Nitro Zeus
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Just now I noticed that hoping for reversal of time, is actually a person who is unaware of reality. When I noticed this just now no matter what good inention I have, it is stll rejected and now my level of anger has grown so much that it is impossible for me to enjoy this life, my Muslim father used to tell me: "Leave this bullshit and enjoy the life, be normal" many times, but still I disagreed with him because he does not know what is the exact reason I want.
I used to enjoy going outside with my dog "Yorkshire" which was bought for my sister, I used to enjoy life by listening to Rock and Rock and Roll.
Since I noticed and felt that my wish is a major sin and a shameful one, then I started to have the feeling of quiting makig Dua for reversal of time. And now, I feel like my feelings are crushed and now unhappy with life because I cannot do things I liked such as I mentioned above, because I will be looked as a weird and foolish person to others, and I might have terrible days for not doing this anymore. Now when I heard someone saying that the Judgment Day is coming very fast, then I started to go mad because I realised that my Dua for reversal of time is still rejected. And I am unable to live with the idea that I wont see in Heaven all my family members, they will be only Muslims from my family. I'm feeling also extremely jealous that I have a "aunts" and cousins but they are Muslims, and my Muslim cousins are very luky to have their mother and their grandmother and grandfather as true Muslims and they will meet each other in Paradise, and I hope me too to be there. The reason I a very jealous because I dont have what they have, and I feeling like heartbraken. That is why I strongly wish for God To reverse the time so that He can Make Heaven be for People of Scriptures and Muslims, so that now days I can live happly knowing that my Christian grandfather will be raised among the true Christian believers. And today I woke up again very angry because of what I realised yesterday, and now when I am late said "How bad I wished for time to be reversed" and also when I saw that it is 8:00, I by mistake out of intense anger, I have said "hell with clock" and now I felt like I have insulted time because of too may probitions and because what Laws are, and that I still did not get that wish to be fulfilled. Honestly, I am unable to be happy. I tried to explain to my mother that if reversal of time is not possible, then I think,we should get rid of the dog and to quit listening to music. And she tells me that it is not true that God did not Made those legislations just to live a life of misery, and I told her that we have ben affected by Satan and that is why you dont understand, and she asks me why am I his enemy? And I told her, as long as you accept the fact that it is sinful to listen to music, then you are no longer an enemy, but if you still not believe, then you are an enemy.
How can I build a happy life if I dont find aything that pleases m??
I used to enjoy going outside with my dog "Yorkshire" which was bought for my sister, I used to enjoy life by listening to Rock and Rock and Roll.
Since I noticed and felt that my wish is a major sin and a shameful one, then I started to have the feeling of quiting makig Dua for reversal of time. And now, I feel like my feelings are crushed and now unhappy with life because I cannot do things I liked such as I mentioned above, because I will be looked as a weird and foolish person to others, and I might have terrible days for not doing this anymore. Now when I heard someone saying that the Judgment Day is coming very fast, then I started to go mad because I realised that my Dua for reversal of time is still rejected. And I am unable to live with the idea that I wont see in Heaven all my family members, they will be only Muslims from my family. I'm feeling also extremely jealous that I have a "aunts" and cousins but they are Muslims, and my Muslim cousins are very luky to have their mother and their grandmother and grandfather as true Muslims and they will meet each other in Paradise, and I hope me too to be there. The reason I a very jealous because I dont have what they have, and I feeling like heartbraken. That is why I strongly wish for God To reverse the time so that He can Make Heaven be for People of Scriptures and Muslims, so that now days I can live happly knowing that my Christian grandfather will be raised among the true Christian believers. And today I woke up again very angry because of what I realised yesterday, and now when I am late said "How bad I wished for time to be reversed" and also when I saw that it is 8:00, I by mistake out of intense anger, I have said "hell with clock" and now I felt like I have insulted time because of too may probitions and because what Laws are, and that I still did not get that wish to be fulfilled. Honestly, I am unable to be happy. I tried to explain to my mother that if reversal of time is not possible, then I think,we should get rid of the dog and to quit listening to music. And she tells me that it is not true that God did not Made those legislations just to live a life of misery, and I told her that we have ben affected by Satan and that is why you dont understand, and she asks me why am I his enemy? And I told her, as long as you accept the fact that it is sinful to listen to music, then you are no longer an enemy, but if you still not believe, then you are an enemy.
How can I build a happy life if I dont find aything that pleases m??