it be a believer or a hypocrite. The geniune of these tests is to proof the strenghth and validity of your faith. For instance, take a car as an example, when its been constructed it goes through a test to see wheather its as it might seem or not, a truly strong car would manage to stay still throughout the strong test, but a weak car would devastate in the sudden; an such is a poor, I admit, parable of a believer and a hypocrite when they are put into trial by Allah; a believer manages to suceed and the hypocrite , who only shows off iman for worldly gains and to be praised by others , will undoubtly crash and devastate. When you read in the Noble Qura’n you will come through Verses in the Qura’n that tell us how the believers , although they feel very shooken, still have that faith in them when they are put in a test, and the contrasts of the hypocrites who mock the believers and mock Islam and everything that has to do with it at times of trial, and like they say; the true intentions of a person spill out when they are afflicted. Ponder on this Authentic Hadeeth in where the Prophet Muhammad excellently describes this all:
Allah's Apostle said, "The example of a believer is that of a fresh tender plant; from whatever direction the wind comes, it bends it, but when the wind becomes quiet, it becomes straight again. Similarly, a believer is afflicted with calamities (but he remains patient till Allah removes his difficulties.) And an impious wicked person is like a pine tree which keeps hard and straight till Allah cuts (breaks) it down when He wishes." (See Hadith No. 558, Vol. 9.)
The other point is that , yes its hard what you’re going through ( it wouldn’t be called a trial otherwise) , especially at the beginning, because I’ve also been there, as well as other Muslims here, but believe me that when you seek help and support from Allah in your everyday life, Allah will never ever let you down, and through time you’ll get used to it. Not only that, you will actually apreciate that Allah gave you the opportunity to do this greater Jihad, as called by the Prophet, and that is Jihad Al’ Nafs. Because through time you will feel pleasure by this striving and it will help you Insha’Allah attain piety because you will feel as though every sin is counted against you and may be this will improve your relationship with your relatives , family and particualrly you r wife who , from the notion of your tone, you seem to sometimes get harsh on her. You will come to relise that the more sins you do, the more your Iman will feel down because your iman is in your heart and sins stain the heart and iman cant stay on a sinful stained heart. The same way, the more you do acts of worship, charity work( do a lot of it), extra fasting, volunteering, and even housework, even the meal you put in your wifes mouth, whatever good deed it is ,ask Allah the Most Generouse to allow you to take part in it and make it easy for you to do the good deeds and abstain from evil deeds and more importantly ask Him for support and that He makes all your deeds intended for His pleasure, indeed He is Merciful Lord to his slaves. * Don’t forget that the most Duaa the Prophet used to supplicate is:
اللهم يا مقلب القلوب ثبت قلوبنا
“O Allah, the Turner of the hearts, turn our hearts to Thine obedience.”
That’s because he informed us that :
“Verily, the hearts of all the sons of Adam are between the two fingers out of the fingers of the Compassionate Lord as one heart. He turns that to any (direction) He desires.”
The last point is, and please pay attention to it, is that it may be that there is perhaps a chance that you are undergoing a side effect of some magic work or black magic. Please don’t under estimate it because, personally I know a very young relative who had black magic on her and some of the side effects she expiremented is what you could call low Iman, and that has to do with evil possession of Jinn. So beware especially of persons who are known for their evil or envy- and take note that some people hide their hostility. For further details on this I advice you to check out this urgent article that I’ve posted called on the general section of the forum, its written in Arabic.
Another very important advice I conclude this post with is for you to be careful and make sure to stick with the good believers in congregation because shaytan will find it hard to stray a group rather than an individual, and remember this Hadeeth:
Narrated AbudDarda':
I heard the Apostle of Allah (peace_be_upon_him) say: If there are three men in a village or in the desert among whom prayer is not offered (in congregation), the devil has got the mastery over them. So observe (prayer) in congregation), for the wolf eats only the straggling animal. Sa'ib said: By the word Jama'ah he meant saying prayer in company or in congregation.
May Allah The Most Merciful The Most Glorious protect us and all the muslims in the world and make for them an easy path to Jannah and make us take part in every good deed and abstain from every bad deed. Ameen Ya Rab Ala’lameen.
Fe Aman Allah
That's what we ALL do. We fight, we struggle!
