it is a blessing from Allah swt that you still were able to feel , and feel horrible about it after the feeling of a high is over, and that is what probably propelled you to find a better meaning in life, 'cause there are people who ignore those dark feelings of depression after substance abuse, and carry on for more, going deeper in the vicious cycle of being totally becoming a slave to drugs/intoxicants, and at last sealing their own fates, and unable to feel any sort of regret, remorse, or any sense of responsibility about where they are headed. If anyone had heard the lyrics of 'comfortably numb' by this well known rock band, Nirvana the lead singer of which committed suicide, thats about what drugs and intoxicants do to you, they make you comfortably numb to your own sense of warning, pain, and of those around you.
P.s: before anyone jumps at me for knowing about music, I don't listen to music anymore or ever did any drugs , and I still stand by strong against it Alhamdulilah, I came to know as a health professional about how the youth was so intoxicated by songs/drugs and etc and how music makes you enjoy drugs even more, these are all tools of satan which he uses to tempt people with and drag them slowly towards their own destruction.
P.s: before anyone jumps at me for knowing about music, I don't listen to music anymore or ever did any drugs , and I still stand by strong against it Alhamdulilah, I came to know as a health professional about how the youth was so intoxicated by songs/drugs and etc and how music makes you enjoy drugs even more, these are all tools of satan which he uses to tempt people with and drag them slowly towards their own destruction.