How I became a human devil!

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After many years of trial and hardship I finally got angry at god and finally broke down. And of course god punished me severely and now my life is literally over!. My Iman has been completely sucked out dry from my heart. I have no emotion anymore. I pens my days sinning all day intentionally and I'm a literal puppet. The devil has won over me. And now I'm an actual devil myself. I can't listen to Quran or hear anything about Islam. I know I'm going to hell forever and there is no hope. I could literally kill drone and not feel a thing. I was cursed ever since I was born and who's fault is that?. I regret ever being Muslim in the first place because it led to my destruction. So just wanted to share that.
 
((Thus did the (generations) before them say! But all that they did was of no profit to them))

((Nay, the evil results of their Deeds overtook them. And the wrong-doers of this (generation)- the evil results of their Deeds will soon

overtake them (too), and they will never be able to frustrate (Our Plan))

((Know they not that Allah enlarges the provision or restricts it, for any He pleases? Verily, in this are Signs for those who believe!))

((Say: "O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah: for Allah forgives all sins: for

He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful))

(("Turn ye to our Lord (in repentance) and bow to His (Will), before the Penalty comes on you: after that ye shall not be helped))

Surah Az-Zumar
 
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Don't lie to yourself. Do you know that there are people who spend their whole lives being strong Muslims dedicating their entire lives to god, but at the last moment they mess up once and they die a kafir and go to hell forever. Do you think it's fair that the prophet and his companions lived in a time when there was no fitna like today?. They lived with the prophet of course they had an advantage. And they were promised heaven. What about us?. God does not live all his servants equally. Just no that. If god loved you he would have created a permanent hell. The fact that he gives you blessing is just a manifestation of his power. He does it because he can. Basically were gods puppets and we have no choice. God hated me from day one. I wasted 10 years of my life because of him. And now he's going to burn me forever. Don't fool yourself. You may end up in hell and not even know it. God created everything right?. Even the devil himself. So who's really evil here?.
 
the repenter13 said:
After many years of trial and hardship I finally got angry at god and finally broke down. And of course god punished me severely and now my life is literally over!. My Iman has been completely sucked out dry from my heart. I have no emotion anymore. I pens my days sinning all day intentionally and I'm a literal puppet. The devil has won over me. And now I'm an actual devil myself. I can't listen to Quran or hear anything about Islam. I know I'm going to hell forever and there is no hope. I could literally kill drone and not feel a thing. I was cursed ever since I was born and who's fault is that?. I regret ever being Muslim in the first place because it led to my destruction. So just wanted to share that.
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Brother I feel the same as you so let me give you an advice from one who really understands what you going through
If nobody is agaisnt you being a muslim,and you can pray freerly,then start praying night salah and fajr everyday,at least these two salah at first,they are the receipe to success
Know that if you continue sinning intentionally that wont bring you closer to Allah.So please stop doing that
I know many people may have told you to be patient but there is no other choice really.Time will pass anyway,so just try to be strong.Dont let shaytan win.If you fight you may win,if you dont you are already lost
I will make a duaa for you I hope you start fighting again
Peace be with you..

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nvm your situation is worst than I thought...
 
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You don't understand. I can't be Muslim anymore. God doesn't want me to anymore. No matter what I do now I'm doomed. the reason I sin is because I'm trying to have as much fun before I die. I'm going to hell forever so I don't know what else to do now. This really sucks!!!!!!.
 
Who said you cant? You are muslim already.You believe Allah is real and there is no God except him.So you are still a muslim.
Well as far as I can see you arent having fun otherwise you wouldnt come here.You know yourself sinning brings nothing good
I know its super hard but try to do what i said and you will see the change,I promise

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the repenter13 said:
You don't understand. I can't be Muslim anymore. God doesn't want me to anymore. No matter what I do now I'm doomed. the reason I sin is because I'm trying to have as much fun before I die. I'm going to hell forever so I don't know what else to do now. This really sucks!!!!!!.
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Who said you cant? You are muslim already.You believe Allah is real and there is no God except him.So you are still a muslim.
Well as far as I can see you arent having fun otherwise you wouldnt come here.You know yourself sinning brings nothing good
I know its super hard but try to do what i said and you will see the change,I promise
 
You are just mentally confused now. You just need treatment. Then you'll be fine.
 
All of the last 10 years I spent religiously devout. Now it all goes to waste. This is not a loving God. We were created for hell. God could have forgiven Adam and Eve and kept them in heaven. But no he decided to throw the out and threaten mankind with hell. Heck god could have made everyone go to heaven. But for some reason he creates an eternal hell. Why?. All these years I thought being Muslim was an honour and something great. In reality it's nothing but self destruction.
 
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Who said you cant? You are muslim already.You believe Allah is real and there is no God except him.So you are still a muslim.
Well as far as I can see you arent having fun otherwise you wouldnt come here.You know yourself sinning brings nothing good
I know its super hard but try to do what i said and you will see the change,I promise

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Who said you cant? You are muslim already.You believe Allah is real and there is no God except him.So you are still a muslim.
Well as far as I can see you arent having fun otherwise you wouldnt come here.You know yourself sinning brings nothing good
I know its super hard but try to do what i said and you will see the change,I promise
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You don't understand. Simply believing in God does not mean I'm Muslim. Satan believes in God but he's a kafir. I can't pray or be Muslim if I want to. I'm no different than the devil.
 
Do you know that the fire has seven gates and the heaven has eight gates , mercy from my Lord? if anyone said no God but Allah, Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah, he is one of the people of Paradise no matter what he did, except to share with Allah something else

Do you think that you are the only one who is going through fitna

the prophet and his companions do you really know what happened to them


you just have to calm down and be one of the people of paradise Allah's mercy upon you is even greater than your mercy upon your self .

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A man asked Imam Ahmad ibn Hanbal, the man said when you feel comfortable? He said to him when I put my right foot in heaven
 
All of that fine and dandy. But it's too late for me. My fate is sealed. There's no place for me in heaven. I used to love talking about heaven. But now I hate it because it makes me feel bad that I'll never enter. I only have three options now. Either I kill myself. Have as much fun until I die. or kill a bunch of people. That's it. I wish I could go back in time but I can't. The damage has been done.
 
Easy, say no God but Allah Muhammad is the Messenger of Allah , and enjoy your life as you like , then we will meet with you in paradise in sha Allah

as long as you are a Muslim we can pray for you, you will see our prayer in your life but don't thank us when you see your life turn easy, thank us in paradise in sha Allah
 
the repenter13 said:
You don't understand. Simply believing in God does nnot mean I'm Muslim. Satan believes in God but he's a kafir. I can't pray or be Muslim if I want to. I'm no different than the devil.
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I cant pray too.I walk around with shattered shoes.Even this I am writing from an ipad that is not mine..But there is no other choice.If we follow shaytan we are doomed anyway.I say we should go through this a bit more and someday we will finish this and be victorious in shaa Allah
You arent alone brother

What do you suggest then that you should do? And how can I help you?
 

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