Asalaam
i had to ask some questions i opened my account again i hope i get them clear here.
I wanted to know, i have been living a life of ghaflah and i would collect knowledge abt Islam. With the “Thought” that i am v good muslimah and soon i m going to start practice. All these years i had in mind as if i am good while not saying salah nor care of parents etc
till that after so much years i did thouba. Started saying salah but now i feel like What i was thinking abt myself was just lie?
It was deception of Shytan.
My question is. My intention was right. I did sins with intentions that i am good n one day i wil start ibadah n that its not my life my life will start soon.
How can a person decieve himself for years? What was that? I am edicated intelligent person how did i decieved my own self? Or i was too selfish? I used to think i am v close to Allah but now i feel like i am faar away.
2- if i was selfish n had a heart of hypocrite can my Nature be changed?
plz help me understanding my past so i can move forward inshaAllah
i will ask a couple of questions then leave inshaAllah. Hopefully you answer me.. i will be waiting..
i had to ask some questions i opened my account again i hope i get them clear here.
I wanted to know, i have been living a life of ghaflah and i would collect knowledge abt Islam. With the “Thought” that i am v good muslimah and soon i m going to start practice. All these years i had in mind as if i am good while not saying salah nor care of parents etc
till that after so much years i did thouba. Started saying salah but now i feel like What i was thinking abt myself was just lie?
It was deception of Shytan.
My question is. My intention was right. I did sins with intentions that i am good n one day i wil start ibadah n that its not my life my life will start soon.
How can a person decieve himself for years? What was that? I am edicated intelligent person how did i decieved my own self? Or i was too selfish? I used to think i am v close to Allah but now i feel like i am faar away.
2- if i was selfish n had a heart of hypocrite can my Nature be changed?
plz help me understanding my past so i can move forward inshaAllah
i will ask a couple of questions then leave inshaAllah. Hopefully you answer me.. i will be waiting..